And today was a day just like any other...

2007-03-03T01:53:00.000-05:00

I got fed up with stuff on here and i had no patience or desire to try to fix stuff...so i'm going back to xanga...

visit me on xanga.com/jd787

see ya
- Justin

gt

So you walk outside and everything's new...

2007-02-26T16:32:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Switchfoot
- 4:12

Hey guys...I'm taking a quick break from studying...just wanted to say a few things!

1st off--I'm going home for a few days!! I'm leaving on Wednesday and I'll be there til Sunday!! Hopefully I get to see a lot of you! If I don't--umm..I love you haha

--The New Switchfoot Cd---AMAZING! love it!!
--Jillian Comes to WVU!!--i believe in a week from friday!!
--PCB soooo soon!!

I am very excited to come home!! Because I am not going to be home until May and I really could use some jersey haha

I got to get back to studyin...

later guys
- Justin

good times

It's only tonight...

2007-02-22T23:19:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
The All American Rejects
-11:11pm

WOW! I can't even explain what just happened haha but I'll try. So I'm sitting here looking at Internships online for this summer. At the same time I get an IM from a friend from camp that I haven't talked to in forever, telling me I should come back to camp...What Are The Chances?? Well it gets better...At the same time all this is going down, I find out theres a a very very slim chance I could go back to rec and get the coordinator positon (but who knows) and at the same time I get a Text Message from Aimee...who hasn't given me the "11:11" txt message in a long time...of course texted me at that moment! hahaha This reminds me of that episode of Friends "The One Where Ross Got High" when they are at thanksgiving and all in 30 seconds you hear monica tell there parents that...ross got high and it leads to this...
Monica: Dad, Chandler didn't melt your records, Ross did.
Jack Geller: Is that...
Monica: And Dad, you know that mailman you got fired? He didn't steal your Playboys, Ross did.
Ross: Yea, well Hurricane Gloria didn't break the porch swing, Monica did.
Monica: Ross hasn't worked at the museum for a year.
Ross: Monica and Chandler are living together!
Monica: Ross married Rachel in Vegas, and got divorced, *again*.
Phoebe: I love Jacques Cousteau.
Rachel: I wasn't supposed to put beef in the trifle.
Joey: I wanna gooooo!
Judy Geller: That's a lot of information to get in thirty seconds.

hahahha if you saw it...you would die--i just looked everywhere on youtube and couldn't find it lol

well anyways...it was an interesting experience and I felt like everyone thought about me in that single moment...it was kind of weird! haha

It was really sad to see THE OC end...it was an amazing episode and an amazing show! I am going to miss it a lot!!--this means I did not watch GREYS---SO DONT TELL ME HAHA

Oh Yeah--I had to listen to this song to keep up with the irony haha

I hope you like the video I made in my other post!

Leave some love!

later
- Justin

good times

I'll Be There For You...

2007-02-21T12:59:00.000-05:00

if you can't see this...the website is

youtube.com/watch?v=ERnliU_jTWw&eurl=\

good times

Don't pretend you've never been there...

2007-02-19T22:40:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
The Academy Is...
- Slow Down

I wanted to write a post about just everything and it was going to be one of those good feel posts with a little deeper thought and not as intense as last post.

I must have sat here and typed out 3 different things that I wanted to say and its just not coming out the way I want it to.

I realized that I wanted to talk about Life and how fast it flies by. You know that saying "Life is too short" and then I hear that other saying that argues with that..."Life isn't short...its the longest thing there is"..Ok so yeah Life is the longest thing there is but...thats like a smart ass remark. I mean I can't believe I'm almost 20 years old and Almost half way done with college! It goes by way too fast! Its really crazy, I can remember being in Bahamas like it was yesterday--that was 2 years ago!! But then again I look at this way...10 years ago I was 10 years old...that was a LONG TIME AGO and 10 years from now is going to be a LONG TIME from now and its just weird!

I've heard about 2 incidents where people's lives were taken from us this weekend and they were young...one was very very young--it boggles my mind! Life can be short and we don't really get the chance to stop and look around to realize what we have. I'm doing that right now and its hard. I want to accomplish so much in my life and I am making my way there and I hope I am able to fufill my dreams and be able to make something of myself because some people don't get that chance and its sad. I hope you read this and maybe it will change how you think about life and the people around you. Remember shit happens in your life and we may dramatize too much...theres a point where you need to think about how worse life can be. Quit the drama and start being something real --not fake. Drama is a waste of time, its in our lives if we like it or not, it happens when we least expect it but we can end it quickly if we just realize how stupid it is!!

Remember the things that are important...

My one thing right now that I know I need to remember and cherish---is I have the best friends and the best family in the entire world!

I love you guys!

later
- Justin

gt

Don't dust your shoulder off if you have nothing to show...

2007-02-16T03:42:00.000-05:00

It is almost 4 in the morning and I was woken up by the most ridiculous dramatic event ever. Don't even get me started but lets just say...I can't wait to move out of my apartment. People can say what they want to say, I DONT CARE...BUT if you know me...if I get woken up by something its gotta be big....I slept through my fire alarm last year like 8 times and I don't get out of bed for shit! lol...All I am going to say is...

If you find yourself in the middle of drama...just remember things can be worse...worry about the things that matter. The people in your life are much more important then the fights you have with those people. Take a second and think about what you do before you do it. Some people have it a lot harder then you. Don't be so dramatic and grow up.

I am listening to my advice for once...I am going to always look at this and never forget it.

Don't dust your shoulder off if you have nothing to show.

Think about the people who have something worse to worry about...

good morning
- Justin

gt

"tastes like you only sweeter..."

2007-02-15T16:55:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Fall Out Boy
- Thanks for the Memories

Hey,
So I realized I haven't updated in a week. Not much new going on...just been chillin and getting through this blast of cold weather. I really hate it! I haven't been to the gym all week because its such a hassle in this weather. Next year I won't have that problem with the gym right in walking distance...I can't wait for that! Anyways..
I bought the New Fall Out Boy CD--its really good!! Elissa and I are gonna try to get tickets on saturday to see them in June!!
I also got the Katharine Mcphee Cd--its really good too--There are SO many CDs thats I want to get to get! lol
I have to study 2nite for my Africana Studies class--boo haha

The O.C. only has 2 more episodes left--it really sucks that its ending--I'm really going to miss it...the only thing good that comes out of the o.c. being cancelled is that i don't have to watch Grey's Anatomy online anymore lol--which btw was amazing lol

I missed LOST last night--and I think I am going to go watch it now!!

I'll update more this weekend--this weekend is gonna be a shitshow haha...cant wait!!

Later
- Justin

good times

"If you ain't got no money take your broke ass home..."

2007-02-08T00:58:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Fergie (Ft. Ludacris)
- Glamorous

Hey guys,
So its been way too cold, today was actually warmer and it was 20 degrees lol..sad but thats warm compared to what its been like and it feels lower too! I can't wait til PCB! Only 44 days! I can't wait for the beach--I miss it!
So my goal to go to the rec 3 times a week isn't working out perfectly just because its so cold out and its hard to get there without freezin my ass off. But I went to the gym today and it felt really good to go, I'm gonna go this weekend because everyone is leaving me to go home so I'll have time to do my own thing and head over there. I remember going to the gym like everyother day senior year b4 we went to bahamas and i miss it a lot--i rele love the gym. I'm happy I'm pushin myself to go!

Justin's TV Guide

haha...So LOST was on 2nite and seriously--insane! It was a great episode and each time there was a commerical it was a cliff hanger lol...very cool! I'm excited for the rest of the season!
I'm so happy I got back into 24 this season--love it!
How I Met Your Mother and The Class are the two funniest shows ever!
Grey's is Amazing!
The O.C. is ending and I'm really upset--i think this season is so good and 2mros episode looks crazy!!
And Idol is finally getting to the part i like...well almost lol
Road Rules is pretty good...I need to catch up on Real World.
Brothers and sisters--i feel like hasnt been on in awhile only cuz of the super bowl but its one of the best shows on right now

I could go on with more shows---sad I know and surprisingly not having a Tivo isnt such a bad thing...I pick the shows i love...tape some if i need to and gave up a lot haha

ok well I'm gonna watch some friends and head to bed

pray for warm weather!!

- Justin

good times

Oh..I jinxed it!

2007-02-02T01:27:00.000-05:00

yeah thats all...the story of my life lol

- justin

gt

" I don't mind you telling me what's been on your mind lately I don't mind you speaking up..."

2007-01-31T01:23:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Hilary Duff
- With Love

liking the new sound...its really catchy

Hey guys
So I didn't make it to the rec today but its all good, I am definitley going tomorrow during the day, so I'll get my goal on the go haha. So everything seems to be going well right now and I'm in a great mood. No reason but does there have to be? lol My horoscope in today's paper says Tonight= All Smiles. And its true haha. I don't want to jinks it but it just seems like everything is working out and things are falling into place and things are being the way they should be. I like that.

I'm really hungry but its really late to eat and I should be sleeping right now haha. I'll probably eat something and go to bed soon but I just wanted to update a little more and just get back into updating more often. I know not much to talk about but just wanted to say that.

good night

later
- Justin

good times

p.s. smile!

OFCOURSE ITS NOT WORKING...the story of my life!

2007-01-29T20:39:00.000-05:00

So, I made a deal with my self so I can go to the rec atleast 3 times a week and I have 4 chances to go. (that doesnt include the weekends because those are my lazy days lol) I have it all planned it for the rest of the semester and I want to make it a habit. So I was suppose to go today at 2 but I went to the pound with matt to look at puppies, but I made sure I would go tonight. So my night class ended early which was perfect! I wait outside in the freezing cold for the PRT, didn't wait too long but it was really cold! I get on the PRT and I made a really great mix on my ipod on the way there, it was going to be great lol. So I get to the gym and its mad crowded! I take a walk downstairs first most of the machines are full, but I need to do the elpitical because ever since I got a stress fractor in my foot a few years ago the tredmill always makes it come back (I guess because I put too much pressure on it) anyways..I then took a look around upstairs and Its just so intimidating, there is mad people and its just over whelming! So I go back downstairs and I see a machine and I'm thinking this is too good to be true but it was there. So I take off my sweat pants because my shorts are underneath haha, I set my towel on the machine and my water inthe holder, I get my ipod out and I untangle the headphones, I get on the machine....and its not working! OFCOURSE ITS NOT WORKING...the story of my life! I get really annoyed plus kinda embarrassed!...so I'm like f-it I'm gonna go on the tredmill...there was one right next to me, but of course because no one is on it..its not working either! I leave...

I get on the PRT, I'm thinking to myself I know I have times where I can go during the week still but it was just making me frustrated, I wanted to start my goal! Well I get on the PRT and I take out my IPOD so I can listen to the awesome mix I made, So much was running through my mind, I was thinking of a way I could still get my work out in today, So I thought in my mind...why not get off at beechurst station and run home...(my stop is walnut, its not far at all from eachother its just really cold out so its not a fun walk) So I was thinking this would be great, I can run and get my work out and I'm already listening to my mix and I'm getting pumped...Running from Beechurst to my apartment is not THAT close and the cold can make it seem a lot longer and I'm not wearing enough clothing on to be prepared for a situation like this...It would have made a perfect PUMA commerical (cuz im wearing puma sneakers lol) but i didnt do it! haha

Instead I just jogged alil from walnut to my apartment..it was really cold! haha Well maybe I can make it to the rec tomorrow but tomorrow is a hard day to do it but I had a plan on doing it MWF at 2 and if i miss one day I can do it Thrus at 4...but maybe I'll squeeze it in for tomorrow but I'll see...hope you liked my story! haha

24 is on!

later
- Justin

good times

"Hey, you're a crazy bitch, but you f**k so good I'm on top of it..."

2007-01-29T13:48:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Buckcherry
- Crazy Bitch

Hey,
Ok well I'm going to keep the blog..cuz i found a way to see who looks at it and I know MOST of you haha...and a lot of you probably didn't want to comment--its all good. But I was thinking of going back to xanga or something else..I don't know I kind of want a change but I'm not sure. I really would LOVE comments from you guys.--dont be shy--so let me know what you think...

I'm going to the rec..I'll update soon

later
- Justin

good times

baby yes I'm addicted to how we kick it everything you say to me...

2007-01-20T12:52:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Bow Wow Feat. Chris Brown
- Shortie Like Mine

Ok...not funny wit the Anonymous thing...but if you want keep from me finding out who you are thats fine...I guess my life is a little more exciting then urs haha...(and if u rele do read it and i know u...drop me an IM...cuz maybe u just didnt put ur name in the comment) haha--i got some IMs from people that still read it...but these Anonymous people are kinda leaning me towards stopping this thing...just cuz its kinda weird having people you don't know reading it...but if your one of them and i know you---tell me who u are! aha

well anyways--i'll update a little bit--spite all this

Last night was fun...I went out with my bro and his friends to Lizard--it was a lot of fun--got rele drunk! I haven't been that drunk in awhile--so it was interesting! haha My bro and his friends know how to party lol

Well I'm goin to Pittsburgh with Josh, Jess and Kate...I talk to you guys later.

Leave some comments--with your name!! lol

later guys
- justin

good times

If you're not ready, you're not ready/Please stop acting like you are...

2007-01-17T00:26:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Bayside
- Devotion and Desire

Real quick...just wanted to give a shout out to JAIMEE!! haha...and I love this song---jaimee got me into it lol

On that note--I really really really want to know if anyone actually reads this anymore...I know jaimee does and a few of you do but I'm thinking of maybe "taking a break" lol from the whole blog thing...i just wanted to know who is reading this cuz I really don't know haha...so please leave a comment or two lol...and let me know cuz im just wondering

later
- Justin

good times

IF YOUR GONNA COMMENT THAT YOU READ IT...TELL ME WHO YOU ARE HAHA

If they could love like you and me, Imagine what the world could be...

2007-01-16T01:48:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Nickelback
-If Everyone Cared

Hey!

So I've been back in morgantown, which feels like forever and I am so happy to be here! SO much has been going and I really like that I've been busy because it keeps me busy! lol Well classes aren't bad..I dropped Accounting because I'm not doing an Entrepreneurship minor anymore...I'm changing it to Sociology--so I think I'll enjoy that! This semester is looking like its going to be a lot more fun and there is a lot more to look forward to...so its exciting lol. Panama City for spring break--I cannot wait! I'm going to visit April in Indiana, maybe visit David at Penn state, Jillian may come down to motown and I hope I can make it out to San Fran. to visit Rory...so there is a lot to look forward to! Plus I love my friends and I look forward to each weekend more and more! lol
On other news...I highlighted my hair! haha....well Jess did lol...but it looks really good--kinda looks like a frosty color--its pretty cool...its not too much its just a little bit but i like it a lot!
I'm happy that there is not much drama going on...there's some but I'm not getting into that and its not even worth being "dramatic" over lol....shit happens and you just have to keep rolling with the punches (if that's the saying haha)...but every things pretty good and I'm happy to say that lol

My schedule is so chill now that I've dropped accounting..I have more time to do work, study, go to the gym and maybe even get a job! lol
Well I'm off to watch friends and then get some sleep
leave some love with some comments

good night
- Justin

Good times

And all the lights that lead us there are blinding...

2007-01-05T16:52:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Cartel
- Wonderwall

Hey

So I'm back in NJ but I'm leaving once again to go back to school. I'm not going to be home until I think...May but that can change. I'm going to Panama City Beach, Fl for spring break, I think I've found a place to live for sure, which is good! I'm excited for next semester! I think its going to be good. Everything has been actually working out so well and I hope it stays that way for the rest of the year! I think I'm ready to do a lot more this semester and push myself to do better in school and actually do things like go to the gym etc.. I think its time to be more productive.

Well everything has been good and I noticed how much things have changed since high school. I've discovered that some people are still immature and love to be assholes even after their college experiences...I'm happy I'm not friends with these people anymore. I think everything happens for a reason and I had to experience a lot of things to finally realize I shouldn't change the way I do things in order to be friends with people, I'm happy those days are years behind me and I never have to deal with that crap. I'm just happy to know that I made something of myself since then, and those people haven't changed one bit. I'd like to thank those people for actually making me feel better then someone else. I would never say I'm cool ahha but right now I feel pretty cool lol. As dorky as that sounds...its true.

Hopefully everything works out with what I want to do with my life. NYC, L.A., movies, TV etc...whereever it is, whatever it is...i'm looking foward to it and I hope that I can get an internship this summer to help me get my foot in the door!

For those who I have not seen and those who may be mad they didn't get a chance to see me, I'm sorry and it takes two to tango--if u know what I mean. Not that I don't think about you or not that I don't care about you...things change and sometimes they don't go according to plan but doesn't mean your not part of my life and it doesn't mean we aren't still friends at heart.

Well...I got to go get ready and meet up with the bestest!

I'm off to morgantown tomorrow!

later
- Justin

good times

Music, Motown and Countdown to New Years...

2006-12-27T01:06:00.000-05:00

Hey guys...

I wanted to update real quick because I'm going back to morgantown tomorrow, I'm gonna spend new years there, I figured it would be a lot of fun and not much was going on around here so..yeah lol. But I will be back the 2nd so I can see everyone I haven't seen yet...and then I go back to school the 7th...so I have a few days when I get back which is good. I haven't been up to much lately just chillin and stuff...listening to a lot of music, playing a lot of xbox 360 and watchin a lot of movies lol.

I usually pick a song that I am listening to but I like soo many songs right now that I can't just pick one...and a lot of different artists that have many great songs...so heres a list of some random one that have been on repeat on my ipod--some new some old

Nas- "Hip Hop Is Dead"
Daughtry - The whole album
Akon - but u knew that from the previous entry lol
Relient K - "Apathetic Way to Be" "In Like a Lion (Always Winter) - its on their EP thats been out for awhile...I love their album too
Ashley Tisdale- "He Said She Said" "Headstrong" (shes from high school musical)--her songs are soo catchy...i like her a lot lol
KT Tunstall - "Suddenly I See"--this song is in every Tvshow and i feel like its in every movie...and its always on the radio...its a good feel song i think and I really feel like everyone knew this song before..I don't know---its a song that sticks with you
The Classic Crime- Every song on their album!
Bandcamp
Ronnie Day
The Used
Cartel
Rascal Flatts
Dashboard

The list goes on lol

Well I need to go pack!!

I hope everyone has a Happy New Year!!

I can't wait for 2007 to begin...it's the year of possibilities

Don't be afraid to take the over-rated holiday and start a resolution or new step toward something...it'll be worth it!

Love you all!

Later
- Justin

Good Times

girl I spend money like it don't mean nothin and besides I got a thing for u...

2006-12-21T00:38:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Akon
- I Wanna F*** You

Hey guys...

I'm back in NJ...I'm really bored!! I really want to go back but then again I don't want the next semester to start yet! I did pretty good this year with Hannukah presents! I got a new digital camera, david yurman jewish star necklace, a million dvds, some clothes etc... I was really shocked when I got the hoodie that i was dying to get from hollister and its been sold out forever and they had it at abercrombie but its like twice as expensive...so ofcourse my rents went all out and got me the one from abercrombie! I really love hoodies haha

Anyways...last weekend I went to Jingleball with Beth...it was fun...the killers and the fray were awesome and Timbaland was the surprise guest. The next day the entire family came in for my dad's 50th birthday...we went to the city it was a lot of fun!! Now I'm mad bored cuz there is nothing else to do over break but go to the city and I did that twice haha.

Oh..and i just found out my bro is given me his PS2 cuz hes gettin himself an xbox360...so I really can't complain!!

I'm gonna probably watch a movie or something because I literally almost have a enough dvds to open my own video store haha

later
- justin

good times

This ain't a scene...

2006-12-07T01:07:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Fall Out Boy
- This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race

I am an arms dealer
Fitting you with weapons in the form of words
And don't really care which side wins
As long as the room keeps singing
That's just the business I'm in

THIS AIN'T A SCENE, IT'S A G-D DAMN ARMS RACE
This ain't a scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
I'm not a shoulder to cry on
But, I digress

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh-so intricate oh-so intricate

I wrote the gospel on giving up
(You look pretty sinking)
But the real bombshells have already sunk
(Prima-donnas of the gutter)
At night we're painting your trash gold while you sleep
Crashing not like hips or cars,
No, more like parties

THIS AIN'T A SCENE, IT'S A G-D DAMN ARMS RACE
This ain't a scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
Bandwagon's full
Please, catch another

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh-so intricate oh-so intricate

All the boys who the dance floor didn't love
And the girls who's lips couldn't move fast enough
Sing, until your lungs give out

THIS AIN'T A SCENE, IT'S A G-D DAMN ARMS RACE
This ain't a scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
(Now you)
This ain't a Scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
(Wear out the groove)
This ain't a Scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
(Sing out loud)
THIS AIN'T A SCENE, IT'S A G-D DAMN ARMS RACE
(Oh, oh)
This ain't a Scene, it's a g-d damn arms race

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh-so intricate oh-so intricate

I really love this song

Later
- Justin

gt

Come on now let's go for a ride, I've got three hours it's plenty of time...

2006-11-30T22:27:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Bandcamp
- Cammanns

Did you ever get that feeling when you think you dreamt something but maybe you were like day dreaming or just thinking about something and you feel like it happened? I don't know maybe I'm the only one...but I feel like when this happens, its almost as if you want it to happen or almost as a premonition that its going to happen. Kind of like when you have Deja vu...but the other way around?? haha I don't if that made sense...it definitely didn't! lol...
Anyways, I felt like I had a dream about me changing the way I think about things, the way I act at certain things, or just changing my perspective once again on a whole new light. I think I have a lot of these entries somewhere in these blogs...like turning the page to the next chapter. This time I don't know why...usually something happens that makes me want to change, but this time I feel like it makes sense to. I feel like these times it makes me grow and become a better person, it makes me feel good and I like that. I just think I need to think before I say things, not think too into things, I need to stop analyzing everything, I need to start looking at things in more of a positive light and try not think of all the negative things. I need to be grateful for what I have and where I am in my life, I need to start acting my age...and it that sense I need to both mature in some aspects and I need to become immature in others...I feel like my head is ahead of my age and I'm missing out on things I should be focusing on more. From doing work, having fun, finding more friends, go to the gym, be more productive and not sit on my ass and watch friends all day. I think this is my new years resolution. I usually break those in a heart beat, i think stop biting your nails is a stupid resolution...I think I started that one back in 3rd grade...I still do it today haha. Well this time I think it will be a lot more of a challenge to be able to fix up the negative things and also become better person in my skin. I think I'm ready to step outside the "box" and discover something different.

It may take some time...but hopefully by 11:59pm on December 31st...I'll be able to get my ass out of the house...and actually do something different!

All I want is a little change~!

p.s. bandcamp cd--amazing!

later
- Justin

good times

I hope you're happy and you'll think of me while i'm away...

2006-11-17T00:05:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Ronnie Day
- Coming Home Soon

Hey...so this week is finally over...I'm going back to NJ 2mro!

This week was really long...I was pretty busy and stuff. I did not get the bandcamp cd--but i did order it online, but i probably will have to wait until I come back to WV to listen to it cuz its going to be sent here. I got the ronnie day cd...its seriously amazing...u guys need to listen to it, its awesome!..I'm listening to it right now lol.

I am happy to go home just to get away from work and stuff...its good to be home to see the friends and family.

Well I need to finish packing and get some sleep...I have one class 2mro...geology..yuk! haha...but i get my test back and I studied for 4 1/2 hours in the library and I think I did good! so i actually rele want to go to class haha...well thats about it!

good night and i'll see most of u soon!!

- Justin

good times

And I know I'm comin off just a little bit conceited...

2006-11-07T19:04:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to :
Fergie
-Fergalicious

Hey guys...
So things have been interesting lol...I figured out my schedule and actualy did not stress over it much. I pretty much am done with all my general classes at the end of next semester....then it will be all about my major...but I still get to take stuff for my major next semester which is good. I got jingleball tickets...after like 20 mins of waiting patiently lol. Me and beth have pretty good seats compared to where we usually sit lol...i'm excited for that!

Ok...so today was a good day and I had it all planned out...I was gonna go to Best Buy and get Bandcamp's CD, a few movies,get starbucks,maybe go tanning and get lunch...well I get to Best Buy and they did not have it and they are not getting it anywhere in WV!!..so I was kind of mad but I kind of had a feeling b/c it wasn't on the website on bestbuy.com...however it is in their system but for some reason it was deleted from stock order..which is kinda weird. Apparently, WV is not the only one cuz on there myspace someone wrote a comment and said the same thing happened to them in NY. Soo I do not know whats up with that...hopefully we get some answers soon! lol...I have been waiting for this day for a long time...I planned my day around it! haha. Anyways...I ended up treating myself to Ellen Degeneres's Stand Up Comedy Collection and the movie Clue...I felt better but not quite good yet...so I decided to go tanning cuz i'm pale as a mofo...that def. relaxed me...and to top it off I had to treat myself to Wendy's Biggie Size Combo haha...I felt a lot better! haha

Anyways...so I had a semi-productive day and I had no classes today..so i was stressfree...as well as 2mro I only have one class because my 2 hour Geo lab was cancelled! and I will be done for the day at 11:20am! haha...and on friday alyssa is coming to Morgantown!! Saturday we have a football game and then The All American Rejects Concert!! It is going to be a fun, drunken weekend..I cannot wait!!

I am going to chill out for the night

later
- Justin

GT

Stay here together and we could conquer the world...

2006-11-02T00:37:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Staind
- Everything Changes

Sorry I haven't updated in a long time...not even sure if many even read it anymore lol

Well...not much has been going on..stuff has been going on but nothing worth writing haha...I don't even know, nothing interesting I guess. The only "problem" going on is that I am closed out a couple of my classes for next semester which kind of sucks....ok not kind of..it really sucks lol. I don't register until Monday and I am already closed out of 3 classes...but one of them my brother is holding for me which is good. I emailed the other two teachers if I could be able to get in the class...I hope I can!

So..I watched the 1st episode of The O.C. on myspace before it airs tomorrow. It was really good. Kind of happy I watched it tonight because its up againts Grey's and also the Louisville game is on tomorrow too...so I can tape Grey's lol. My life seriously revolves around TV...its pretty sad but oh well lol.

Anyways...so you know how I have been talking about the band Bandcamp and Ronnie Day...well finally its like 100% offical that there albums are coming for sure. lol Bandcamp's CD "Wanna Dance?" hits Best Buy on November 7th!! and Ronnie Day's "The Album" hits stores exactly one week later on November 14th!...im pretty pumped for that... The All American Rejects Concert is in a week...with The Starting Line...I'm excited for that! They announced Jingleball '06...I am pretty sure I am going...its not too bad this year...The Killers and the Fray are like the 2 main acts I want to see...the rest are pretty good. Tixs go on sale Monday...so i got to figure all that out!

Whoa...I just realized I have a lot on Monday...1st off I have to register for classes (which is always a pain in the ass), I have to sign a 5 minute story for sign language and I have to get jingleball tickets haha. Thankfully the next day we have no class! I know I'm going to be stressing on monday lol.

Ok..well i'm beat

later
- Justin

good times

"I can feel it...can you feel it....come on over"

2006-10-10T17:32:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Rob Thomas
- Streetcorner Symphony

Whoah I didn't realize I haven't updated and a lot has been going on.

So last time I was really confused about the whole major thing. Ok well I decided I'm going to change my major to Multi-Disciplinary Studies which I can minor in 3 different concentrations of anything I want pretty much and make it into a major that consists of 3 different aspects. The whole point is to have all 3 things combine with one another to relate to how you can use it in a life. Well I can't do it until I'm a junior but its all good, I'm starting to take classes that I can take that go toward it. But I think I am going to Advertising/Public Relations, Communication Studies and Entrepreneurship. I think this will be better for me because all of this interests me a lot more than the whole news thing. So then I am going to go to graduate school for TV/Film and if that doesn't suceed I can always fall back on one of these 3 things which is pretty good I think. So thats pretty cool.

Living situation next year...I thought It was all good, I wanted to live at the District but Its kind of far from classes and stuff so I don't know yet...I'm gonna have to see.

So this past weekend I went to Binghamton with Elissa to visit Jillian. It was so much fun, I can't wait to go back. Jillian and her friends are so much fun. It was a really fun weekend. So before all the fun started. I met BANDCAMP!...aha ok not rele but kind of. I saw them and talk to them for like a second haha. If you never heard me talk about bandcamp then you don't know me very well haha j/k! Bandcamp is a band I saw open up for Switchfoot like 2 years ago and they are a great band, and there album finally comes out very very very soon. Anyways...we were getting our stuff out of the car to bring into the dorm and a van pulls up with like a tralior thing behind it. And these guys asked one of the girls where the Underground was. (ok 1st off I knew they were playin there that weekend but we couldn't go see them) and i turned around and looked at the guy in the van and I wasn't sure like I knew that face but I didn't know if it was them or not. So they said they were playing there and we should come and I asked them what there band was called and it was BANDCAMP!! haha I freaked out lol it was funny and i couldn't believe it...it was so cool and such a small world like what are the chances that there van pulled up to us out of everyone to ask for directions and I'm like a huge fan lol. It was so cool lol. Now they better be famous because thats just too crazy for words! I couldn't get over it lol

Anyways the rest of the weekend was a great time! Thanks Jillian :)

Well I got to go we are going to dinner for Matthew's Birthday...

Happy Birthday Matt! lol

btw...The All American Rejects are coming November 11 with The Starting Line...I'm really excited! lol

The Rents are coming in this weekend!

I can't wait for the weekend...this week has been way too long already and its only tuesday!

later guys
- Justin

GT!

what is more important...

2006-09-28T23:58:00.001-04:00

Yeah so I am very stressed but I just need to organize my thoughts and I think this is a good way to do so...

So I was in my Social Psychology class today and she was using an example toward something and it was something like..What is more important,your major or what you are doing this weekend?...Of course this had to come across because 3 hours before this I found out might not graduate ontime due to the fact of requirements for my major. So this brought forth my attention and my stress level. But I really needed to get my self together. So here is the problem....

I have to take this test the JQE in order to get into the Journalism School...whoah ok wait...so as most of you know...I want to major in Television and Film but they don't offer that major here at WVU...so I am look toward Broadcast News (news reporting,writing,research, but with TV aspect)...its the closest thing to it but not really what I want to do. Anyways...I want to go to Graduate school for TV/Film (hopefuly somewhere in California) so I can learn about what I want to do....So back to the JQE...i need to take that to get into the school of journalism....Also, I need it to take this class JRL 215...and once I take JRL 215, I can then take classes for my major. OK well the problem is...JQE is not offered again until Jan. 2007...which means I cannot take JRL 215 until either Summer '07 or Fall '07...if I take it summer '07...its gonna suck but I'll be on track. If I take it in Fall...I'll be a semester behind because then I cannot take classes for my major until Spring '08...that is not good! So I have options...

I can take JRL 215 in the summer
I can take JRL 215 in the fall (and not graduate ontime)
I can change my major entirely
I can transfer ( I really do not want to)

Also...I do not know if I have to major in the same thing I want to go to graduate school for. Like if I major in journalism or like communications or psychology...can I go to graduate school for TV/Film?? If the answer is no...which I do not think it is...but if it is...I might have to consider transferring.

If I can take any major and still go to graduate school...I would have to think if I want to take Summer classes...or just change my major all together.

Yeah..so this is my stressful and shitty situation...I hope you enjoy my confusion lol

Any advice...leave a comment

I'm gonna go hopefully finsh watching Lost Season 2 before I go to sleep.

The Weekend Starts Tomorrow at 11:20am...finally

later
- Justin

Make me so perfect in your eyes...

2006-09-24T01:40:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Hawk Nelson
- Take Me

Yeah so it has been awhile since I last updated...

I am actually home right now...I came home for the jewish holiday..I am going back to school tomorrow. So anyways lately the topic of conversation has been going abroad...

So I have always wanted to go to Austrailia (i can never spell it right lol)...And I went to the Study Abroad Fair last week and I am starting to look into it. I am just overwelmed because I have so much to think about. If I do go abroad it is going to mess up with classes for my major and I might not be able to graduate on time. So I was thinking maybe I could take some classes at WVU over one summer or something but I don't know?!?...then the other issue is...MY MAJOR...

So My Major right now is well..Pre-Journalism...I need to take this test called the JQE to get in so I could start taking classes for my concentration which is Broadcast News...and maybe minor in advertising. OK well the issue is this is not my passion and this is not exactly what I want to do with my life. Well they do say majority of what people major in is not what they end up doing. Well this is because they don't know what they want to do....I know exactly what I want to do. I want to work in Television or Film or Both...I want to Direct or Edit or Write Scripts etc... I want make a movie, a TV show or something in that sense. In Broadcast News...you do learn how to make a news show but its all about making news reports and researching and writing the stories and stuff...that really doesnt "get me going" if you know what I mean...I really am turned off by that...its just not what I want to do. The problem is WVU does not have Film or TV as a major and the closest thing is Broadcast News. So I always said I would just go to Graduate School for Film/TV...and I have always wanted to go to UCLA for it and I looked at the program and they only accept 10-15 people a year into the program. It was like my dream flushed down the drain. It just seriously is unbelievable. Thats really tough. I really do not want to transfer schools because I love it at WVU and I am afraid to transfer. I had this problem last year and its still bugging me. And I am getting closer and closer to being accepted in the school of journalism...so I need to make sure this is what I want to do. So...I think I am going to talk to my advisor and see what I can do...maybe I could start up this major who knows??...but broadcast news is very close to it....I don't know?? Well on another note...

Thinking of living situation for next year...I really love living downtown but I do love the district a lot. The District is like a resort lol...It has an outdoor pool/hot tub, gym,cafe, free tanning, basketball court, volleyball court, mile long walking trail, each room has there own bathroom etc.. its just very nice and EVERYTHING is included. The only problem is...its not on campus. I love living downtown because I am walking distance to the bars and classes. If I lived at the district you either have to take your car to class or they do have a shuttle that takes you to the PRT (monarail thing) and that takes you downtown. And then at night for the bars there is a shuttle that takes you to and from until 2am. I mean it is not that bad and the district is very nice and peaceful...I really like it. I am still thinking about that.

Also, I have no idea what I am doing this summer but I really want to see if I can get an internship in L.A. I talked to my mom about it and shes going to def. talk to my cousion who is out there and knows a lot of people. I would seriously freak out if I am able to get one and be out there. Omg...it would be amazing haha. I am so fascinated by california and I have never been there lol. We will have to see...

And lastly...I need to seriously do better in school. I feel like I am doing better but my grades don't prove that. Something is off and I need to get my act together. I really want to do well. I really enjoyed the feeling when I stepped up and actually felt accomplished. I know I can do it. I had mono and had to come back to school and make up so much...I know its in me...I just need to actually motivate myself to do better. I know I can and I wanted to type this out so everytime I look at this it hopefully gets me back into mode. I need this.

Well...I am off to bed...back to morgantown 2mro night...

later
- Justin

good times

"Hey... Are you thinking what I'm thinking? "Are you thinking what it would be like to have Spiderman spray his web on you?" "Okay that's just freaky"

2006-09-12T22:27:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Justin Timberlake
-LoveStoned

Hey guys..

So I have been "sick" for a few days...i think its cuz of the weather (wow the last time I said that i ended up with mono *knock on wood*)...I think I'm gettin better though...Anyways...today was a pretty interesting day...I didn't go to my first class then my 2nd class was cancelled and I helped my bro sell t-shirts in the mountlair majority of the day...the only thing i had today was my social psych test--wasn't that bad. Tomorrow(wednesday) Come to the Mountainlair 9am-4pm..."We Pregame Harder Than Most Colleges Party" T-shirts Only $10!!

Haha Ok...so I finally got the new justin timberlake cd...its really good...he collaborated with so many rappers its pretty cool, TI,three six mafia,snoop,timberland,will iam...its def. a good album

So brandon and his friends are coming 2mro late at night for the maryland game on thrusday...im looking foward to that...looks like its gonna be a good weekend!

I have a geology quiz 2mro...suppose to read this whole novel...I couldn't do it...it was too long...but i think i have a good overview what it was about...so hopefully i do well.

I need to go to bed early...so maybe I will go lay down for the night...knowing me ill be up all night like usual...i love it how i procrastinate sleep ahah

the headline of the blog is from will and grace...it made me laugh lol

good night

- justin

good times

I can conquer anything...

2006-09-08T02:22:00.000-04:00

its 2:00 in the morning and i have thought about a lot...

as the crazy town of morgantown fills my ears with drunk people screaming in the street for the past hour and a half...i leave you with this

As much as your mind may tell you to do something else...you can't control how you feel...

so follow your heart.

I can conquer anything...

- justin

gt

bittersweet

2006-09-07T22:49:00.000-04:00

How can everything seem so great one day then you lose it all the next...

I had something great but I lost it, I had a best friend but we grew apart,The one person I could trust the most...i lost their trust and now I feel like I can't trust anyone, I thought I got along with some people but we started to fight...now things are just fake between us, I knew what I wanted in life but now I don't even know anymore, One of my best friends had to go home...I really wish they were here, I believe a lot of what people say...but now I think everyone lies to me, Some days I wish I was home...but i feel like I'll be lost forever if I do, Some days I feel like I need to get away...go to a beach or take a walk...but the closest beach is 5 hours away and I don't feel safe taking a walk at night here, I really wish people could change...even though they say they have changed...they haven't, I think I need to find more friends, I feel lonely now because every friend I make is either lying to me,goes home, is fake or an asshole. My life here is bittersweet...and the reason its so bittersweet is because im the sweet part and everyone thats here (except for elissa) is so bitter.

The only friends I have right now are my friends from home...I miss you guys so much.

I want to take a walk to the end of the boardwalk...

- justin

g.t.

"I don't even know what my soul looks like,but I know that music helps me find it." -ronnie day

2006-09-03T18:26:00.000-04:00

"I don't even know what my soul looks like,
but I know that music helps me find it." -ronnie day

I live my life by song lyrics that explain exactly what i'm going through...

Do You Remember Time After Time What Hurts the Most When It All Falls Apart? And She Said..Everything Is Alright Here (In Your Arms)Hanging By A Moment. Because Of You,I Melt Everytime We Touch.
I Just Can't Live A Lie...If You Were Mine.
Someone Better Open The Door.. So Long As Lovers Go.
These Days The Fight Always Collide(s) Back To The Middle.
Now It's Done Over My Head...Over Thinking...Out Of My Mind...Words I Can't Say But Its Better If We Do...Everything Else. All Or Nothing,All At Once,All My Life...All in All...All The Memories..(just)Say The Word--Talk To Me--Call On Me.
What I've Been Looking For...A...Dirty Little Secret...Yeah
...Wow I Can Get Sexual Too.

Haha...ok if you didn't catch on thats all names of songs...i tried to make a cool thing out of it...nothing too great but i tried and its getting late lol...thought I could be a little creative..oh well lol

Anyways...
Music does help you find yourself...and I strongly believe that. I really don't know who I would be right now if it wasn't for music and the messages it brings forth to us. It either puts us into a sense of reality or puts thoughts in our mind that makes us think about the future or the past or brings out our imagination. It truly becomes apart of you and your life. It seriously is amazing. I love it.

As time moves on we all start to wonder about where we think we will end up in life, who we will end up with, how we will get there, how long it will take and what it will be like. As my eyes start to get heavy and I feel very sleepy..I want to end this blog with a a few words of my own...

We all make mistakes, we all need to make mistakes inorder to learn from them...sometimes we do things that aren't right and sometimes we need to do something out of the ordinary to make sense of it all. To test yourself and others around you. Sometimes we need to understand who we are and make sure we know what we are doing is right...and the only way to make sure it is right...is to do something wrong. Just like we can't feel happiness if we havent experienced pain...so we need to do something wrong to know that something is right. It may seem a little out of the ordinary to make something wrong inorder to make it right but...it makes sense to me. I really don't want to be the one who makes wrong decisions and I don't want to be the one to hurt anyone in the process of me trying to figure out whats right and wrong but maybe these mistakes I make will help you with your own. I don't know I guess I am just trying to live my life as best as I can while trying to search for something in the whole process...and when I find it...I'll let you know but for now...I'm just living life...and I'm sorry if my stupidity causes you any pain or any confusion...I don't want to be an asshole..I don't have any intentions to be mean...just my learning process may cause me to experience these mistakes and learn from them. Its hard when you think your mature about a lot of things when the littlest thing your so stupid about...I'm trying to realize whats right and wrong...and I'm starting to realize what I should be doing....

and thats just taking it day by day.

Its 2am...time for bed

gnite
- justin

gt

Life is all about the risks you take...

2006-08-25T00:56:00.000-04:00

Take Risks
Enjoy Yourself
Be Weird
Have Fun
Smile..alot
Laugh..at everything
Talk out loud
Speak Your Mind
Don't Be Afraid
Be Cool
Chill Out
Relax
Breathe
Go Crazy
Be Calm
Be Happy
Be Whatever

It's your life...remember you control it...don't let anyone tell you otherwise

Do What Ever The Hell You Want To Do...And Don't Be Afraid to Do It...We All Are Allowed To Be Ourselves and Have Some Fun!

Life is all about the risks you take, the experiences you encounter, the people who impact you, the times you spent with them and the growth of happiness that leads you to where your suppose to be.

- justin

good times

baby...can you play with fire??

2006-08-23T19:04:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Hilary Duff
- Play With Fire

So I've been thinking a lot about everything and I feel this year is going to be a great year and I'm not going to let these little issues get in the way of everything. So far morgantown already has been a bumby ride but in all a lot of fun. Classes started this week..some classes are cool some aren't so cool...but i have to just do it and try my best. The night life never dissappoints me...this place is another world!...if you didn't hear we are the #3 party school in the country!! haha but in reality we are #1..no other school does it like dub v lol.

Anyways...it is time for me enjoy myself on my own terms and not deal with people around me who are fake and immature. It is time to move away from the whole high school crap...im rele sick of it. People need to grow up and stop acting like they control everything and start acting...real haha it flowed well..but its true..Some people think that putting on this other act is going to get you far in life...its not. As much as you think "playing" the part or saying things to make people like you...the more you lie to people the more your lying to yourself....its not going to get you far in life. If you are like this now in your life at 19-20 years old, your going to be like that for the rest of your life..its sad. I don't know anymore, I think people are so full of themselves and don't even understand anything that life brings you to. Some people are so selfish and disrespectful. I'm trying really hard to not let these people bring me down because I'm starting to realize that I'm a better person then they are...they are the ones who are going to suffer in life. And Karma is a bitch...and it is true when they say what comes around goes around...because seriously it is the truth. I've experience something very funny the other day that made me realize how great it is for revenge to happen without even doing anything. Karma works in very mysterious and funny ways. I just believe that if you do something bad...something bad will definitley happen to you.

I feel like all the bad stuff I've done in my life has gotten revenge on me through out the years and now I'm starting to realize what its like to do the right things in life and not ever have to deal with the problems that I've caused...its only the problems others cause I might have to deal with but i'm starting to look past that and not let it get to me. I think I'm starting to understand who people really are and who I am.

I just had to get that off my chest

later
- justin

gt

Back in Motown!

2006-08-21T15:47:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Motion City Soundtrack
- Better Open The Door

hey guys

I havent updated in awhile...I'm back in MOTOWN!...its good to be back! Partyed all weekend and class started 2day...already have a problem with the sched. lol...but its all good now. I have a night class at 5...hopefully its over before 6...cuz its Fall Fest!!---Motion City Sountrack, The Roots, The Wreckers and Staind!! I'm pumped up haha. So i got to go to class and come back here and pregame!

Well I just want to say I love and miss everyone...its been a crazy year and i feel bad i didnt get to see everyone this summer and didnt get a chance to say goodbye...i hope i get to see you all soon! Come Visit!! lol

later guys...ill keep you updated on everything once i get back into mode here

- Justin

good times!

True success is so selfless so drown in the lyrics of your life...

2006-08-05T17:50:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:

The Classic Crime
- Who Needs Air

I'm Justin

I'm One Of a Kind

I'm Lovable

I'm Nice

I'm Sweet I'm Mean I'm Crazy
I'm Fun

I'm a Believer (despite what others think)
I Love My Friends
I Love Music

I Live My Life By Song Lyrics
that explain exactly what I'm going through

I try not to Judge people
because we all should be treated 
the same way we treat others
I'm Going to be Famous One Day...
So remember my name because they will be in lights someday
I Give the Best Advice but Never Listen to My Own
I'm Not Afraid to Speak My Mind
I'm Afraid of Death
I Love Horror Films
I Love Comedies
I Love Television and Movies
I Want To Move to California...even though I have never been there
I Want to Visit Austraila and Europe
I Sing in the Shower
I Dance When I think No One Is Watching
I Love My Life
I Love My Family
I Complain A lot
But people say things can be worse
So why not let me complain about something stupid
If that is the worst thing to compalin about
So give me that!
I think I'm always right
Because I think everyone is stupid
My G.P.A. sucks but My Common Sense is an A+
I think I'm a lot more mature then people my Age
I Have a Good Heart
And I can read people very well
I Know what I want in Life
I Know never to give up
I Know to always listen to your gut
I Learned how to be Myself
I Learned to be there for anyone, even if they aren't always there for you
I don't regret anything because learning from your mistakes will make you stronger
I can be a Strong Person
At the Same time I can Be weak
I try not let things get to me
But I know I always do
I think too much 
But never try too hard
I try when needed
and I say I don't care
When usually I do
I Love to Live each Day Like it is my last
I Love to Live it to the Fullest 
And Know that Even If It is A Bad Day...There is Always a Good Day to Follow

I Promise You My Life Will Be A Movie One Day...
It May Not Win an Oscar But
it Sure Will Catch Your Eye!

gt

gotta love it it's so so dangerous...

2006-08-04T16:16:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
The Pink Spiders
- Hollywood Fix

I can't believe that summer is almost over. I ended rec today and I can't believe how fast it went by. I made such a great new group of friends and wish we got closer earlier on! I'm leaving so soon and its kinda sad. But I really cannot wait to go back to school but I wish the summer was a little longer lol. Pacsun ended yesterday (well kinda--im oncall today but i dont think they need me lol...well if they do--fuk them haha)...I hung out with pacsun pple last night, it was so much fun! I'm gonna miss them too. Its seriously crazy how much the summer went by so fast. Its bittersweet too because the summer was shitty in the beginning then it got amazing (around the bday and july 4th) then it got shitty again and now when i'm about to leave home it got even more amazing.

I learned a lot this summer! I learned how to be a lot better in situations where there are drama (if u need help, just go with the expression "fuck it") it works everytime haha. I learned how to be more comfortable around people and be able to speak my mind when needed and be nicer in situations that I usually would blow up on haha. I learned who my true friends are and I learned who people truly are deep down inside. I learned what its like to take chances and be a rebel once in awhile. I learned to just live a little more and have some more fun. I learned what its like to be happy with things and handle things that aren't so happy. I learned how to be a better person and I learned how to be there for anyone, even if they aren't always there for you. I just learned a lot about how to do the right thing and be able to live life with less worries and a lot less drama.

I'm gonna miss this summer, it was fun and it isn't over yet...I have 11 more days left of summer and I will make sure each one counts!!

The NEXT 11 DAYS
- Seeing My Favorites
- The Crew
- JJKA
- Bus 1 & Carly
- And the rest of you guys!
- Mini Golf
- NYC
- Joshua Tree
- Beach
- Dashboard Concert!!
-Kate's Wedding
- AND SO MUCH MORE!

love all of you guys

- Justin

p.s. Listen to The Pink Spiders!

good times

Scene 1

2006-07-24T20:32:00.000-04:00

Fade In

Enter a young man, about 5'8 , short brown hair and light brown eyes. Walks slowly toward a bench as the camera zooms out to get the whole picture. The Setting: the boardwalk, the beach in the background.
The young man sits there quietly and looks up into the sun and stares across the deep blue sea. Watches the birds fly over head and squints his eyes in the sun trying to see the boats from a distance. With the sun in his eyes and the breeze brushing along his face, a tear forms out of his right eye. The tear drop falls down onto the wooden bench and the spot twinkles in the sunlight. The young man quickly wipes his eyes inorder for no one to see or assume he is crying. He did this because he was insecure or afraid someone might think differently of him.

Sometimes he wishes he could just wish upon a star...
so people wouldn't assume the littlest things are true. This young man had a lot of dreams and many people put him down. This made him fear more of what others thought.
The young man sat back and soaked up the last drop of sun left in the sky before it starts to set in the ocean's distance. He closed his eyes and took a deep breathe. The young man was satisfied where he was. He had no fear except that tear drop that formed and people assuming something else. This made him realize that why should he be afraid of what others think. He shouldn't care. He should be happy that he is satisfied with himself right now. He's sitting on a bench facing the beach with the sunsetting in the distance and a perfect breeze hitting his face. Why should he fear anything?
He took one more deep breathe and quickly jumped through the railing that divided the beach and the boardwalk and ran toward the ocean. He quickly slid off his sandals as he continued running without falling. He took off his white t-shirt then took everything out of his pockets and wrapped it up in his shirt, he threw it to the ground and ran into the ocean. His feet slid right on the sand where the waves crash in. He dove his whole body into the water and floated ontop. He sat there laying on his back and let the sun sink through his body with the last light of the day. He smiled and layed there until it became cool and the sun's rays were slowly dissapearing into the distance. The young man walked slowly out of the water and walked toward the sand. He then turned around and faced the ocean, he sat down. He just watched the sun dissappear and waited for the moon and the dark sky to be revealed. He laid down on his back.

He was waiting for the stars to come out.

Fade Out

By J.D.
gt

I'm honest as a photobooth...

2006-07-23T12:46:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Ronnie Day
- Outside

So I was looking through my blog and I had a list of precentages of things I would be doing this summer...lets go through them becuz im really disappointed...

The Percentage...

Beach- 110%...HAPPENED!
Boardwalk-108%..HAPPENED! but not enough
Mini-golf-101%...DIDN'T HAPPEN...but needs to
I am offically a Sophomore- 100%..DUH!
NYC- 99.4%...DIDN'T HAPPEN...but needs to!
Bandcamp and Ronnie Day's Album comes out- 95%..RONNIE DAY SEPT 19TH..BANDCAMP??
I'm going back to rec - 94.5%...HAPPENED
Movies - 93.1%..HAPPENED!
Red Bank- 93%..HAPPENED...one more time would be nice
Dunkin Donuts/Wawa/Starbucks - 92.35%...NO SO MUCH WAWA...
Trip to MOtown - 88%..DIDNT HAPPEN...not until i go back to school
Joining the Gym- 75.2%..HAHA DIDNT HAPPEN
Kelly Clarkson Concert - 70%...DIDNT HAPPEN
Catching up on shows-24/Lost - 69%...HAHA NOPE!
Zootopia (if there is one)- 66%...THERE WAS NO ZOOTOPIA!
I Have Visitors - 60%..NOPE :(
Rascal Flatts Concert - 50%...DIDNT HAPPEN!
Random Roadtrp with the crew (as of now) - 49%...DIDNT HAPPEN!
Hurricane Harbor - 43%...SHOULD HAPPEN!
Great Adventure - 25%..HAPPENED!

my summer needs to get better!!...its so sad...i had such high expectations for so many things...and i didnt do as much as i thought i would...i need to get back into summer mode...cuz i only have like 3 weeks left!!....arggg...

help me out here haha

- justin

gt...i want some more lol

that feeling good feeling...

2006-07-21T21:13:00.000-04:00

The little things that make me happy, laugh and smile...

- My Friends
- the crew, jjka, wvu and the rest of you guys!
- Summer
- Beach
-F-r-i-e-n-d-s
- Dashboard
- Fat Kids (im sorry they make me laugh) lol
- Campers
- Ronnie Day
- Losers
- Disney Channel
- NEXT
- People who laugh funny
- People who fall off a moving kart
- Beer Pong
- WVU
- Elissa Stories
- The Spill Canvas
- Ben and Jerrys Ice Cream
- Cheesecake Factory
- NYC
- Joshua Tree
- 50 cent shots
- Chilis
- Jerze Freeze
- Mean Girls
- California
- White Chicks
- Australian Accents

haha...ok i ran out of things...but if ur reading this...u make my list too :-) lol

later
- justin

gt

But you've already lost, When you only had barely enough to hang on...

2006-07-20T00:14:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Dashboard Confessional
- Dusk and Summer

I'm going to bed but I wanted to update real quick...

I've been hesitating on buying the new Dashboard CD because I heard such mixed reviews. But after finally saying fuck it I'm gonna buy it...its freakin dashboard. So I bought it and I realized I'm going to there concert in August so I should def. buy it cuz they are gonna play a lot of new songs. So I listened to it once and its alright...but then I listened to it a 2nd time and I absoultly love it! It is a little more mature sound then the old stuff but some songs are just as good and just as amazing. I'm happy I bought it, very very good. And I can't wait to go to the concert!...thanks jill :)

I was suppose to go see Roniie Day 2nite but I ended up not going...hopefully he'll be back in Jersey soon. His album comes out Sept 19th! I'm really excited lol. So camp is pretty good...I'm color war captain--we are winning ( we are the black team)...dont get me started on the colors (black and white..enough said lol)...anyways...i finished writing our color war song...I think it came out pretty good for what its. Pacsun--they have been cutting a lot of hours...which is good, cuz i dont like workin back to back a lot lol. I called out of work 2day but i was oncall and i dont think they needed me anyways. I'm not workin until monday which is good..so i have another free weekend. Hopefully city and beach...would complete some of the things on my list of things to do this summer...

Things to do this summer haha...
- Beach-every chance I get
- NYC (Eat at Joshua Tree and Shop)
- Mini Golf
- Red Bank (night life)
- County Fair
- Concerts (Dashboard)
- Great Adventure (2mro)

There are probably more but I can't think right now lol

I'm off to bed...but I'm gonna leave you with Dashboard's Dusk and Summer

Dashboard Confessional
- Dusk and Summer

She smiled in a big way, the way a girl like that smiles
When the world is hers and she held your eyes
Out in the breezeway down by the shore in the lazy summer
And she pulled you in, and she bit your lip, and she made you hers
She looked deep into you as you lay together quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

And she combed your hair, and she kissed your teeth
And she made you better than you'd been before
She told you bad things you wished you could change in the lazy summer
And she told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap
She said "nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer"

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

She said, "no one is alone the way you are alone"
And you held her looser than you would have if you ever could have known
Some things tie your life together, slender threads and things to treasure
Days like that should last and last and last

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough of her to hang on

later
- Justin

good times

I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS EVER!!

2006-07-09T16:38:00.000-04:00

I just want to thank everyone for coming and making my party so much fun! I seriously couldnt ask for anything more. I had an awesome time...wish it didn't end lol. It was the perfect night. Loved it!! and Love you guys!!

So my birthday was amazing...started at midnight when I saw pirates with david and april then went to camp the next morning...i brought in a box of munchkins, my boss brought in 2 boxes and renae brought in a box too lol. I had 200 munchkins lol...that was funny. Camp was good...i actually ran around hardcore and played so much haha. Then a little pre-party dinner with the crew...and then the party followed....great time!! Thanks everyone for there gifts too!! and the girls for gettin me a cake!

I figured i'd just update a little bit...and i should go clean up more cuz the house is still a mess from friday and the rents will be home 2nite lol

later guys
- Justin

p.s. your a loser :-p haha

THE BEST TIMES

I was sitting on the ground with my best friends looking up at the sky...

2006-07-05T01:42:00.000-04:00

My 2 days of summer were probably my two favorite days ever so far! haha I had such a great time these past two days...I was actually happy and couldn't complain! It feels good being home and summer actually feeling like summer. I went to Red Bank fireworks and Juanitos with David, Jillian and April. The fireworks were awesome, i felt like a little kid looking up at the sky with my mouth open..."WOW" haha....it was so much fun. Example of not complaining about anything...right before the fireworks started there was this little kid behind me and spilled his coke on my back lol. I seriously was like its cool...(i mean obviously I wasnt gonna yell at the kid or be mean to the mother lol) and I didnt even complain i was just like wutever...cant do much about it...so I just let it be...and it didnt even put me in a bad mood lol. I laughed it off and felt probably better lol. I couldn't complain...I was sitting on the ground with my best friends looking up at the sky watching fireworks on a perfect summer night...no worries wutsoever...i was so happy lol. Then a fun ride home in traffic and a stop at dunkin donuts to end the night...it was great! Then today....hung out with beth and leanna at beths cuzins and chilled by the pool, saw the freehold fireworks from far and just had a good time. Then me,beth,lee and alan went to see Click...good movie! It was fun. I am very happy with my 2 days off of work (both jobs) lol...it couldnt have been any better...it was fun!

I think I learned something these past few days...sometimes you need to do things that you know are for the best, as much as you may think otherwise....sometimes you need to be the one to start the motion of the beginning of something or the resolution to it. Sometimes we all need to play our parts for things to happen. Sometimes you just know you need to do the right thing and sitck with it....it makes you feel good and realize...you dont have to complain much and you actually grow a lot by doing this...you feel a lot more confident and you teach yourself something new.

I said this to Jillian and she agreed it made a lot of sense...I was so happy that the only thing I could complain about was that I was HOT...and i was like...you know some people would say things could be worse stop complaining...but hey...if the only thing that im complaining about is that Im hot...then its a good thing...give me this and let me be happy that thats the worst thing in my life right now is ....that I'm hot haha. I didn't even complain about being wet from the coke spill on my shirt...I think i'm learning lol

you should do the same

- Justin

p.s. I'm going to see dashboard august 11th!! :)
p.s.s. My 19th Birthday is on FRIDAY!!

GREAT TIMES!!

music keeps me sane...

2006-06-28T17:59:00.001-04:00

I'm a little bored, so I decided to dedicate this entry to music. I've been listening to A LOT of new Music and its awesome...so I figured I'd tell you guys about some really good bands and really good songs...

Artist: Bandcamp
Best Song: "Celebrity" and "Someone"
When you Listen to "Someone" you will be hooked for good. You may even just make one cd of just that song, like someone I know ;)
When you Listen to "Celebrity" you won't be able to get it out of your head.
They are Awesome and their album comes out soon!!
Website: Bandcampmusic.com or myspace.com/bandcamp

Artist: Ronnie Day
Best Song: EVERYTHING ( Listen to "Outside")
You'll be hooked for life, this kid is so good!! He's coming to NJ on July 19th (bday present?? haha...its only $8 lol) and if u do get me for that my bday u need to listen to him!!...hes awesome! His Album comes out September!!

Artist: The Spill Canvas
Best Song: All Hail The Heartbreaker, Self-Conclusion and The Tide
Listen to The Tide and You'll have a better understanding about Life, Listen to All Hail The Heartbreaker and be captivated by reality and Listen to Self-Conclusion and be blown away.
Website: myspace.com/tsc and thespillcanvas.com

Artist: Cartel
Best Song: Say Anything Else and Honestly
You Might have heard of them...Honestly is out on the radio and I saw their video playing after the Real World. But Listen to them...I heard Say Anything Else and bought the whole album on itunes that day lol. They are awesome! Before Bandcamp gets big...these guys are the next best thing.
Website: myspace.com/cartel and cartelrocks.com

There are a few more but I got to go...I'm going to see Superman!!

Later Guys
- Justin

Let me Know if you like any of these people...comment the blog...its lonley haha

good times

any where ya meet me guranteed to go down...

2006-06-26T23:11:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Young Jock
- Going Down

OK...I needed to updated because I realized as much as I hated today with a passion...working at rec and then pacsun...the highlight of my day was my very funny moments with jaimee hahaha

Before I explain these funny moments...I'm gonna tell you, that you had to be there because these were priceless moments haha ok...soo

We were at the pool and there was a counselor (name-will not be exposed due to the fact, i dunno who reads this or who stalks me haha)--well she asked a camper--"Do you know where Pool One Is"...but can I try to explain how this went down....It sound more like this " Umm...Like Do YOUo Knowo Where Pooool OoNe Iss?..in this voice that was sooo unbelievably funny, me and jaimee lost it. haha

Next- Still at the pool and there is this little girl in JEANS, A JACKET, NICE EARRINGS, NECKLAcE, ETC....its like extremely humid out and this girl is standing there with all of that and her bag on her just standin there with her arms cross...me and jaimee feel bad so we go over to her and try to talk to her and she wudnt answer us...i kinda creeped her out i guess but...i kept goin back to her and she kept giving me a look...and we later clarified this look as this little hoochy girl is telling me off...she was a little skevy lookin and--she'll be a whore when shes over hahaahaha...we are so mean...but it gets better so that counselor (who will be unnamed)...came over to the girl and we asked her if she knew why she didnt talk and she rambled on about sumthing and all of a sudden she laughed....and i dont mean chuckled and i dont mean giggled...she bursted out into this weird, hyper active, funniest thing in the entire world laugh...and im usually good and holding laughter inside until someone leaves a room or smile but dont let it out just yet...NOOO i didnt...i laughed right back at her and i cudnt control but laughing at her laugh...it was the funniest thing in the entire world...i cudnt breathe...and then jaimee laughed cuz i laughed and i just walked away hysterical...it was soooo funny

Ok so this was the last highlight and probably the most random yet greatest moment of my day....So me and jaimee went to barnes and noble after she almost forgot about a camper (haha jk...) she didnt but she thinks she did anyways!!....we were there late and then we took chris home and then missed the entrance to it so we had to go threw the mall entracne etc...anyways....it was meant to be this way cuz we were by home depot and we were at a stop sign and all of a sudden a girl on one of those big carts was riding ontop of all this stuff while her dad wheeled it....the dad stopped short AND THE GIRL WENT TUMMBLING ACROSS THE KART AND FELL ON THE FLOOR...IT WAS THE GREATEST THING TO EVER EXPERIENCE...I stopped the car and i cudnt help myself...me and jaimee lost it...it was soooo funny...so g-d made sure that all the shit that went down today...was so we cud experience some fucked up funniest shit you never get to see...that shot of the girl falling off that thing...should have been on tape...it was amazing...priceless!

PacSun - $ 7 an hour
One Day At Rec - $50 a Day
Watching a Girl Fall Off A Moving Cart While Her Dad Doesn't Do Anything and Me and Jaimee Stop to Laugh--PRICELESS!!

-JD

great times!!

watch out the yellow ones don't stop...

2006-06-21T02:11:00.000-04:00

Hey, Its 2 in the morning and I really want to go to sleep but I can't. And I have just discovered that Elf is on and im sure I'll be up for the rest of it lol. So anyways...I figured I'd update. So pac-sun has taken over my life haha but I really love the job. Everyone is awesome that works there and im getting the hang of it and its cool. I'm working SOO much....im on call 2mro night...then im workin fri,sat,sun,mon and camp orientation is on friday and camp starts monday...its gonna be rough! But i think I can handle it...i hope lol. I'm going to the beach 2mro, I need to write my paper for my last class on thursday (finally)...a lot is going on! Its good being busy...cuz im just lazy most of the time when im not doing anything. So I guess its good but its all gonna catch up to me...i'm gonna be exhausted i know it...it hit me last week when i worked then went to great adventure then work the next morning...that kicked my ass haha. But i think my body wasnt use to being on the go so much. But its good. I miss morgantown and my friends. I even miss the ones that are home that i never get to see...and i know its been crazy cuz ive been so busy but dont be a stranger too. It sucks a lot when you lose touch with people who were a big part of your life. Its strange how things happen but I do think about all of you!

ahhh one of my favorite elf moments....this place reminds me of santas workshop, except it smells like mushrooms and everybody looks like they want to hurt me! hahah

Anyways...i hope im not working 2mro cuz i rele need to finish my paper and i know im gonna be tired after the beach lol and I really want to go to pac sun and get reefs and some clothes and i cant do that while im working lol. So yeah...thats about it. I am looking foward to my birthday...still dont know wut im doing yet...any ideas?? I can't wait for red bank fireworks and juanitos--love that place. And I'm really excited for summer to truly begin...cuz once camp starts (as much as i am dreding it) it feels like summer.

Ok well i'm gonna go finish watching elf and hopefully get some sleep...but worst comes to worst ill sleep on the beach. lol---be jealous haha

good night
- Justin

good times

Baby is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel....

2006-06-16T23:14:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Head Automatica
- Beating Heart Baby

Hey...feels like awhile since I last updated...

real quick...I got the job at pacsun...my 1st day was yesterday---its a cool job. I went to six flags today....went on El toro....one of the best rides at the park--awesome....and thanks to davids sneaky moves we got on kingda ka--intense!....and lifehouse concert at night was fun. Now I have to wake up early for work 2mro...im workin a lot!---its good but im alrede beat haha....brookdale class ends on thursday---finally---but then i start camp the following monday...rough!!

Countdown
Rec Starts- 10 days
Juanitos/Red Bank fireworks- 17 days
My 19th Birthday - 21 days
Morgantown??- 35 days
Elissa's Party- 44 days
Rec Ends/Margaret Cho - 49 days
Kate's Wedding - 58 days
Back in Mo-town??-59 days

later
- jd

gt

I dare you to tell me to walk through fire. Wear my soul and call me a liar...

2006-06-06T16:15:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Shinedown
- I Dare You

Have you ever been so confused about something that the only thing you can do is try to ignore it. The more you ignore it the more you want to figure out this problem. No matter what you do it just won't ever be resolved. Now say that problem disappears because you finally just ignored it for good. Then one day about a year or two after.... something hits you and you realized that thing you were confused about was never resolved. That thing you could have bet your life you would never forget in a million years just hit you a year or two of forgetting it entirely. Now you may be asking yourself, why is Justin saying that and where the hell is he going with this. If you could resolve something your confused about you would do it, right? Well I mean unless you don't want to but thats just crazy. We all have things in our life that we are confused about and all we want to do is understand or resolve it. So nows your chance, instead of forgetting it ever happened or ignoring it for years....do it now, resolve it now, figure it out now, do what ever you can...so when you look back in a year or two from now and you still never resolved it....you could atleast say you tried.

You know what I think is so weird and this so random but I don't know, I feel everyone does this. Like I was driving home from brookdale and you see a dead animal up ahead on the road, so I say to myself...don't look. Of course the split second you pass it, you have to look! Just like if theres an accident on the side of the road and you don't want to look because what if you see something that can scar you for life like a dead body or someone really hurt but of course we all still look! I don't know what it is, I guess its just like when we watch a movie or a television show, we love to see things blow up or people get hurt for various reasons as entertainment but when it comes to real life...real things still entertain us. Like seeing an accident or road kill on the side of the road. Why are we so fascinated by all of this...it boggles my mind. Its so strange and I don't know if its just me but I'm not gonna lie, I do it all the time. Like if someone says don't look...you have to look! lol. I don't know I guess its just human nature and natural instinct. I think its kinda funny that we do this. I don't know I thought it was kinda of interesting.

Anyways, I don't know but most of you know I write random poems/lyrics etc... just when I have a lot on my mind. And I already have like over 25 of them since I was 14 years old. I think some of them are really good and some of them just suck big time. But I didn't realize how good you can feel by just getting your feelings out through something easy as writing it all out or making a poem into it. You may think I write everything I feel into these blogs, but I don't really. Like serious things that go on in my life or feelings I have inside about things...they go toward those poems and stuff. I have had a lot on my mind lately about the future and its really hard to accept that things won't be the same soon. I'm growing up a lot faster then I ever thought I would. I think I'm growing up more in the mind then in my age. I have such a different perspective on things then most people my age. It kind of sucks sometimes, and it sometimes can just kick me in the ass. Sometimes its a good thing but it can hurt the way things run in my life with the people around me because they aren't on the same path as me yet. I just wish things didn't have to randomly come up out of no where and ruin things that I thought were running smoothly. Its really bittersweet. But I guess in the long run...it may benefit me to some degree but it still seems like I am the only one who gets hurt by things that are out of my contorl. Now how is that fair? Who knows but it really sucks sometimes....and somedays are easier then others. I guess we all go through shit in different ways and one day it will all work out. Time is all that it can take....even if it takes the time of your life, sometimes waiting is the only thing can do....and thats what gets you by.

- Justin

gt

I'm spinning while falling down...

2006-06-05T12:57:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Cartel
- Honestly

Hey...
So I got a call back from pac-sun...they called to make sure I'm still interested in the job...so now they are calling references and then they'll let me know during the week. My brookdale class sucks big time...really boring and I can't wait for it to be over. Two nights ago--I was having a shitty night and my bro comes into my room and asked me if I wanted to go to Summer Jam....my mood obviously changed lol...Ofcourse I said yeah! The concert was good...a lot of special guests...it rained a lot---and some parts of the concert I couldn't enjoy it but overall it was a good time. A LOT of special guests (blows any zootopia/jingleball surprise away)...for starters...Janet Jackson,Da Brat and Mariah Carey came out randomly during Jermaine, LL Cool J came out in the middle of Jaime Foxx, Missy Eilliot and 10 other people came out during Busta Rhymes...there were ALOT of people that came out during him lol. But Young Jeezy,T.I., Mary J, Ne-yo were awesome too. There was more but I can't think right now lol. Well that was that...I have a paper to write and I really don't want to.
Anyways, I'll leave you with lyrics to a great band and a great song...

Cartel
- Honestly

Please don't mind what I'm trying to say cause I'm, I'm being honest
When I tell you that you
You're part of the reason I'm so set on the rest of my life
Being a part of you
You tell me what you think about being open,
About being honest with yourself

Cause things will never be the same.

So I guess I'll see you, see you around
I'm spinning while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you to stay

Well don't waste time getting to the point, cause I'm, I'm patiently waiting
For your next phone call, your next excuse for losing sleep again
Tell me what you think about being open,
About being honest with yourself

Cause things will never be the same

So I guess I'll see you, see you around
I'm spinning while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you to stay

Cause I can't stop it now
It's so amazing how
I know I cant, I could never walk away

How can we resolve this now
We let it go, and wonder how
This can ever be the same
Can never be the same

So I guess I'll see you, see you around
I'm spinning while I'm falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you, I'm begging!

Cause I can't stop it now,
It's so amazing how,
I know I cant, I could never walk away.

Please don't mind what I'm trying to say, cause I'm, I'm being honest.

gt

Self-Assured

2006-06-02T01:40:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
-The Thoughts In My Head

All there is to do

Is broadcast my debut

Ladies and Gentleman, I would like to present…

The one and only

Mr. Confident.

g.t.

Give me a reason to end this discussion....

2006-05-25T23:52:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Motion City Soundtrack
- Everything Is Alright

Hey..
I'm extremely bored so I figured I'd update lol. So this week went by pretty fast. Brookdale class tuesdays and thursdays--its pretty boring but its easy. I went for my ultra-sound the other day and I should find out tomorrow how that came out. This will let me know if I can play sports/work out/drink etc...My blood test came back and it said i'm all back to normal--which is awesome lol. But the ultra sound was checkin out my spleen cuz its still a little enlarged and they want to just make sure. OK i know you probably dont want to hear all this lol anyways...Idol was on last night and my girl Katharine did not win...but its all good she could be the next clay aiken(who sold more then ruben the year he won lol)...I like Taylor too but I really wanted her to win...i voted and got through 27 times haha (i rele wanted her to win) lol

So the weather is getting a lot nicer these days! It was in the 80s 2day and on Monday its suppose to be 85...im excited about that...hopefully go to the beach. I got an interview with Pac-Sun on wed. so thats cool..hopefully that goes well. Next weekend--Matthew might be coming in and 2 weeks after that Alyssa and Kaleen might be coming in...so im looking forward to that. I am going to morgantown sometime this summer before I head back so I can move in early and buy a new bed and stuff. Chris and Phillip are already living there...they said the apartment is nice--im excited for next year.

I can't wait for the beach, boardwalk, mini-golf, the city, red bank and the rest of the summer to finally begin...ok well im goin

later
- justin

gt

It is time to...

2006-05-24T02:49:00.000-04:00

...change

(be different)

be safe
(be calm)

be good
(be nice)

discover a new meaning
--Grow up--
^^step up^^
<---figure a way out--->
**reach for the impossible**

...Settle down...
"create a new perspective"
!@Be stupid!@
#Be smart#
>>Be weird<<
//Be cool\\
~Be fun~
<>Be Crazy<>

::forget all the anger::
start all over...
!*set your self free*!

Laugh
(OUT LOUD)

be independent

|Cry|
||Smile||

be yourself

[understand]

find yourself.

g.t.

If I lay here...If I just lay here...Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

2006-05-19T01:20:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Snow Patrol
- Chasing Cars

*songs from the end of Grey's Anatomy*
- New Fav. Song

Hey Guys...feels like awhile since I updated. Still home and still pretty bored lol. I just want the summer to really start already...the weather needs to get nicer! I started brookdale summer classes on Tuesday...fun but not so fun lol. I am going back to rec.---fun but not so fun lol. Kind of dont want to but I guess it wont be that bad. I applied for a job at Fossil and I'm gonna hand in my application at Express 2mro. I need to keep myself busy and a few extra bucks would be nice. I would rather work at Fossil because the I like the clothes better there but Express pays $8 an hour when Fossil pays $7...but who knows if I'll get either job lol.

Can we just talk about a few television shows...because hardcore things went down this week...
We'll start little...How I Met Your Mother---Marshal and Lily called off their marriage! and Ted and Robin made out in a "Friends" look alike moment--(but we know robin isnt the mother....unless they call their mom aunt robin) haha....American Idol--My girl Katharine Mcphee is in the finals!!....still pretty shocked about Chris gettin kicked off but I think it was the best thing for his career...we are going to see a lot of him so im not worried lol...Elliot got kicked off--finally! Taylor is a lot of fun to watch and I don't think he is that bad compared to what people say...I think he is entertaining but Kat needs to win--despite what people say about her and that she is supposely stuck up or wutever...who cares--the girl can sing!!...Alias--WOW...coming down to the end...getting kind of confusing but the finale is on Monday and everything should be answered...it is gettin very intense--very excited to see what happens!...Will and Grace--series finale aired 2nite--it was good but not as good as I thought it would be...but I def. enjoyed it and I def. will miss this show...I think I laughed my hardest watchin this show through the years...thank g-d for reruns lol....ER season finale 2nite...very intense...I haven't watched it that much this season but they are known for their unbelievable season finales...and I was not dissappointed--except they better not kill off Abby (or her baby)...it was a very good episode...looking foward to next season...Grey's Anatomy!!!!---One of the best season finale episodes of television...it was done very well!...Izzie leaving for good?? Who will grey pick?...I want her to pick derek but I think she isnt going to pick either and just walk away from both---it needs to cause some drama lol.--Obsessed with this show!...OK now the most intense shocking moment of all--THE O.C.!!!---Marissa died!...completly shocked...I mean like...I really didnt believe it...I'm watchin the car flip over and like NO neither can die..then u see ryan move and take her out of the car..shes breathing--kinda out of it and then she just died right there in his arms! I can't believe shes off the show...very very very surprised. It was done very well but still shocked. (I read she wanted to focus on her film career and she felt there was nothing left for marissa to do, shes been through way too much)...Rumors were saying that O.C. wasnt coming back next season (but it is)...last season? I doubt it...I say atleast 2 more..but we'll see. If they kill off Summer...I'll boycott the show..but im just saying lol.

Thats all I really have to talk about...sad I know haha....

good night
- Justin

Good Times :)

our days were numbered by nites on too many rooftops-they said we're wastin our lives-well atleast if we died we lived with passion...

2006-05-07T02:08:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Cartel
- Burn This City

Back in Jerzee...
So I am already bored in this town and I have been here for a day haha. Nah-it'll get better...wait until everyone is home and it should be cool. So I went to the Mets vs. Braves game today with my bros and fam. friend...it was fun Mets won 6-5! Thats pretty much what I did all day today. Just went out to dinner with the family and came back here and chilled. I'm still pretty beat from these past two days...friday woke up early to finish packing,loadin the car and had a 5 hr car ride and then woke up early this morning to get to Shea early to tailgate--haha interesting time--long story that involved burgers,hotdogs and concrete haha...ANYWAYS...

The crew will be back together soo soon...April comes home 2mro at like 1 in the morning and I'm so pumped to see her...I haven't seen her since January 1st when she woke me up at like 8 in the morning to say goodbye...I was halfasleep...all i remember was a blurr and her giving me a hug haha

We were suppose to go see Panic! at the Disco but we waited too long to get tixs...its sold out! boo!So we might go see Kelly Clarkson...and I might go with April to see Rascal Flatts! So i'm pretty excited about that. I really want to know if there is going to be a Zootopia cuz if there isnt I wanna go to Summer Jam. Who knows!? Concert Tixs are so expensive...argg

A new section of my blog...a lil mix of random thoughts and what I am up to and how much of a chance I am going to do it or have done it..wutever it is... haha its called....

The Percentage...

Beach- 110%
Boardwalk-108%
Mini-golf-101%
I am offically a Sophomore- 100%
NYC- 99.4%
Bandcamp and Ronnie Day's Album comes out- 95%
I'm going back to rec - 94.5%
Movies - 93.1%
Red Bank- 93%
Dunkin Donuts/Wawa/Starbucks - 92.35%
Trip to MOtown - 88%
Joining the Gym- 75.2%
Kelly Clarkson Concert - 70%
Catching up on shows-24/Lost - 69%
Zootopia (if there is one)- 66%
I Have Visitors - 60%
Rascal Flatts Concert - 50%
Random Roadtrp with the crew (as of now) - 49%
Hurricane Harbor - 43%
Great Adventure - 25%

later
- Justin

good times

She can't keep a secret for more than an hour...

2006-05-03T04:14:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
The Click Five
- Just the Girl

This song is in honor from last summer...I must have heard it every day at the pool lol

One more final and I am done with my first year of college!! It is kind of unreal...doesn't feel like it. I can't believe how fast it went by...kinda crazy! lol Last final is on Thursday and then I'm coming home on Friday!

Well for the summer I am doing brookdale class, taking English 102 Summer I....I think erika is in my class which is cool. Then, I think I am doing rec--we just got the paper today actually and I am not getting the big raise that everyone was talking about--sucks and also they changed all the sites and now I'm at robertsville...not happy about that and I don't think that many people are coming back...atleast I got Jaimee!! haha I think we'll still have a great summer either way. But it is def. my last summer I can't do it anymore. Next summer I am hopefully going out to California and getting an internship! But anyways...thats in a year from now! lol

Well real quick random thoughts cuz I'm going to go lay down cuz its almost 4 in the morning...
- Panic! at the Disco and Kelly Clarkson concert this summer...almost definite!
- Chester the Fish died and came back to life but passed away short time after :(
I HARDCORED cleaned my room and packed almost everything...still actually have a lot to do but I did well lol
- I got a B in my English class and If i calculated my grade correctly (which I did it like 10 times) I should get an A in my psych class!! :) I think I did very well this semester I'm really happy about that...especially with after mono..didn't think i wud make it the rest of the semester. lol
- I know this was like weeks ago but...You wanted a break....hahahaha--wut r we ross and rachel from friends??...i dont think i actually laughed that hard in long time...thanks it was rele funny...p.s. u just made it way more akward for u --but im just sayin lol
- Umm..Summer is in like 2 days for me...hasn't hit me yet
- I'm going to miss morgantown
- I went out over the weekend and had 2 beers did not affect me at all...and I am so ready to get drunk alrede...fuk the mono and the spleen...i'm fine haha (i'm going to the doctor on tuesday just for a final check up...but after that fuk it) lol
- I was bored earlier and I was looking online and...do u remember the Young Americans...that was so much fun---in 7th grade...it was 3 days and we put on this awesome show...i missed that....the thing that was rele weird...me and april were in it together and we didn't even know haha
- I hear Britney spears is pregnant again...but I dunno if its true...weird
- Alias--is on 2mro but I need to have my mom TiVo it cuz House was on 2nite and its a "to be continued..." and its on during alias 2mro...and I have to see what happens on House haha...sorry Jillian...we'll discuss it when I watch alias like fri or sat haha...p.s u were so drunk on the fone dont lie! lol i love u
- April- I havent seen u in a million years...just warning u I WILL jump on u when i see u...and wont let go for a good 20 mins...so be prepared cuz i miss u so f'in much its not even funny!
- I can't wait for...beach,boardwalk,nyc,concerts,ralphs,ritas,mini-golf and reuniting with the crew...summer is SOOO SOON! i'm pumped haha

good night
- Justin

good times for sure haha

screaming catch me if you can with a cigarette in hand...and its love

2006-04-28T00:56:00.000-04:00

Currenly Listening to:
The Pink Spiders
- Modern Swinger

Hey guys...
So the semester is coming to an end...weird!! I can't believe my first year of college is pretty much over....its crazy...ah!! haha Well I had my last american lit class 2day--handed in my final paper and left...no more psych classes (but have to take one more quiz and im done)...then Hist and Soc. final next week! I'm excited to come home but then again...I'm gonna miss morgantown. Ever since I have gotten back I have not been going out--which i kind of don't really mind...cuz it feels good to get your work done lol but I do miss going out and enjoying myself...I wish I could stay a little longer to have some fun. Oh well..the summer will be awesome though! P.S. I MIGHT go out this weekend :) haha
So this week was alittle crazy with the whole apartment situation...kind of got messed up but it is all good now...Me,Chris and Phillip got an apartment--its in a great location downtown...perfect distance to classes and the bars...haha I'm really happy about that. I am way closer to everything...its going to be cool. I'm really excited!! lolol
So many concerts this summer...Panic! at the Disco, KellyClarkson, Bon Jovi, Zootopia??,Summer Jam,Rascal Flatts,Cartel,Ronnie Day, The Pink Spiders(they opened up for Yellowcard...they are awesome!) and so much more...I really hope I get to see some of them!!
Anyways...real quick random thoughts...
- ALIAS is back and I am so pumped to see what happens!
- Idol--my girl katharine mcphee is still doing her thing haha
- O.C.- is gettin crazy
- HIMYM (HowIMetYourMother)- was really good on monday
- I just found out they are making a Grudge 2--weird haha
- I had burger king and wendy's in one day (like right after eachother aha)
- I am done with classes 2mro!!
- I got a new cartlidge earring...its blue--looks cool
- My 19th Birthday is in 2 months 1 week and 2 days! haha
- I'm tired...I am going to get some sleep
- 7 days until SUMMER!!!!!!!

good night
- Justin

Good Times!!

the time is so wrong...its like 2am...i just took my time updating lol

We can't always get what we want but, when we do...we aren't ever completley satisfied.

2006-04-21T17:08:00.000-04:00

Hey guys...so I am officially all caught up as of today. I am finally back on track...this is my list of all the things I needed to do in order to catch up on all my classes....it was long and hard but I some how did it lol....and that is why I called it..."MONO SUCKS"...because it does haha

MONO SUCKS!

~~Sociology Review –~~ ~~Monday April 3rd 4-515pm~~
Psychology Quiz (Chapter 8) – Due By Tuesday April 4th
English Midterm Essay – Tuesday April 4th
Sociology Exam 3(Scantron 30423) (Chapters 4,9,10) – Wednesday April 5^th 4-515pm
Psychology Extra Credit Closes - Friday April 7^th
Sociology Exam 2 (Scantron 30423) (Chapters 2,3,8,21)– Friday April 7^th 10:30am
Sociology Assignments – Hotel Rwanda and ~~the Laramie Project~~ – ~~Friday April 7^th~~ & April 10^th
~~Academic Probation Workshop~~ and Advisor- 1-3pm - Friday April 7^th
Sociology Quiz – Chapter 4 – Monday April 10^th 3:30pm
~~Alcohol Education Session – 5:30-630pm -~~ ~~Monday April 10^th~~
Psychology Quiz (Chapter 10) – Tuesday April 11^th
Alcohol Educational Session and 5 hours due – Friday April 14^th
Psychology Quiz (Chapter 11)- Tuesday April 18^th
Psychology Quizzes (Chapters 3,6,7) –Thursday April 20^th
Psychology Social Psychology Paper – Thursday April 20^th
Psychology Extra Credit Quizzes (Chapters 11,12,13) – Friday April 21^st

~~Monday April 3^rd~~
History Class – 1:30-2:20pm Read-Henretta 269-75,352-380; Holt 3-
~~Sociology~~ Review- 4-515pm

~~Tuesday April 4^th~~
Psychology Quiz (Chapter 8) – Due TLC Hours 9am-3pm
English Class – 2:30-3:45pm
English Midterm Essay
Psychology Class - 530-645pm

~~Wednesday April 5^th~~

History Class – 1:30-2:20pm
Sociology Exam 3 (Scantron 30423) (Chapters 4,9,10) - 4-515pm
Psychology – Study Extra Credit and think of Topic for paper

~~Thursday April 6^th~~
Laramie Project—Watch tonight and write paper
Take Psychology Extra Credit Quizzes
English Class – 2:30-3:45pm
Psychology Class - 530-645pm

~~Friday April 7^th~~
Psychology Extra Credit Closes
Sociology Exam 2 (Scantron 30423) (Chapters 2,3,8,21) – 10:30am
Sociology Assignment- the Laramie Project
History Recitation Class – 11:30am-12:20pm
~~Academic Probation Workshop~~ and Advisor- 1-3pm

~~Monday April 10^th~~
History Class – 1:30-2:20pm
Sociology Assignment- Hotel Rwanda
Sociology Quiz – Chapter 4 – 3:30pm
Sociology Class – 4-515pm
~~Alcohol Education Session – 5:30-630pm~~

~~Tuesday April 11^th~~
~~Psychology Quiz (Chapter 10)~~

~~Friday April 14^th~~
~~Alcohol Educational Session and 5 hours due~~

~~Thursday April 20^th~~
Psychology Quizzes (Chapters 3,6,7) Due
Psychology Social Psychology

~~Friday April 21^st~~
~~Psychology Extra Credit Quizzes (Chapters 11,12,13)~~

So that was that...now i am in for the weekend in my bed and resting. Even though I am all caught up...I still have work to do....2 more english papers and I am done with that class and 2 more psych quizzes and I am done with that. Then finals week...I have History and Soc.---not too bad i guess.

i wish...
- I could drink
- I could go out and have fun
- I had no stress
- Some people would change
- Some people wouldn't change
- I could change
- It was summer
- I was at the beach
- Little things didn't get to me
- We all could be a certain way
- I didn't grow up so fast
- I was able to change things
- I could skip these two weeks left of school
- There was no more drama
- I was happier sometimes
- I could appreciate things more
- I wasn't selfish
- Other people weren't selfish
- I could make people happier
- I could help people
- Some people weren't so stupid
- Some people weren't such a complete asshole
- I didn't complain so much
- Some people didn't complain so much
- I could accept things
- Other people could accept things
- I didn't care so much about stupid things
- I cared more about things that matter
- I didn't get pissed off all the time
- I didn't have so many problems in my life
I really just wish it was summer...the beach = no problems

We can't always get what we want but, when we do...we aren't ever completley satisfied.
I realized...all those things I wish for...the only thing I can't really change is that I grew up too fast. I am trying to move on from things and not caring about the pointless shit that goes on and I am focusing on more important things. Sometimes I regret growing up and seeing things this way because so many people are trapped in a drama filled world and it causes more drama because I always disagree. But sometimes one of us needs to put other people intact. Sometimes people need that push toward a new beginning or a push in the right direction or a pull back from the wrong one. I think it is ok that I see things this way. I mean HEY...I'm not gonna lie, I could have a stupid state of mind sometimes but I am trying to stick with this growing up state of mind. I like it a lot better and I want to change. It is time for me to just live my life my own way and not deal with all the crap that I am sucked into. If I want to get involved--thats my decision. But I am most likely going to try to tell you my point of view or ignore the situation. I am so sick of being part of crap that always ends with a "sorry" or someone in tears. You should figure out the problem...ignoring it just makes it 10 times worse. "Sorry" doesn't cut it and sometimes it takes more then realizing your wrong to fix a situation. Sometimes people don't know how to deal with their problems...you need to think for yourself and if you can't do that...then you shouldn't be a part of all these problems that you are faced with. You need to either step back from this shitty world of problems and grow up or grow up and fix them yourself.

We all want life to be easy but the only way to know what it feels like for life to be easy is to experience how hard it can actually be. It is just like you can't feel pleasure unless you have experienced pain. Sometimes we need be faced with so much negative stuff inorder to get that positive life we have been searching for. It sucks but in the long run...life is worth all those good times.

I know I just went on and on but, I thought it was something we all can relate to.

later
- justin

gt

"I am out of the house cause there is a serial killer out loose who kills anybody with the name Howie. THATS MY NAME!!!"

2006-04-15T01:16:00.000-04:00

haha thats a line from "The Benchwarmers"

Hey Guys...

So, on thursday night me and brother were eating dinner and we decided to come home for the weekend because everyone was going home..so we left at 830 and made it to jerze around 2am...suprised my parents and my grandma...it was really funny. It was good to be home without the whole mono thing lol. I didn't go to sleep until like 4 in the morning...woke up and had matza bryed (idk if thats how u spell it hah)...then went to turning point with David,Elissa, and Dina. Then I helped elissa with her sched. for next yr (yes its official...shes coming to WVU!) Then I went with Beth to the bank to do one of those change things that give u cash back then went to chilis haha...yeah i broke it alrde so it was OK..but i am trying to keep it as best as I can. Went back to beth's house...watch the o.c...then david picked us and Jillian up for Jerze Freeze..we dropped off a milkshake for elissa at work at American Eagle haha...then went to see The Benchwarmers....SOOOOOO FUNNY! I loved it...def. a must see movie...haha I'm laughing right now thinking about it lol..."You still suck", "Yeah, well you're still fat" hahaha....u have to see it!
There were a lot of funny parts..I really want to see it again lol

Ok..I am tired..i'll update when I'm up to it

later
justin

good times!!

I'm jing-a-linging from here to the ceiling...

2006-04-10T19:21:00.000-04:00

Currently Listening to:
Gavin Degraw
- Chemical Party

Hey...
So it's Monday...had a long day. Woke up to register for classes at 7am. Not too much trouble this time, got stressed out for about 10 mins and finally figured out stuff. My schedule is alright but I am going to have a lot of work. I am taking Geology103/104 (yeah have to take 2 semesters of it...it blows but after I take it this time i am done),Relg 222 (Origins of Judaism...I don't know much about my religion--so I am looking foward to that),Math 126 (college algebra), Psyc 251 (Social Psychology...its cool that they have a class just for that cuz for my psych class now my professor told me to pick anytopic that interests me from what we have learned and write a paper on so I could get some extra points...and I picked Social Psychology lol) and SPA 274 (Sign Language...its my foreign language...im excited for that). My schedule might change but as for now that is what I am taking. I'm going to be very busy. The times and stuff are very different then these last 2 semesters and I will be getting a job. So its going to be a little different. Anyways, after registering I didn't get much sleep after and was up by 10. I had History at 1:30--boring as usual...then went to the library to study for a soc. quiz I had to make up. I am now completly caught up in sociology and my average in that class is an 89! I don't know how I did that...I was so far behind....he said I could get the A...I only have a quiz and the final left...and it is looking good that I should get the A--I was really happy about that!! The only class left I have to catch up is Psych...only have to make up 3 quizes and write that paper on social psych by April 20th...not too bad. Well after the quiz I got some food at the lair then went to Sociology and after that we got out really early so I met up with matt and chilled outside the lair (it was rele nice out 2day...and its suppose to be nicer 2mro) I had to kill some time becuz I had an Alcohol Session thing to go to. (long story short....I wasnt drinking...we were in matts room with juan and maddy...we were loud supposely (just an intense game of Cranium haha)...well the RAs knocked on the door and saw a beer can and wrote us up...I tried to appeal it but it didnt work)...so thats why I had to go lol.
BTW...the fire alarm is going off and I don't want to walk down 10 flights of stairs...especially if I don't have to...you know me and my enlarged spleen ahha....hmmm i dont know if I should go down or not...ughh I really don't want to but then again I don't want to die haha....well brian isnt going down..and he said its been going off all day...so I guess I'm alright lol
Well I want to finish this update just incase the burns down...I love you all...(UMM...I HEAR FIRE TRUCKS) HAHA...maybe I rele should go down lol...(nahh they always come...) lol brian is reassuring me its alright lol.

Well anyways...let me finish this update...so I got Burger King after the session...(chicken fries value meal...very yummy..#7--I think...if u wanted to know lol)
That was my lovely but long day....(the alarm stopped) lol
I was suppose to go see a show that Matt and Jess are in 2nite but me and the girls are going tomorrow. I never saw them in a show before..so I'm excited lol. On thursday its Alyssa's Bday...I don't think I am going out that night but most likely I'll be going out on Saturday instead of Thursday for her bday (I'll be DD probably lol)...then on Tuesday its Kaleen's Bday...probably going out then too. I can't believe that I am almost done with my first year in college...wow! Time does fly by. A year ago I would in Bahamas or something...ahh how I miss the bahamas...you know--"It is always better in the Bahamas"...it truly is. haha
I am super excited for this summer..however I do not know if I am definitely doing REC yet again...I have to see. Its just I have been doing it for so long now and It might be time for me to be done with it. I have to see how much I get paid becuz if its worth it...I'll probably stay...and I think our site director might have gotten fired haha...so we'll see if we get a good one this summer and I have to see if my JJKA is coming back and other peeps...cuz thats wut rele matters lol. I'll see...
There are a million movies that I want to see...Ice Age 2, The Wild, American Dreamz,The Benchwarmers,Inside Man, Take the Lead, Failure to Launch, Phat Girlz, Scary Movie 4,Silent Hill,RV and I cant wait for X-men 3!!! I'll probably end up seeing like 3 of these movies haha

Some random thoughts
-I want to get the new rascal flatts cd
-I can't find ladybugs on dvd!!?
- One of my fish had a swim bladder problem...it was really funny...he swimmed on his side and he couldn't swim to the bottom and everytime he tried he would float right back up to the top like a balloon. lol
- I want to go to Bamboozle so badly but I'm not going to be home intime for the 1st day
- Rascal flatts are playing at pnc bank arts center--which is pretty cool
- How I met your mother is new 2nite!!
- Deal or No Deal is my new obession and its on right now haha
- I watched Hotel Rwanda for my soc. class...WOW...what a movie..very intense.
- I want to know when zootopia is and who is going to be there
- Grey's Anatomy was really good last week ( i watched it yesterday lol)
- Extreme House was really good but I never got to finish it...I taped it tho
- I was looking at my yearbook randomly and it was really funny how we fucked it up so much...there was a picture that said I took it and I so did not take that picture haha
- I am very happy it is going to be very nice out 2mro...lookin foward to summer!

I think I am done haha

later
- justin

good to the times

"I came to shake a load off...so take you coat off...mix drinks what you think...OJ and Smirnoff"

2006-04-07T18:56:00.001-04:00

Currently Listening to:

B Rich

- Whoa Now

<---i dont walk that anymore lol This actually the first time this week I can actually say...I have nothing to do right now. So it is time for an update. It's friday...and I have had the longest week EVER. But it is all good because I am caught up with 2 classes already! I will be all caught up with soc. on monday and psych I will be all caught up by April 20th (maybe b4) lol. So I really got lucky and caught up way faster then I ever thought I would. I have been doing work non-stop. I made a list of everything that needed to be done and it is helping. The list is called "Mono Sucks" lol. It feels good when I cross stuff off it because I feel accomplished haha. Today was a long day....I woke up to take a soc. exam at 1030 and then I had history recitiation class at 1130, (then got some food), then at 1pm I had workshop and then 3 I had my advising meeting, then came back here and tried to figure out my sched. for next semester (kinda stressful) So, that was that...I am really tired and so happy its the weekend, I just need to relax!!! I haven't done that at all since I got here. I should be doing that right now but I'm not lol...anyways--I just want the semester to be over with,I'm just so sick of work-especially when I'm doing double the work--its just time for summer already. I have been thinking about summer consitently--I cannot wait!!

Summer
A time of the year where you can chill and relax. You can enjoy yourself on the beach, in the sun, playing mini golf, eating ices or ice cream, in nyc, in the pool, on the boardwalk, in the car (with the windows down...of course blasting music---yes I am one of them lol..even tho i hate sum pple that do that b/c they think they r cool hahaha)...Just hanging out at night when its nice but cool, going to the county fair,redbank/fireworks/4th of july, eating funnelcake/waffles w/ ice cream/french fries (butterfly fries)/fried oreos, walking on the beach at night,random road trips, random pictures, sleepovers, boardwalk games/arcades/rides---beating the ride ticket system haha, movies, dinners, late nights, drunken nights, fights,complaining, figuring out what to do in this lovely town lol, hurricane harbor/gr8 adventure, new summer music, starbucks/dunkin, zootopia,turning point, riding bikes, mall, my b-day (lol), reading a book or just listening to your ipod on a sunny but breezy day at the beach on your towel thats filled with sand haha, frisbees, volleyballs, soccer, sandcastles,avon pavallion,strollos/ritas/ralphs, camp, shorts,sun glasses,driving around just for the hell of it (wit the windows down ofcourse and the music blasting lol--even tho i hate sum pple that do that becuz they think they r cool hahhaha), just chillin out and having fun...summer is my favorite time of year and this list isn't even the half of it...I cannot wait!

later
- justin

good times

take me home, to the place I belong...

2006-03-30T14:42:00.000-05:00

I'm back in Morgantown!!

So, yesterday I get to the airport around 40mins before my flight...and theres a rule that u have to be there 45mins before with your luggage....so i get there and they say that i can get on the plane but my bags cant--they can put my bags on the next flight out to Pitt. It was bullshit...but I was not going to do that...so I ended up leaving an hour later (with my luggage) and finally made it to Pitt and now I'm back in morgantown.

It is good to be back...its kind of weird though. It has been 27 days!! I felt so strange coming back into my dorm. I just can't believe its been that long...i still can't believe it lol. I am getting back into "mode" but I can't do much. I went to corner cafe today...just to get out because it is sooooooo nice out and I wanted to see how much I can walk. It wasn't that bad but, I just need to take it slow. I am not returning to classes until Monday...I wanted to get my act together and finish up some work. Tomorrow I have a meeting with my Sociology teacher...he wants to discuss everything...and I have a test on wed. that he doesn't want me to miss so I am not further behind...def. dont want to be further behind! Then I might be doing this workshop I need to do for academic probation 2mro--im not sure if im doin it 2mro. Then I have to go pick up rory at 530 at the airport. Kind of a busy day 2mro...that is if I do that workshop or not...its 2hrs--so i dont know lol. All my other professors are pretty much just going to talk to me after class. I also have to finish my english essay and take a psych quiz on tuesday! ahhhh!! I got a lot to do! Thats why I feel bad rory is coming in this weekend...I have so much to do and I can't even go out!! Oh well...i warned him lol

Btw...my fish are so alive---im still freakin out about that...how can u live with out food for 11 days!? haha...i guess over feeding them that one time (maybe two times lol)...wasnt that bad haha...OH--and last nite on idol---katharine mcphee was in the bottom 3!?? what is up with that??...I was like umm..NO haha....i feel like it was fixed and they wanted to get pple freakin out lol....how cud she be in the bottom 3 and bucky not be!? SERIOUSLY?? wtf america!! haha....i hate bucky!! lol

I get tired so easily--thats one thing that I really don't like. Yesterday when I was unpackin...i was just unpackin...putin clothes on hangers and in drawers just going back and forth to the closet...got me tired. Its kind of annoying...and my spleen has been acting up lately...I need to be careful...the doc. said its still 3 times larger then it shud be...but it is gettin smaller...its just going to take time. I just need to see what my limits are and how much I can do. I need to take it easy. It sucks but I know this is better for me that I can't do too much because I will get my work done. I just can't wait to catch up already! I have so much...argg! Thank g-d for spring break...or I would have been screwed. When I went to the doctor the 1st time...like before the not eating part happened lol...I weighed myself...and then this last visit...I weighed myself and I know I gained some weight back since I had dropped a lot of weight...so wutever the scale said I def. lost more then that...so i went on it and i lost 10 pounds...but the doc. said he thinks it was from 15-20 pounds!! I really looked sick...it was bad. Now I look rele skinny and everyone here is telling me to eat ahha but they should have seen me 2 weeks ago...it was really bad...and I am eating!! haha.

Well I am going to start on my work...and then meeting kaleen and alyssa for dinner at the mountainlair...they just opened up burger king--and it goes towards your meal plan...so I'm pumped! haha

later guys
- Justin

good times

photobooth....

2006-03-26T01:06:00.000-05:00

Just thought I'd put up random photos thats I was looking at...cuz I can haha

Alyssa, Kaleen and Me at Z

The day at the beach when the sky was rele like that!!

I love this pic...jillian is about to laugh and aprils confused lol

HAHA...i guess the shot didnt taste so good lol

The greatest pic EVER...me and arielle...shes gonna bite my leg off haha

me and matthew at fuel

Me and Sarna at Fall Fest

Me and the 2 hottest girls in the world

me drunk on new yrs...with ms. hilary duff in my living room

me on the swings at great adventure

I love this pic...I tired to get all 3 of us and I just got me haha

me,lyss, and beth...shower time in bahamas

yeah thats it...hope u enjoyed lol

im off to bed...gnite

- Justin

gt

so take these words and sing out loud...

2006-03-24T00:29:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
The Goo Goo Dolls
- Better Days

I really need to go to sleep but I wanted to update real quick...

1st off...I am so pissed off right now...WVU just lost to Texas in literally the last second...I can't believe it!
2nd off...about my last entry...either I am wrong or no one had anything to comment on lol..so I got a mixed feeling...no comment mean--got nothing to say or...no comment means---Justin you are wrong but I dont want to tell you that haha...I'll just let it be lol
3rd off...I am very tired and I got no sleep last night and went to sleep at 3am---woke up at 8am and cudnt go bak to sleep...I am just so beat but I cant go to sleep....its so weird---I really thought I would fall asleep sometime during the day...but i didnt.

I am so weak--its really bad...I got really skinny too...like too skinny. You know how Hilary Duff got really skinny recently and like you see her teeth are really big and stuff...I look like that...like I think I look weird haha. I don't know...its not that weird looking but you can tell my face is a lot thinner and I don't like it. Its strange looking. I am eating good too...and when I say good I mean like I am eating everything! I had wendys for dinner...I like ordered everything on the 99 cent menu...im trying to gain some weight and it aint working haha.

I was in a bad mood before...(btw...I really think this tired and being weak thing puts me so down and I just get into these "depressing" moods...i hate it and I cant help it...I just feel so down and blahh)...anyways...so I wasnt in a good mood and I was sitting in my room wit my ipod --I was just looking at all the pics I uploaded on them and it made me realize how much fun I had in my life...like hardcore good times...I am going to take a trip down memory lane...based on the pics I was looking at...

- Remember that time I tried to do reenact the scene from risky buisness and I killed my foot and we put ice pops on it for ice haha
- Random Summer Black and White Pics on the Beach at night...with ice cream haha
- Mini-Golf!!!...thats all I have to say
- It is ALWAYS better in the Bahamas----> i was lookin at all those pics...and I would do anything to relive that week....so much fun!!
- WVU---> there are a million pics....from 3 drinkin games at the same time to halloween (thurs-mon...non stop party) to shots to beer to Z....morgantown is heaven
- Jingleball...going to the city---the train etc...I miss that
- Going to the Lifehouse concert then going on Dare Devil Dive with beth haha
- Random split screen images....all those pics are hilarious
- All the pics of me and david trying to keep a serious face...love those pics!
- From my b-day scavenger hunt to surprising jillain to yellowcard to the beach to morgantown....I have had the time of my life...

they do say a picture is worth a thousand words...

well I got over a thousand pics...so you can imagine how much I could say

haha...well I'm off to bed

good night
- Justin

good to the times

"let's rearrange, I wish you were a stranger I could disengage, just say that we agree and then never change..."

2006-03-22T15:53:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
The Fray
- Over My Head (Cable Car)

Hey guys...

So I went out to lunch with my parents today...it was good to get out of the house but after we went to the supermarket and best buy...I got so tired from walking...I couldn't believe how shitty I felt...it like really knocked me out...I just feel so weak---its so weird. I'm still kind of worried about going back and stuff...I have a week to get myself together. Its just annoying because I am not going to be fully better for about a month from now. I just got to hang in there. It is going to take time.

I have been thinking a lot lately about stuff...just random stuff like...What if I went to Arizona over WVU?...weird stuff like that. It's so weird because my life would be so different. I really don't know what my life would be like if I went there over WVU. Its just so strange because I think about it and Arizona was like everything I wanted in a school--it was the closest thing to UCF and I didn't go. I remember that was like the hardest decision to make. I was going crazy lol. I'm so happy I ended up here but it is just weird thinking about it because I went to a school that was pretty much the opposite of what I was looking for. Its just interesting. lol Anyways...I've also been thinking about stuff like...sometimes I feel like I need to change certain things about what I do with my life....such as...I think I need to focus on my school work more and not lay around my room on the computer just doing nothing and procrastinate so much. I guess it is really good that I am not able to go out and drink anymore because I can focus on my work and stuff. I really need to do well...especially now because I have to catch up.

I've been thinking a lot about this too...and I don't want all of you to jump down my throat and tell me that this is towards you...because it isn't toward one person...this is for a lot of people in my life and I don't want you to come to me and say I wrote it about you because it is more then just you....just listen to what I have to say.....so here it is....

I also have strong opinions on things and I get really frustrated when sometimes people disagree with me and I mean...I dont want to say I want people to change there views on things but I feel like some people are very closed minded and they dont see things the way I see it and I just feel that some people need to open up there mind and realize---things would be a lot more normal if they just saw things differently. I know I can't change peoples views because I want them to but I feel people around me need to change there attitudes toward things because sometimes we each live in our own bubble and dont realize what is out there and that there is more to life then just urself. I know I might sound stupid saying I think people should change but the situations I am thinking about...it makes sense...some people are very childish when it comes to certain things...and they need to step up...once your in college...its real life...no more stupid drama...its real life drama---well that depends on who it is...cuz a lot of people bring that high school shit with them...OK--we all do but...once you get to a point in your life where you finally realize that life isnt a competition, life isnt about impressing others or making yourself feel better about yourself...its about living your life and being able to live it in a sense of reality. You can have fun and be "immature" or "childish" at times...but there is a point that comes across where you need to be "mature" and be able to live your life and get a reality check....not everyone understands what it is like because we all live a different life.

I feel like some people do things that hurt themselves and they dont even realize. Some people think they should act or look a certain way in order for society or even your own friends to accept you. I hate that. I also think these people like the attention. I hate that. I just wish everyone could be true to themseleves....well you all know me...I dont really hate people...I do dislike people but...I only hate 2 things about people...they are people who lie and people who are immature. And I am not saying I havent lied ever in my life and I'm not saying I have never been immature. But there is a point where you know what is right and what is wrong. Lying is just a part of immaturity...thats why I hate it so much. I guess what I am saying is...I just wish people could see things in a different light...maybe become a stronger indivdual by experiencing this. I guess its just that I see it this way and it bothers me that people in my life are acting this way. I just want them to experience what I have experienced and be able to be a stronger and a more understanding person. It sucks that I want people in my life to change but the truth is...I am changing and I want them to be more open minded and change for the better. Change is hard but it is very good. I think sometimes you need to change in order to experience and see things in a different way. It makes sense to me but I don't know if it does to any of you.

I guess sometimes you just wish everyone could be a certain way and sometimes you hate to see them struggle. It happens and its life...I guess some of us get there before others and we just want them to experience what you have experienced and be able to live a healthier life.

I hope someone got something out of this...or maybe I'm wrong...and I should change?!? I don't know...what do you think? (leave some comments..because you can now lol)

Anyways...check out the band The Fray---they are really good!!

I'm going out for Elissa's Bday dinner 2nite...I get to see some people :) lol

later guys
- Justin

gt...happy 21st bday ryan!!

p.s. I miss everyone!!!

give into the rush now...

2006-03-21T11:31:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Aly & AJ
- Rush

I so just wrote a whole entry...and I don't know what happened...and it was a good entry too!! I'll try to rewrite it...arggg

I went to the doctor today and everything went well. My throat is clear. My liver enzymes are still high, but that is going to take awhile for it to be back to normal. The doctor said its going to take about a month for my body to be back to completly normal. So the big question was...can I go back to school!??!?!....so he said that I am ready to go back...which is good...I'm just not allowed to do any physical activity or sports and I definitly cannot drink. The problem is that, I am very worried when I go back to school because we all know that WVU is known for its hills and 82 steps of the LSB. I am just worried going back and forth to class walking and stuff because I get so weak just walking down the stairs in my house. It's a trip to begin with to get up to my dorm, how am I going to do the 82 steps!? Well this is what I am going to do...

I set up an appointment with the doctor for next tuesday...he is going to check my liver and take some blood work and write me a perscription before I go back. In the meantime, I can go out and stuff, I just have to take it very easy. I am going to rest and try to gain my strength back..so when I get back I should be alright. I am just worried about the whole walking thing...I can't even lift anything and stuff like that...so when I get back I really have to take it easy and not push myself. I really want to make sure I am alright before I go back because I don't want to relapse and be back home again...that would suck. I emailed my professors and all of them were pretty understanding about my whole situation and we can work something out...which is good. I just have A LOT of work to make up...and I just hope I am able to catch up because I really don't want to have to spend the summer in WV to make up this semester. I guess there is no point for me to worry about it right now...just take one thing at a time. I just hope everything works out alright.

So on another note...I have had A LOT of free time and I downloaded 2 episodes of Friends on ARES (its like kazzaa)...and I downloaded this program that converts videos onto your ipod...so now I have 2 episodes of Friends and 5 music videos...its soo cool!! I love it...it is my new obsession haha

Thats it for now I guess...I'll update more soon

later
- Justin

g to the t

P.S. Now ANYONE can comment on my blog...I didn't know that was an option...I thought you had to be a member but it turns out that is not true ahha....soo I'm looking foward to getting comments from you guys :) lol

How much longer???

2006-03-20T23:40:00.000-05:00

Argg....I really can't believe how long I have been home for...It just really is starting to hit me...like WOW...i came home for a random weekend...thinking I would only be home for 3 days...head back to school and then go off to denver the weekend after...but NO...I stayed home in bed--fighting mono---and missed my spring break...and should be in WV right now...but NO I am still home...and I don't know how long I am going to be here. Its pretty shitty...

Well I really don't have much to look foward to...because when I get back (when ever that is..)..I have a load of work to make up...and I can't do much. I have to take it easy still...which means--I think Justin is done partying--for majority of the rest of the semester (we dont even have that much time left anyway)...I am just going to have to lay low and not go out and stuff...it sucks. I feel really bad because...well lets hope I am there that weekend...but rory is coming in and I can't really show him around and take him out like I want to...hopefully I can do SOMETHING...we will see.

A lot of you are probably like...you never heard anyone have this much problems because of mono...well if you didn't read my last entry...I have a really bad case of it...bad enough that the doc. said I had the 2nd worst case he has ever seen. My blood work came back today and he said I am doing well but my liver "vitals" (idk wut they r called) but its still high....so that sucks...I have an early appointment 2mro morning...which will hopefully give me a heads up on how much longer this is going to be...I am praying that I only have one more week here...I am sooo tired of laying in bed...but I am weak and it sucks but thats all I can do.

I know I complain and ramble on and shit but...I have nothing else to do...I mean I am not complaining as bad as it seems...I'm just bored and tired of this...and I guess I just wish there was something I can do just to get over all of this...but miracles don't happen over night...

Speaking of miracles....so I left my fish in my room and all over spring break...without food...so Brian calls me and we were talking and he was back in the room and he goes..." do u want me to feed ur fish" and i was like...they are probably dead and he goes..."no they are alive...kicking and everything" haha...I was shocked!! I couldn't believe it! Guess some miracles do happen haha

I should head to bed...I'll keep you updated 2mro on the doc.

good night
- Justin

g to the t...we are getting there

Lost at Sea...

2006-03-19T14:44:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Paris Hilton
- Screwed

Day 16: I don't think the crew is going to make it

...haha!!!! I cannot believe its been that long already. Spring Break ends today and I am STILL home and I don't know when I am going to be back in Dub V. I have a doctor appointment on tuesday, so hopefully he gives me a heads up when I can go back. I am seriously going out of my mind. I am so sick of watching television and every movie EVER! I must have watched 50 first dates, mean girls, cinderella story, can't hardly wait, the goonies, raise your voice, ferris bullers day off and monster in law.....atleast 3 times each because they are on EVERYDAY haha. I have been watching family feud religiously---> u know its bad when you already have a family you root for to win every day....they actually lost last week to the Yoo family haha. OMG this is sad! I watch wheel of fortune everyday too. I have my own routine I think already. If I am not watchin a movie, I'm either watching mtv shows, friends,will and grace, boy meets world, disney channel once in awhile and the nick at nite line up! Most likely I am playing rollercoaster tycoon at the same time and updating my ipod in between! AHHH....this is soooooo much! I am so bored of all of this! I can't wait to just get up and go out somewhere.

Even when I get back, I have to take it easy because I don't want to hurt my spleen. The doctor said I had the 2nd worst case of mono he has ever seen in his years of practice...and the 1st case he had to admit to the hospital!...I was lucky enough not to be admitted lol. But I am getting better and the doc. said I am moving in the right direction. It is also because I waited a long time to see the doctor, and it got worst because I wasn't aware I had it. But I guess it is better that I got it during spring break and I only missed one week so far of school..going to make it 2 weeks now but I hope my professors are easy on me....because I have no idea what the hell I am going to do when I get back. It is going to be rough to get back into mode and make up a shit load of work.

So I am feeling better but I am still weak and stuff.... I am not contagious anymore...I can walk downstairs and stuff but I have to just be careful with my spleen...I want to go out...but I think maybe in a few days I can.... I have to talk to the doctor. Hopefully, I can go out for elissa's birthday dinner on wed. But we'll see...

I am gonna go take a shower and shave my little jewish beard ...haha j/k!!

later
- Justin

p.s. yes that is the paris hilton...the song is rele good! haha

g to the t....we are getting there

Cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it around

2006-03-16T22:26:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Daniel Powter
- Bad Day

I just have to say I am in love with this song...and even though its called Bad Day...its actually a happy song...I love it...you have to check it out if you never heard of it.

I haven't been getting the greatest amount of sleep...I'm usually up every hour because I am hot or dehydrated or can't breathe lol...I woke up this morning---pretty cranky and just in a bad mood for some reason...I was actually feeling better and you would think my mood would be too. I don't know I guess a few days ago I was so sick that I just didn't care or have any emotion because I felt so shitty. Now that my throat is actually feeling better, my cold is on and off and I am eating normal food....those are all good but I am still weak and tired. I've been in bed forever! The only time I ever get up is to go to the bathroom/shower/brush teeth/ and get my laptop thats literally a foot a away from my bed or when I go to the doctor. My parents have been great to me and I feel so bad because they were suppose to go to Puerto Rico and they cancelled there trip because of me. Now my aunts,uncles and grandparents aren't going anymore because my parents aren't going. I felt so bad. Not only are my parents waiting on me back and forth coming upstairs every 20 mins, they went out to best buy and got me a new ipod!! I knew they were going to best buy to get a new tv for my bros room (btw i infected my bros room cuz his bed is 10 times more comfortable then mine haha so his room is now mine lol)...so they hooked up the tv in "my room" and my mom went to get the remote for the tv and in the bag was an IPOD!!...I freaked out I was like ...u guys are crazy!! I was so shocked....its the 60gb black video ipod! ahhh! I was so Happy!! Then my dad leaves and comes back with a gift from my aunts/uncles/grandparents (all them that were suppose to go to Puerto Rico with my rents) ....they got me new ipod speakers!! They are all CRAZY! I dont get it haha. I'm sick with mono, they don't go away to puerto rico and I get an new ipod and new speakers!?? Please tell me how that makes sense!?...All I have to say is my family rocks! haha

So that got me in a better mood for sure. I talked to elissa yesterday from Mexico and april called me today so I can wish her a happy birthday (HAPPY BDAY APES!)...they are having fun....and they are getting along as best as possible which is good...of course they had some drama haha...i would have bet money on that lol.

So I am definitley not coming back on sunday to school...I have a doc. appointment on tuesday, and hopefully he'll let me know when I can go back. It sucks because tomorrow morning I have a doc. appointment at 8am! to get a blood work up...not looking foward to that.

Real Quick Random Thoughts

- I wish I was in Denver right now
- I wish I was able to see my friends since I have been home for 2 weeks now
- I wish I was able to go out and do stuff
- I wish I wasn't in bed my entire spring break
- I wish I could go back to WV on Sunday
- I hope I am back for the weekend rory comes (not looking like I am going to be there the weekend elissa comes...sorry elis) and david if u were planning on coming that weekend 2 (i'm sorry)
- I wish my disease didn't have fuck so many people over
- Let's see who have I fucked over....Number One--for starters...Matt--I am so sorry..wish I could be out there in denver with you, your dad and everyone right now
Number 2- My parents/relatives...not going to Puerto Rico because of me--I feel so bad!
Number 3- Chester/Martin--the fish...are def. Resting In Peace right now :-/ So sorry!!
Number 4- Elissa--I'm sorry I don't think I am going to be there the weekend you come..and I really feel bad because I haven't seen you in forever...and david--sorry too because u would probably would have came.
Number 5- I am SOOO sorry if I gave mono to anyone...that is def. a big one...I am hoping no one really got it but, if you do start to feel shitty...go to the doc. I didn't even know I had it haha.

OK well...thats that and I have to wake up early tomorrow and I probably won't even get enough sleep anyway...lovely!!

gonna go watch family guy movie and then get some sleep.

good night
- Justin

some good times lol

Sitting here counting the hours...

2006-03-13T23:48:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Avion
- Seven Days Without You

Ok so this sucks...

I am feeling a little better...but doesn't even matter because even if something doesn't bother me anymore...something else is---argg

So I've been in bed for over a week and all I want is....

- GOOD FOOD
- Jerze Freeze...Vanila Milkshake with rainbow sprinkles
- Ritas...Gelati
- Chilis...chips and salsa(heat up the salsa)..my usual cajun chicken sandwich lol
- Ralphs...Palm Tree Ralphie--u know those froze fruit bars--well it taste actually like a melted coconut froze fruit...ahh so good
-FRENCH FRIES---my mom brought home wendys fries for me but it hurt my stomach :(
- Starbucks and Dunkin....i had DD iced coffee a few days ago..and my mom brought me starbucks iced coffee today but i didnt drink it
- I miss Ben and Jerrys Ice Cream
- PIZZA
- Bagels
- OMG---u kno wut i miss sooooo much Symphony---that was my favorite place EVER...too bad it closed...i ate there for free everytime i worked there...omg i miss it so much---i wud do anything to get that bak...best food EVER!!

I need to go to sleep...but I'll try to update more about me complaining haha

later
- Justin

good times soon...hopefully

Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all...

2006-03-09T17:45:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Teddy Geiger
- For You I Will (Confidence)

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
(if only i could actually scream that out loud)

I've been in a lot of pain today, my throat is killing me. I can hardly talk...it sucks!

I have nothing else to do so I figured I might as well update some random thoughts...

- If I wasn't sick with mono, I would be leaving for Denver in 24 hrs!! :(
- My parents are going to puerto rico---without me!!
- Ryan is on his way to Barcelona and Amsterdam!!
- Elissa and April are going to Mexico!!
- David went to L.A. last week!!
- I am pretty much just jealous of all of this haha
- I am home and can't even enjoy myself...no jerze freeze, cheesecake, nyc etc...
- Everyone is going to be home for spring break this weekend--I can't even see them!
- I'm all stuffed up---I can't even breathe and it sounds funny when I talk lol--and it hurts cuz of my throat....once again---it sucks!
- I must have changed my Myspace background--a million times!
- Beauty and the Geek season finale is on 2nite!
- Brandon is coming home 2mro....he probably won't even be around the house cuz of me lol
- I'm in pain
- All I do is complain (yes that rhymes)
- Did I mentioned this sucks...cuz it does
- i'll be lonely for awhile...so send me some love---ill need it

ok well...until 2mro--probably...

- Justin

noway this is a good time :-/

Home for awhile...

2006-03-08T12:22:00.000-05:00

So I came home over the weekend because I wasn't going to be home over spring break which means I wouldn't be home until May. Well I've been sick for awhile and I didn't know what was wrong with me?? I went to the doctor, got a blood work up--they thought it was the flu--they were wrong....it was mono!
:( this sucks so much. 1st off, I am not even going back to WVU until I'm better, I can't go to Denver over spring break, I am stuck in bed-- feeling the worst you can possible feel. It blows.

I am so mad...all I want to do is feel better...I already missed so much work this week...I hope I am better by the time break is over---so I don't lose this semester...this semester is really important! Arrgg---this is so not cool. Let's hope for a miracle.

So let's say I am not better by the time break is over...
1. I will be missing A LOT of school (not good)
2. I won't see Elissa when she comes to visit the school (which probably means David isn't going to come)
3. The following weekend...Rory is suppose to visit (he might not be able if I am not better)

So this seriously SUCKS!

I miss everyone back at school :(

The doctor put me on a low dose of steorids--to help get the huge golf ball thats in my throat to shrink and for me to get some energy back. I can feel the difference but i am still not the same. I just feel so BLAHH.... literally. It's going to take awhile for me to be back to myself again..

I'll update more now that I have nothing to do...but I probably have nothing to talk about...I'll think of random things haha

Well good burger is on...and I haven't watched this in soooo long...so I am going to relax and not complain for 2 hrs lol

Love and Miss Everyone...cuz even though I'm home...I'm probably not gonna see you guys :(

later
- Justin

P.S. IM and let me know about the new layout...and leave some love haha

not so good times :-/

"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a g-d damn door?"

2006-02-27T14:57:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
I Write Sins Not Tragedies
by Panic! at the Disco

I feel sick :(

I havent been well for awhile, it sucks! Buddy the Fish passed away...that sucked! I got a new fish though lol, his name is chester, hes a goldfidh and is kind of chubby so he reminds me of chester from ladybugs haha. yea I would haha...Problem is--martin scares chester hardcore its kind of funny and I so just over fed them--which is so not good--my luck they will be dead soon :( *knock on wood*....and im not gettin anymore fish!! haha

Someone please tell me what is up with this weather!?!?...its snowing---it was like so nice last week--this blows...thats probably why I'm sick :-/

So I am bored cuz--I can't go back to sleep...my throat hurts and I don't have anymore classes 2day cuz I was exempted from my Sociology Quiz...so I'm gonna do my lovely random thoughts haha

- My throat hurts ---but u knew that
- I m listening to Panic! at the Disco and im still obsessed
- I think fat fish are funny...as do i think fat people are too haha (like in Lilo and Stich--she takes pics of fat people...haha I love it)
- My mom is in Florida--I'm jealous
- I want the beach
- I want cheesecake factory
- I want Jerzee Freeze
- I want Wawa
- I want CHILIS!!!
- I want Turning Point
- I want to go home and eat good food---i think thats where I am going with that
- They are opening an OLIVE GARDEN here! :) I'm so pumped!
- I was sober this weekend--for once
- I've probably watched every episode of friends this semester--since I brought the series with me to school haha
- Just for the record...martin is seriously gong insane (is that wut they do b4 they??...im not gonna say it lol but u know)
- How I Met Your Mother is new 2nite! :)
- I have so much freakin laundry to do...you have no idea!
- I have so many TiVoed shows---that I haven't even tried to watch yet
- I still haven't seen High School Musical yet haha
- I really like that song by Teddy Geigher "For you I will (confidence)" - he's playing in Denver the week I am there...I don't know if we are gonna see him tho...thats cool tho
- Ronnie Day is coming out with an album thats gonna b sold in stores!
- Bandcamp is going on tour---and I am so going to miss them..they are going to be In pittsburgh and red bank when I am away on spring break!!! Oh well...but there album comes out soon 2!!! I'm looking foward to that!
- I might just freak out right now...I just found out that Fall Out Boy, Panic! at the Disco, All American Rejects, Taking Back Sunday, Motion City Soundtrack, The Spill Canvas, Relient K and Hawthorne Heights!! are playing May 6th and 7th at the Meadowlands...I so want to go!!!!
- I just decided...music is my life!
- American Idol is getting good :) Katherine McPhee is my favorite!
- Real World Key West starts 2mro night!
- Sheetz (just like wawa) sells Jones Soda! haha
- I have 2 psych quizes to take...a soc. quiz on wed...a History essay and exam next week
- Yeah thats about it...I think I am done haha

later
- Justin

good times

"I Write Sins Not Tragedies"
-Panic! at the Disco

Oh, well imagine
As I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor
And I can't help but to hear
No, I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words

"What a beautiful wedding
What a beautiful wedding," says a bridesmaid to a waiter
"And, yes, but what a shame
What a shame the poor groom's bride is a whore."

I chime in with a
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality
I chime in
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of

Oh, well in fact
Well I'll look at it this way
I mean, technically, our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast
So pour the champagne

Oh, well in fact
Well I'll look at it this way
I mean, technically, our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast
So pour the champagne, pour the champagne

I chime in with a
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality
I chime in
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationallity

Again

I chime in
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality
I chime in
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality

Again

Good Grades, Great Movies, Crazy Fish and No Drama....

2006-02-22T01:44:00.000-05:00

Everything seems to be going good...which is awesome!

I got a B on my History and Sociology tests...which I stressed over so much and did well :)
I watched American History X in Soc. and its up there with greatests movies of all time
I got two goldfish, one is red, white and blue, named Buddy (in honor of Buddy the elf) and the other is kind of multi-colored, named Martin (the name just came to me but realized its like Martin the fish from full house when michelle tried to give martin a bubble bath haha)...anyways...i got a pretty cool tank for them...Martin freaks out all the time and Buddy is always confused and could be buliemic...no seriously he eats his food and spits it out haha...he did eat before so i think hes doing better haha...ok I just rambled on about my fish lol anyways...the night I got buddy..i was in wallmart and it was 12 am and they were putting out Rent...so I got it b4 everyone else haha

I might be coming home next weekend...I realized I'm not going to be home until may...and it would be nice to come home for a little...so we'll see about that...I'm trying to convince my friends to have a road trip and take them to nyc...but i don't think its going to happen...i'll probably fly home...its just really expensive just for a weekend...but i don't know, i'll see.

Spring Break is in 15 days!--I'm really excited to go out to Denver, it should be a lot of fun. Elissa is coming to WVU to visit the weekend after spring break...I don't know if David is coming that weekend or not and also Jillian isn't sure when shes coming either!? But I really wanna see them! and April---I might go to IU sometime in April lol (visiting april in april hah)--which would be cool! And..Beth--I'll see you if I come home (which is looking good) :)

Oh yeah...on Valentine's Day...my mom sent me a package filled with everything!! I got homemade cookies delivered to my dorm room--they were soo good...she then send me this package filled with candy and chocolate, every TIVOed show i needed lol, suduko puzzles, a don't stress over college book haha, a stuffed animal and more...shes crazy! haha...Valentines day was fun....a bunch of us went to Texas Roadhouse..we didn't get drunk..none of us were in the mood...so we just rented Elizabethtown...it was actually a good movie..i liked it.

I really have nothing else to say...no drama, no worries, no problems...nothings wrong...so i guess I have nothing to complain about haha--I know you are all probably dissappointed that nothing exciting is going on...(we'll just not focus the movie so much on this part) haha...

later
- Justin

good times :)

the mind wanders...

2006-02-13T02:03:00.001-05:00

Well...

Not too much has happened this past week or so...I'll do my random thoughts because I can't think of anything to talk about in particular and its more fun this way lol...

- I finally got my haircut
- I am officially completly obsessed with Grey's Anatomy
- I am in love with Margret Cho!!
- My camera broke...and I don't know why?!!!??
- I got an aparment for next year with Chris and Philip!!
- V-day--a bunch of us are going out to dinner and getting drunk
- I went to a house party this weekend and I so missed playing beer pong and flip cup
- I am running low on cash and my dad is going to kill me when he sees my credit card bill lol
- I had a shot of every flavored puckers lol
- I want warm weather
- Jillian, David and Elissa all might be coming to visit sometime!!
- I just found out Arielle is coming this weekend :)
- I think I found out what is wrong with my camera...something to do with the memory card...this is a job for the geek squad at best buy haha
- I really want to see Final Destination 3, When a Stranger Calls and Date Movie
- I am not going to lie, I miss my friends and family...I feel like I have no time to talk to anyone..and I am not going to see a lot of you until may!!...I am going to try to come home one weekend--to see some of u
- I really want to finish "The Kite Runner"--the book i started to read in the summer haha...i seriously need to finish it
- I still never saw High School Musical yet lol
- I had Indian food for the 1st time and it was sooo good
- I think I might be getting sick....stupid weather!
- I really want to be rich and famous--I just want to live in Cali, make it big, live on the beach and make a movie about my life, open up me and april's bar "the Sand Bar" and our coffee shop "the Morning After", make club temptation happen,record an album, sell millions of records, sold out concerts, make summer hit blockbusters, make all my friends A-list celebrities, and retire b4 im 30...life would be complete haha
ANYWAYS...
I am done and I am really tired (I really hope im not getting sick...my throat hurts) :(

night
- Justin

good times :)

my random thoughts...

2006-02-03T14:38:00.001-05:00

Hey...

Well I have been very busy this week. I feel like I haven't had time to talk to anyone. I was constantly on the go. From classes to hw to going out. I never have time to relax, it seems like it is going to be like that all semester. I finally have free time now, fridays I only have one class. On the weekend afternoons, I guess I should enjoy this relaxtion period. Of course I am not going to lol.

So what have I been up to? A little recap in a nutshell...

- I learned how to play Apples to Apples...greatest game EVER! We played that a lot this week, that was fun.
- I saw Brokeback Mountain, I thought it was really good.
- I'm working on the whole apartment thing-I need to figure that out.
- I'm getting a fake ID, finally!
- I watched Mean Girls, Troop Beverly Hills and Deuce Bigalow European Gigilo with the "entourage" this week LOL
- I just booked spring break, Me and Matt are going to Denver and Laguna! I'm excited for that!

- March 2, 2006 11:22pm is in one month!!! WEIRD!
- Rory's Birthday is today! Happy B-day Ror!
- I went to Krogers (supermarket) and spent $92 just on me haha
- I need a haircut---really bad, I haven't gotten one since Christmas..and if you know me, I usally need a haircut after 3 weeks haha...I am probably getting one today (but then again, I said that everyday since I realized I needed one) LOL
- I realized I have midterms next week, well sorta--->Hist 152 and Soc. 101
- I need a job
- I am not going to be home until may!?!?
- I want to come home some weekend
- I miss Cheesecake Factory and Jerzee Freeze
- I want a puppy
- I want my ringback tones to work
- I want warm weather
- I haven't watched Lost in forever and I need to get on top of 24...Amazing Race starts soon..im in trouble haha
- I can't wait to watch How I Met Your Mother and see what happens...its the best show since friends!
- I really want American Idol to just start already!!
- I found out Britney Spears is going to be on Will and Grace
- I found out that Stephanie from Full House had a meth problem haha I know not funny but it is...and despite the rumors I heard she was a lesbian (shes not, she got married but is getting a divorce---hmm then maybe she is haha)
- Hilary Duff looks like shes getting sick and upsets me lol
- I am obsessed with High School Musical and I still never seen it yet
- I am obsessed with The Spill Canvas and Panic! at the Disco
- I did my Laundry finally!
- I think I want to see every movie that comes out in Feb.-- Curious George, When a Stranger Calls, Final Destination 3, Firewall, Failure to Launch and more...and I am pretty sure most of them come out on the same day lol
- I want to move to California...like now
- My favorite drink got even better..Long Island is now--Strong Island (includes 151) haha I am an animal!
- IT IS ALWAYS BETTER IN THE BAHAMAS!...I was thinking about bahamas all day and I don't know why, but I miss it so much!
- OK I just realized I am just rambling on

Oh well..Anyways...I think I am done LOL

got to go wake up mr. link because he fully just passed out and we need to go to the mall

later
- Justin

good to the times :)

we're breaking free...

2006-01-27T12:50:00.000-05:00

WOW....last night was insane but so much fun!

The night started out so shitty, we didn't even think we were going to get drunk. But motown never fails...we had a great time. The enitre night out was so crazy. Even though I ended the night hugging the toliet...it was still def. a good time haha!

Ok so I am such a dork but, I don't really care. Well you know me and disney channel orignial movies..plus itunes...I had to!!!---I so bought the HighSchool Musical soundtrack haha. It is really good too I promise you haha. I feel like this is so something either Jillian would so get or Elissa would buy off of itunes lol. It really is good though.

Well Mr. Justin Dickstein is a very happy person :)

I love it how things work out and how the pieces really do fall into place. It amazes me how much something can just make everything so right...I like how sometimes when you really stick to your gut, good things happen. It seems like life makes a whole lot more sense now and I am so happy that I have this state of mind because seriously...if you want something--just stick your mind to it and go with it, don't give up on something you know you truly want or truly need. This goes for anything...from a dream to a job to a person....anything you truly want in life...go for it, you have nothing to lose if you just try for something you know is worth trying for.

If I can do it...so can you. :)

later
- justin

good times

H.S Musical
- Breaking Free

We’re soarin’, flyin’
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach

If we’re trying
So we’re breaking free

You know the world can see us
In a way that’s different than who we are

Creating space between us
‘Til we’re separate hearts

But your faith it gives me strength
Strength to believe

We’re breakin’ free

We’re soarin’
Flyin’
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach
If we’re trying
Yeah, we’re breaking free
Oh, we’re breakin’ free
Ohhhh
Can you feel it building
Like a wave the ocean just can’t control

Connected by a feeling
Ohhh, in our very souls
Rising ‘til it lifts us up
So every one can see

We’re breakin’ free
We’re soarin’
Flyin’
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach

If we’re trying
Yeah we’re breaking free
Ohhhh runnin’
Climbin’
To get to that place
To be all that we can be

Now’s the time

So we’re breaking free
We’re breaking free
Ohhh , yeah

More than hope
More than faith
This is true
This is fate
And together

We see it comin’

More than you
More than me

Not a want, but a need

Both of us breakin’ free

Soarin’
Flyin’

There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach
If we’re trying
Yeah we’re breaking free

Breaking free
Were runnin’
Ohhhh, climbin’

To get to the place
To be all that we can be
Now’s the time
Now’s the time
So we’re breaking free
Ohhh, we’re breaking free
Ohhhh

You know the world can see us
In a way that’s different than who we are

It was our time to shine and nobody could hold us down...

2006-01-26T04:10:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to:
Carrie Underwood
- Whenever You Remember

I felt like updating at 4:12 am, when I have class at 11:30 lol...don't worry Jillian (I am going to class)

I realized all my updates have been just be venting and giving advice on life. Well I haven't gotten a chance to actually tell you whats going on in my life. Well, I have experienced some interesting things lately and have been doing things I normally would not be doing.

The things I normally would not be doing are...
Ok before I say it...I want to apologize for those who I have yelled at a million times for doing this...I want to apologize for being a hyprocrite haha and (beth) don't hit me...haha its not like you can but well....I went tanning! hahahaha.... SHOCKER!! *gasp* ....i wont ever give u shit for doing it and YES I WENT INTO THE CANCER BOX and I liked it haha. I figured I did it once...no turning back lol...I know werid right? lol yeah well as Kaleen says, " You are gonna die, so you might as well die tan" haha...love it!

I have been going out a lot over the weekends and discovering new places and people...its a lot of fun. I really love it here. I am also getting back into mode here. Doing my work and stuff. It is all good. I am actually happy :) I am realizing a lot about my life, what to hold on to and what to let go. I am realizing a lot about where I should be right now and how I should be living my life. I am very pleased where I am at right now. I am very happy because I know that good things are to come for me. That makes me very happy.

So it snowed today...I really hate the cold but the snow today wasn't like a blizzard snow, it was the snow that was just right...so it was cool. I liked it. Not enough snow for a snowball fight though...its all good though (I am waiting for that...because then me and kaleen can have another drunken snowball fight and hopefully it snows when I am home someday so me and jill can have a hardcore snowball fight 2!!)

So, I have no idea where I am living next year!! I really hope kaleen and alyssa are staying here...if they leave me I don't know what I will do!! We are going to look for apartments this weekend just incase. I really hope they stay...I'm gonna miss them so much if they leave :(
We will see though...

Spring Break....I am not sure what I am doing yet? I might not be home now...I actually have 4 places I might end up yet...Cali,FL,CO or Mexico?? Who Knows!? But I am going somewhere :) so thats really cool...I got to fig. that out.

Now I really should get some sleep...

Good Night
- Justin

good times :)

Carrie Underwood
- Whenever You Remember

When you look back on times we had
I hope you smile
And know that through the good and through the bad
I was on your side when nobody could hold us down
We claimed the brightest star
And we, we came so far
And no they won't forget

Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believe that we could touch the sky
Whenever you remember, I'll be there
Remember how we reached that dream together
Whenever you remember

When you think back on all we've done
I hope you're proud
When you look back and see how far we've come
It was our time to shine
And nobody could hold us down
They thought they'd see us fall
But we, we stood so tall
And no we won't forget

Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believe that we could touch the sky
Whenever you remember, I'll be there
Remember how we reached that dream together
Whenever you remember

Yeahhh, Ooohh

We claimed the brightest star
And we, we came so far
And know that we showed them all
And no they won't forget

Yeahhh

Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believe that we could touch the sky
Whenever you remember, I'll be there
Remember how we reached that dream together
Whenever you remember

Whenever you remember

Ooohh, whenever you remember

Love is the answer, at least for most of the questions in my heart...

2006-01-24T12:30:00.000-05:00

Life puts you in situations that are unexplainable. Sometimes it is to teach you a lesson, Sometimes it is to lead you in a different direction, Sometimes it can lead you to the wrong direction, Sometimes we need to experience certain things to understand. I think I have experienced a lot in my life already. You may say, "Justin, you are only 18 years old, you have so much more to experience." The truth is, I have experienced a lot more then most people would experience at my age. I have seen so much in my life these past few years. I started to see differently and I understand who I am and who others are. Not many people can say that. Not many people can say they know exactly what they want in life. Not many people know what it is like to have felt certain ways that I have felt. I have been in one big crazy world and I have seen so much. Not many people can understand what I have been through, throughout my life. It has been hard, easy, fun, sad, happy, etc...It is hard to understand because only I know what the feeling is like to have everything you want, just drop out of the sky.It is something I can't and will not forget. I have been through "hell" and back with..my friends, family, relationships, drama, school and life. I have been through a lot.

The only thing that gets me through the day is knowing I have the greatest friends, anyone can ask for. I have the best Mom in the world, who is always there for me. I have the best life anyone can ask for. I am so lucky to be who I am. I know how good I have it and we all don't get the chance to experience that. I am so blinded by how good I have it in life. But the truth is, every good comes with a bad. No one is perfect, nothing is perfect. Although, my life is the best it is ever going to get and I am so thankful for that. I know it will even get better as I grow older. But I know what I want in life and there is one thing missing. OK maybe a few things, but those are just dreams that I am after that one day may come true. But there is only one thing that I want in my life that will seriously just complete me and I would never ever ever ever complain ever again. And all I want in my life is that one thing that will make me get that feeling that you just know. That feeling that makes you melt. That feeling that makes me smile, makes me laugh, makes me safe, makes me...the person I am today. The thing that makes me realize that you can see something in someone that noone else can ever see in that person. That feeling you get when you just can't believe it is true because it is. That feeling you get when you take a bite of Ben and Jerry's ice cream. That feeling you get when you laugh so hard. That feeling you get when you walk around on the nicest day of the year. That feeling you get that words can't really describe it. That feeling you get and you just know....it makes you who you are.

It is never to late to try hard for something that is there. Never give up on your dreams, never give up on something you are certain it is worth it. Never forget a smile, Never forget a laugh. Never forget the one person who made you happy everytime they kissed you. Never forget to open your eyes and see what life is really all about. Take a breath and just breathe. What is on your mind? What do you feel? What do you want? Who do you want? Who was that person who was feeling the same thing at the same time as you? Did it feel right? What do you need? Are you who you want to be? This is your life...you can make it happen.

it is the little things that count...open your eyes...open them wide...look and see what truly matters in life...we all need to realize that we all have our eyes closed...we are all blinded....take a look around....it isn't just you....we all live a life....open your eyes and see what you really want.

And don't worry I promise.... you will get there

...I made it

- Justin

gt

Jack Johnson
- Better Together

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepiatone loving
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? and where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing its always better when we're together

MMM its always better when we're together
Yeah, look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments
Just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that theyll be gone
When the morning light sings
And brings new things
For tomorrow night you see
That theyll be gone too
Too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
Into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression
I was somewhere in between
With only two
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We'll Sit beneath the mango tree now

Its always better when we're together
Mmmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

MMmmmm MMMmmmm Mmmmmm
I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
And there is no song I could sing
And there is no, combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're Better together.

you gotta forgive and forget...

2006-01-21T19:05:00.000-05:00

Currently Listening to :
- Forgive
by: De La Reina

I am loving life right now. I learned that I need to loosen up and just have fun. I can't worry anymore...or atleast try not to as much. I learned a lot these past few days. I finally am relieved and can actually say I know good things are to come soon for me. I don't know exactly when or how but they will eventually. I strongly believe that. I need to just enjoy life and be able to experience new things. I can definitley say I have experienced a lot since I have came to college. I am getting a lot more comfortable in this place every day. I am starting to see that everything truly happens for a reason and we all live to learn from our mistakes. We all have simliar lives in one way or another.
I am starting to understand a lot more about who I am and who others are. I am letting go of my "uptight" views on things. I just need to go with the flow more often. I guess you can say I have a lot of sense in my head right now and I am very satisfied where I am at. I feel good. I feel that I am ready to make change and be able to find more things about me and this place that I can almost call home. I have good intentions and I think everything will work out for me, one day. We all hope that it happens now but sometimes its worth the wait. So I am ready to just let go of stresses and know that things will happen as time goes on. I am on my way to a new direction, it seems like I am getting back to reality and seeing that the truth is in my heart. It is never going to change, so the only thing I can do is live my life and know that good things happen as we learn and take it day by day.

later
- Justin

good times

laughing at life...

2006-01-20T11:38:00.000-05:00

Wow!! That is all I can say. I have so much that I feel and I feel I should be saying it but, the words won't come out. I am kind of surprised. I am very curious. About what? I have no idea. I just have this urge to just smile or be happy. I have this urge to just let everything brush by me and not care. I have this urge to just be myself and have fun. Just like dancing when no one is watching, living my life crazy, having fun, laughing hard, partying all night, sleeping all day, chilling with my friends, singing in the shower, looking at things differently, being confident, being normal, being weird, being one of a kind...Just living my life. It feels really good. I have realized that sometimes in life, certain things are not worth chasing after, the truth is...if they are willing to chase you back, no one would be chasing at all. So there is no point in wasting time and realizing who someone truly is.
So now I feel like a lot of people are going to say stuff to me, well they always do. But this time, I don't care! I am so over the drama, and I am so over the immature crap that has been going on in my life. I am ready to just have fun and laugh at life. Because my life is so fucking hilarious that I promise you one day it will be a movie. (rolling your eyes?) Well you ain't gonna be in it haha.....gotta love it!!

Justin is back and he is seriously ready...so once again...

bring it on :)

later
- Justin

good times

we all follow the same road...

2006-01-19T16:43:00.000-05:00

Sometimes I have no words for things. My head is usally somewhere else or everywhere else. I am just in a state of mind where I am not sure where to go about doing something. What I should or should be doing. Well I know what I should or shouldn't be doing, but do I want to? Well sometimes that is where I don't know which way to go. Our head says one thing when our heart tells us another thing. It is hard sometimes to just pick something and be ok with it. We all are never completley satisfied. That's human nature. That is just how life goes.
We all always have something to complain about. We all have something to worry about. We all always have a problem with something. No matter how happy we can be. Even when we are just chilling in our rooms, on the computer doing absoultely nothing, we still wonder about something that is on our mind and not know what to do. I am at this place now where I have no idea where to go about doing anything. I'm kind of stuck in this place and wonder what direction to go to. Should I follow the road everyone else is telling me to follow or follow the road I know I want to follow. Confused, you might say. But actually I have it pretty good. No matter which way I end up going, no matter which road I take. If it is by the influences of others or if its by the thoughts in my head, I am still going to end up where I am suppose to end up no matter what direction I take. One road might take me longer, one road might be a bumpy ride or a smooth set sail to where I am suppose to be. And to be honest I have no idea which road I am going to take, as I said I am pretty much stuck.
So I will just let it be and see what comes my way and figure out which road to take. But overall, I think the road we all take is the road that just brings up to where we are suppose to end up, so I don't even care anymore which road that will be. I'll get there eventually. Live my life one day at a time, and let it all just be. It is very easy this way and you learn a lot. As I always say, I am ready. So bring it on! haha
But, you know what will happen, I will start complaining and worry about something as soon as I stop typing. Actually, that's how it always goes. So this entry was pretty much pointless and you just read the whole thing and wasted a good amount of your time haha. But thats life!

You know its true, lets start to complain and worry, we all do it, we may stop for a moment but it still continues...

now go ahead and complain

- justin

good times

using my common sense...

2006-01-18T15:09:00.000-05:00

So I have been doing a lot of thinking...and that book can wait. It made me think a lot. I had a better outlook on things and I wrote a poem that related to it, I hope you like it.

“When You Reach the End”
- By J.D.

When you reach the end, the only thing you can do

Is sit and wait at a bench and think about what’s true

The million possibilities that come our way

The chances we take and the things we say

Why do we think too much when we know what we should be doing?

We know what is right and what we shouldn’t be pursuing

How many times have we told ourselves, NO

But don’t care and just go with the flow

Are we this group that talks about right and wrong

Are we the type of people who analyze every song

How come we sit here and ponder about our lives

Why we are here and how long we will survive

The thing is that we all just have our days

We want to vent about it and figure out a way

No matter how hard we try, it is still going to be just as hard

These are the events that leave us with those noticeable scars

How come we take these minutes and spend time talking about this

The life we hope for or the life we have missed

Why do we scream when we are mad?

Why do we cry when we are sad?

Why does our heart beat so fast when we get nervous?

Why do we get frustrated when we lose service?

Why do we get scared when the time has ended?

Why does the sky turn that color when the sun has blended?

We sit here at the end and the only thing we can do

Is sit and wait at a bench and think about what’s true

This is not the end of a conversation; it is actually just the beginning

You can even say you know it’s only the first inning

So take your time and talk about the world

Make pretend you never met that guy or girl

Just think about the facts and how it all came true

Think about your life and think about just you

So take yourself all the way down

To the end that is all the way around

Don’t forget it is you and your friends who talk

So bring them with you to the end of the boardwalk

When you reach the end, it isn’t at all the end

It is just you sitting at a bench talking to your best friends

gt...Happy B-day David

And today was a day just like any other...

So you walk outside and everything's new...

It's only tonight...

I'll Be There For You...

Don't pretend you've never been there...

Don't dust your shoulder off if you have nothing to show...

"tastes like you only sweeter..."

"If you ain't got no money take your broke ass home..."

Oh..I jinxed it!

" I don't mind you telling me what's been on your mind lately I don't mind you speaking up..."

OFCOURSE ITS NOT WORKING...the story of my life!

"Hey, you're a crazy bitch, but you f**k so good I'm on top of it..."

baby yes I'm addicted to how we kick it everything you say to me...

If you're not ready, you're not ready/Please stop acting like you are...

If they could love like you and me, Imagine what the world could be...

And all the lights that lead us there are blinding...

Music, Motown and Countdown to New Years...

girl I spend money like it don't mean nothin and besides I got a thing for u...

This ain't a scene...

Come on now let's go for a ride, I've got three hours it's plenty of time...

I hope you're happy and you'll think of me while i'm away...

And I know I'm comin off just a little bit conceited...

Stay here together and we could conquer the world...

"I can feel it...can you feel it....come on over"

what is more important...

Make me so perfect in your eyes...

"Hey... Are you thinking what I'm thinking? "Are you thinking what it would be like to have Spiderman spray his web on you?" "Okay that's just freaky"

I can conquer anything...

bittersweet

"I don't even know what my soul looks like,but I know that music helps me find it." -ronnie day

Life is all about the risks you take...

baby...can you play with fire??

Back in Motown!

True success is so selfless so drown in the lyrics of your life...

Currently Listening to:

I'm Justin

I'm One Of a Kind

I'm Lovable

I'm Nice

I'm Sweet I'm Mean I'm CrazyI'm Fun

I'm a Believer (despite what others think)I Love My FriendsI Love MusicI Live My Life By Song Lyrics that explain exactly what I'm going through

gotta love it it's so so dangerous...

Scene 1

I'm honest as a photobooth...

that feeling good feeling...

But you've already lost, When you only had barely enough to hang on...

I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS EVER!!

I was sitting on the ground with my best friends looking up at the sky...

music keeps me sane...

any where ya meet me guranteed to go down...

watch out the yellow ones don't stop...

Baby is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel....

I dare you to tell me to walk through fire. Wear my soul and call me a liar...

I'm spinning while falling down...

Self-Assured

Give me a reason to end this discussion....

It is time to...

If I lay here...If I just lay here...Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

our days were numbered by nites on too many rooftops-they said we're wastin our lives-well atleast if we died we lived with passion...

She can't keep a secret for more than an hour...

screaming catch me if you can with a cigarette in hand...and its love

We can't always get what we want but, when we do...we aren't ever completley satisfied.

"I am out of the house cause there is a serial killer out loose who kills anybody with the name Howie. THATS MY NAME!!!"

I'm jing-a-linging from here to the ceiling...

"I came to shake a load off...so take you coat off...mix drinks what you think...OJ and Smirnoff"

take me home, to the place I belong...

photobooth....

so take these words and sing out loud...

"let's rearrange, I wish you were a stranger I could disengage, just say that we agree and then never change..."

give into the rush now...

How much longer???

Lost at Sea...

Cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it around

Sitting here counting the hours...

Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all...

Home for awhile...

"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a g-d damn door?"

Good Grades, Great Movies, Crazy Fish and No Drama....

the mind wanders...

my random thoughts...

I'm Sweet I'm Mean I'm Crazy
I'm Fun

I'm a Believer (despite what others think)
I Love My Friends
I Love Music

I Live My Life By Song Lyrics
that explain exactly what I'm going through