I dare you to tell me to walk through fire. Wear my soul and call me a liar...

Currently Listening to:
Shinedown
- I Dare You

Have you ever been so confused about something that the only thing you can do is try to ignore it. The more you ignore it the more you want to figure out this problem. No matter what you do it just won't ever be resolved. Now say that problem disappears because you finally just ignored it for good. Then one day about a year or two after.... something hits you and you realized that thing you were confused about was never resolved. That thing you could have bet your life you would never forget in a million years just hit you a year or two of forgetting it entirely. Now you may be asking yourself, why is Justin saying that and where the hell is he going with this. If you could resolve something your confused about you would do it, right? Well I mean unless you don't want to but thats just crazy. We all have things in our life that we are confused about and all we want to do is understand or resolve it. So nows your chance, instead of forgetting it ever happened or ignoring it for years....do it now, resolve it now, figure it out now, do what ever you can...so when you look back in a year or two from now and you still never resolved it....you could atleast say you tried.

You know what I think is so weird and this so random but I don't know, I feel everyone does this. Like I was driving home from brookdale and you see a dead animal up ahead on the road, so I say to myself...don't look. Of course the split second you pass it, you have to look! Just like if theres an accident on the side of the road and you don't want to look because what if you see something that can scar you for life like a dead body or someone really hurt but of course we all still look! I don't know what it is, I guess its just like when we watch a movie or a television show, we love to see things blow up or people get hurt for various reasons as entertainment but when it comes to real life...real things still entertain us. Like seeing an accident or road kill on the side of the road. Why are we so fascinated by all of this...it boggles my mind. Its so strange and I don't know if its just me but I'm not gonna lie, I do it all the time. Like if someone says don't look...you have to look! lol. I don't know I guess its just human nature and natural instinct. I think its kinda funny that we do this. I don't know I thought it was kinda of interesting.

Anyways, I don't know but most of you know I write random poems/lyrics etc... just when I have a lot on my mind. And I already have like over 25 of them since I was 14 years old. I think some of them are really good and some of them just suck big time. But I didn't realize how good you can feel by just getting your feelings out through something easy as writing it all out or making a poem into it. You may think I write everything I feel into these blogs, but I don't really. Like serious things that go on in my life or feelings I have inside about things...they go toward those poems and stuff. I have had a lot on my mind lately about the future and its really hard to accept that things won't be the same soon. I'm growing up a lot faster then I ever thought I would. I think I'm growing up more in the mind then in my age. I have such a different perspective on things then most people my age. It kind of sucks sometimes, and it sometimes can just kick me in the ass. Sometimes its a good thing but it can hurt the way things run in my life with the people around me because they aren't on the same path as me yet. I just wish things didn't have to randomly come up out of no where and ruin things that I thought were running smoothly. Its really bittersweet. But I guess in the long run...it may benefit me to some degree but it still seems like I am the only one who gets hurt by things that are out of my contorl. Now how is that fair? Who knows but it really sucks sometimes....and somedays are easier then others. I guess we all go through shit in different ways and one day it will all work out. Time is all that it can take....even if it takes the time of your life, sometimes waiting is the only thing can do....and thats what gets you by.

- Justin

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