bittersweet

How can everything seem so great one day then you lose it all the next...

I had something great but I lost it, I had a best friend but we grew apart,The one person I could trust the most...i lost their trust and now I feel like I can't trust anyone, I thought I got along with some people but we started to fight...now things are just fake between us, I knew what I wanted in life but now I don't even know anymore, One of my best friends had to go home...I really wish they were here, I believe a lot of what people say...but now I think everyone lies to me, Some days I wish I was home...but i feel like I'll be lost forever if I do, Some days I feel like I need to get away...go to a beach or take a walk...but the closest beach is 5 hours away and I don't feel safe taking a walk at night here, I really wish people could change...even though they say they have changed...they haven't, I think I need to find more friends, I feel lonely now because every friend I make is either lying to me,goes home, is fake or an asshole. My life here is bittersweet...and the reason its so bittersweet is because im the sweet part and everyone thats here (except for elissa) is so bitter.

The only friends I have right now are my friends from home...I miss you guys so much.

I want to take a walk to the end of the boardwalk...

- justin

g.t.