take me home, to the place I belong...

I'm back in Morgantown!!

So, yesterday I get to the airport around 40mins before my flight...and theres a rule that u have to be there 45mins before with your luggage....so i get there and they say that i can get on the plane but my bags cant--they can put my bags on the next flight out to Pitt. It was bullshit...but I was not going to do that...so I ended up leaving an hour later (with my luggage) and finally made it to Pitt and now I'm back in morgantown.

It is good to be back...its kind of weird though. It has been 27 days!! I felt so strange coming back into my dorm. I just can't believe its been that long...i still can't believe it lol. I am getting back into "mode" but I can't do much. I went to corner cafe today...just to get out because it is sooooooo nice out and I wanted to see how much I can walk. It wasn't that bad but, I just need to take it slow. I am not returning to classes until Monday...I wanted to get my act together and finish up some work. Tomorrow I have a meeting with my Sociology teacher...he wants to discuss everything...and I have a test on wed. that he doesn't want me to miss so I am not further behind...def. dont want to be further behind! Then I might be doing this workshop I need to do for academic probation 2mro--im not sure if im doin it 2mro. Then I have to go pick up rory at 530 at the airport. Kind of a busy day 2mro...that is if I do that workshop or not...its 2hrs--so i dont know lol. All my other professors are pretty much just going to talk to me after class. I also have to finish my english essay and take a psych quiz on tuesday! ahhhh!! I got a lot to do! Thats why I feel bad rory is coming in this weekend...I have so much to do and I can't even go out!! Oh well...i warned him lol

Btw...my fish are so alive---im still freakin out about that...how can u live with out food for 11 days!? haha...i guess over feeding them that one time (maybe two times lol)...wasnt that bad haha...OH--and last nite on idol---katharine mcphee was in the bottom 3!?? what is up with that??...I was like umm..NO haha....i feel like it was fixed and they wanted to get pple freakin out lol....how cud she be in the bottom 3 and bucky not be!? SERIOUSLY?? wtf america!! haha....i hate bucky!! lol

I get tired so easily--thats one thing that I really don't like. Yesterday when I was unpackin...i was just unpackin...putin clothes on hangers and in drawers just going back and forth to the closet...got me tired. Its kind of annoying...and my spleen has been acting up lately...I need to be careful...the doc. said its still 3 times larger then it shud be...but it is gettin smaller...its just going to take time. I just need to see what my limits are and how much I can do. I need to take it easy. It sucks but I know this is better for me that I can't do too much because I will get my work done. I just can't wait to catch up already! I have so much...argg! Thank g-d for spring break...or I would have been screwed. When I went to the doctor the 1st time...like before the not eating part happened lol...I weighed myself...and then this last visit...I weighed myself and I know I gained some weight back since I had dropped a lot of weight...so wutever the scale said I def. lost more then that...so i went on it and i lost 10 pounds...but the doc. said he thinks it was from 15-20 pounds!! I really looked sick...it was bad. Now I look rele skinny and everyone here is telling me to eat ahha but they should have seen me 2 weeks ago...it was really bad...and I am eating!! haha.

Well I am going to start on my work...and then meeting kaleen and alyssa for dinner at the mountainlair...they just opened up burger king--and it goes towards your meal plan...so I'm pumped! haha

later guys
- Justin

good times

photobooth....

Just thought I'd put up random photos thats I was looking at...cuz I can haha



Alyssa, Kaleen and Me at Z


The day at the beach when the sky was rele like that!!


I love this pic...jillian is about to laugh and aprils confused lol



HAHA...i guess the shot didnt taste so good lol


The greatest pic EVER...me and arielle...shes gonna bite my leg off haha


me and matthew at fuel


Me and Sarna at Fall Fest


Me and the 2 hottest girls in the world


me drunk on new yrs...with ms. hilary duff in my living room


me on the swings at great adventure


I love this pic...I tired to get all 3 of us and I just got me haha


me,lyss, and beth...shower time in bahamas



yeah thats it...hope u enjoyed lol

im off to bed...gnite

- Justin

gt

so take these words and sing out loud...

Currently Listening to:
The Goo Goo Dolls
- Better Days

I really need to go to sleep but I wanted to update real quick...

1st off...I am so pissed off right now...WVU just lost to Texas in literally the last second...I can't believe it!
2nd off...about my last entry...either I am wrong or no one had anything to comment on lol..so I got a mixed feeling...no comment mean--got nothing to say or...no comment means---Justin you are wrong but I dont want to tell you that haha...I'll just let it be lol
3rd off...I am very tired and I got no sleep last night and went to sleep at 3am---woke up at 8am and cudnt go bak to sleep...I am just so beat but I cant go to sleep....its so weird---I really thought I would fall asleep sometime during the day...but i didnt.

I am so weak--its really bad...I got really skinny too...like too skinny. You know how Hilary Duff got really skinny recently and like you see her teeth are really big and stuff...I look like that...like I think I look weird haha. I don't know...its not that weird looking but you can tell my face is a lot thinner and I don't like it. Its strange looking. I am eating good too...and when I say good I mean like I am eating everything! I had wendys for dinner...I like ordered everything on the 99 cent menu...im trying to gain some weight and it aint working haha.

I was in a bad mood before...(btw...I really think this tired and being weak thing puts me so down and I just get into these "depressing" moods...i hate it and I cant help it...I just feel so down and blahh)...anyways...so I wasnt in a good mood and I was sitting in my room wit my ipod --I was just looking at all the pics I uploaded on them and it made me realize how much fun I had in my life...like hardcore good times...I am going to take a trip down memory lane...based on the pics I was looking at...

- Remember that time I tried to do reenact the scene from risky buisness and I killed my foot and we put ice pops on it for ice haha
- Random Summer Black and White Pics on the Beach at night...with ice cream haha
- Mini-Golf!!!...thats all I have to say
- It is ALWAYS better in the Bahamas----> i was lookin at all those pics...and I would do anything to relive that week....so much fun!!
- WVU---> there are a million pics....from 3 drinkin games at the same time to halloween (thurs-mon...non stop party) to shots to beer to Z....morgantown is heaven
- Jingleball...going to the city---the train etc...I miss that
- Going to the Lifehouse concert then going on Dare Devil Dive with beth haha
- Random split screen images....all those pics are hilarious
- All the pics of me and david trying to keep a serious face...love those pics!
- From my b-day scavenger hunt to surprising jillain to yellowcard to the beach to morgantown....I have had the time of my life...

they do say a picture is worth a thousand words...

well I got over a thousand pics...so you can imagine how much I could say

haha...well I'm off to bed


good night
- Justin

good to the times

"let's rearrange, I wish you were a stranger I could disengage, just say that we agree and then never change..."

Currently Listening to:
The Fray
- Over My Head (Cable Car)

Hey guys...


So I went out to lunch with my parents today...it was good to get out of the house but after we went to the supermarket and best buy...I got so tired from walking...I couldn't believe how shitty I felt...it like really knocked me out...I just feel so weak---its so weird. I'm still kind of worried about going back and stuff...I have a week to get myself together. Its just annoying because I am not going to be fully better for about a month from now. I just got to hang in there. It is going to take time.

I have been thinking a lot lately about stuff...just random stuff like...What if I went to Arizona over WVU?...weird stuff like that. It's so weird because my life would be so different. I really don't know what my life would be like if I went there over WVU. Its just so strange because I think about it and Arizona was like everything I wanted in a school--it was the closest thing to UCF and I didn't go. I remember that was like the hardest decision to make. I was going crazy lol. I'm so happy I ended up here but it is just weird thinking about it because I went to a school that was pretty much the opposite of what I was looking for. Its just interesting. lol Anyways...I've also been thinking about stuff like...sometimes I feel like I need to change certain things about what I do with my life....such as...I think I need to focus on my school work more and not lay around my room on the computer just doing nothing and procrastinate so much. I guess it is really good that I am not able to go out and drink anymore because I can focus on my work and stuff. I really need to do well...especially now because I have to catch up.

I've been thinking a lot about this too...and I don't want all of you to jump down my throat and tell me that this is towards you...because it isn't toward one person...this is for a lot of people in my life and I don't want you to come to me and say I wrote it about you because it is more then just you....just listen to what I have to say.....so here it is....

I also have strong opinions on things and I get really frustrated when sometimes people disagree with me and I mean...I dont want to say I want people to change there views on things but I feel like some people are very closed minded and they dont see things the way I see it and I just feel that some people need to open up there mind and realize---things would be a lot more normal if they just saw things differently. I know I can't change peoples views because I want them to but I feel people around me need to change there attitudes toward things because sometimes we each live in our own bubble and dont realize what is out there and that there is more to life then just urself. I know I might sound stupid saying I think people should change but the situations I am thinking about...it makes sense...some people are very childish when it comes to certain things...and they need to step up...once your in college...its real life...no more stupid drama...its real life drama---well that depends on who it is...cuz a lot of people bring that high school shit with them...OK--we all do but...once you get to a point in your life where you finally realize that life isnt a competition, life isnt about impressing others or making yourself feel better about yourself...its about living your life and being able to live it in a sense of reality. You can have fun and be "immature" or "childish" at times...but there is a point that comes across where you need to be "mature" and be able to live your life and get a reality check....not everyone understands what it is like because we all live a different life.

I feel like some people do things that hurt themselves and they dont even realize. Some people think they should act or look a certain way in order for society or even your own friends to accept you. I hate that. I also think these people like the attention. I hate that. I just wish everyone could be true to themseleves....well you all know me...I dont really hate people...I do dislike people but...I only hate 2 things about people...they are people who lie and people who are immature. And I am not saying I havent lied ever in my life and I'm not saying I have never been immature. But there is a point where you know what is right and what is wrong. Lying is just a part of immaturity...thats why I hate it so much. I guess what I am saying is...I just wish people could see things in a different light...maybe become a stronger indivdual by experiencing this. I guess its just that I see it this way and it bothers me that people in my life are acting this way. I just want them to experience what I have experienced and be able to be a stronger and a more understanding person. It sucks that I want people in my life to change but the truth is...I am changing and I want them to be more open minded and change for the better. Change is hard but it is very good. I think sometimes you need to change in order to experience and see things in a different way. It makes sense to me but I don't know if it does to any of you.

I guess sometimes you just wish everyone could be a certain way and sometimes you hate to see them struggle. It happens and its life...I guess some of us get there before others and we just want them to experience what you have experienced and be able to live a healthier life.

I hope someone got something out of this...or maybe I'm wrong...and I should change?!? I don't know...what do you think? (leave some comments..because you can now lol)

Anyways...check out the band The Fray---they are really good!!

I'm going out for Elissa's Bday dinner 2nite...I get to see some people :) lol

later guys
- Justin


gt...happy 21st bday ryan!!

p.s. I miss everyone!!!

give into the rush now...

Currently Listening to:
Aly & AJ
- Rush

I so just wrote a whole entry...and I don't know what happened...and it was a good entry too!! I'll try to rewrite it...arggg

I went to the doctor today and everything went well. My throat is clear. My liver enzymes are still high, but that is going to take awhile for it to be back to normal. The doctor said its going to take about a month for my body to be back to completly normal. So the big question was...can I go back to school!??!?!....so he said that I am ready to go back...which is good...I'm just not allowed to do any physical activity or sports and I definitly cannot drink. The problem is that, I am very worried when I go back to school because we all know that WVU is known for its hills and 82 steps of the LSB. I am just worried going back and forth to class walking and stuff because I get so weak just walking down the stairs in my house. It's a trip to begin with to get up to my dorm, how am I going to do the 82 steps!? Well this is what I am going to do...

I set up an appointment with the doctor for next tuesday...he is going to check my liver and take some blood work and write me a perscription before I go back. In the meantime, I can go out and stuff, I just have to take it very easy. I am going to rest and try to gain my strength back..so when I get back I should be alright. I am just worried about the whole walking thing...I can't even lift anything and stuff like that...so when I get back I really have to take it easy and not push myself. I really want to make sure I am alright before I go back because I don't want to relapse and be back home again...that would suck. I emailed my professors and all of them were pretty understanding about my whole situation and we can work something out...which is good. I just have A LOT of work to make up...and I just hope I am able to catch up because I really don't want to have to spend the summer in WV to make up this semester. I guess there is no point for me to worry about it right now...just take one thing at a time. I just hope everything works out alright.

So on another note...I have had A LOT of free time and I downloaded 2 episodes of Friends on ARES (its like kazzaa)...and I downloaded this program that converts videos onto your ipod...so now I have 2 episodes of Friends and 5 music videos...its soo cool!! I love it...it is my new obsession haha

Thats it for now I guess...I'll update more soon

later
- Justin

g to the t

P.S. Now ANYONE can comment on my blog...I didn't know that was an option...I thought you had to be a member but it turns out that is not true ahha....soo I'm looking foward to getting comments from you guys :) lol

How much longer???

Argg....I really can't believe how long I have been home for...It just really is starting to hit me...like WOW...i came home for a random weekend...thinking I would only be home for 3 days...head back to school and then go off to denver the weekend after...but NO...I stayed home in bed--fighting mono---and missed my spring break...and should be in WV right now...but NO I am still home...and I don't know how long I am going to be here. Its pretty shitty...

Well I really don't have much to look foward to...because when I get back (when ever that is..)..I have a load of work to make up...and I can't do much. I have to take it easy still...which means--I think Justin is done partying--for majority of the rest of the semester (we dont even have that much time left anyway)...I am just going to have to lay low and not go out and stuff...it sucks. I feel really bad because...well lets hope I am there that weekend...but rory is coming in and I can't really show him around and take him out like I want to...hopefully I can do SOMETHING...we will see.

A lot of you are probably like...you never heard anyone have this much problems because of mono...well if you didn't read my last entry...I have a really bad case of it...bad enough that the doc. said I had the 2nd worst case he has ever seen. My blood work came back today and he said I am doing well but my liver "vitals" (idk wut they r called) but its still high....so that sucks...I have an early appointment 2mro morning...which will hopefully give me a heads up on how much longer this is going to be...I am praying that I only have one more week here...I am sooo tired of laying in bed...but I am weak and it sucks but thats all I can do.

I know I complain and ramble on and shit but...I have nothing else to do...I mean I am not complaining as bad as it seems...I'm just bored and tired of this...and I guess I just wish there was something I can do just to get over all of this...but miracles don't happen over night...

Speaking of miracles....so I left my fish in my room and all over spring break...without food...so Brian calls me and we were talking and he was back in the room and he goes..." do u want me to feed ur fish" and i was like...they are probably dead and he goes..."no they are alive...kicking and everything" haha...I was shocked!! I couldn't believe it! Guess some miracles do happen haha

I should head to bed...I'll keep you updated 2mro on the doc.

good night
- Justin

g to the t...we are getting there

Lost at Sea...

Currently Listening to:
Paris Hilton
- Screwed

Day 16: I don't think the crew is going to make it

...haha!!!! I cannot believe its been that long already. Spring Break ends today and I am STILL home and I don't know when I am going to be back in Dub V. I have a doctor appointment on tuesday, so hopefully he gives me a heads up when I can go back. I am seriously going out of my mind. I am so sick of watching television and every movie EVER! I must have watched 50 first dates, mean girls, cinderella story, can't hardly wait, the goonies, raise your voice, ferris bullers day off and monster in law.....atleast 3 times each because they are on EVERYDAY haha. I have been watching family feud religiously---> u know its bad when you already have a family you root for to win every day....they actually lost last week to the Yoo family haha. OMG this is sad! I watch wheel of fortune everyday too. I have my own routine I think already. If I am not watchin a movie, I'm either watching mtv shows, friends,will and grace, boy meets world, disney channel once in awhile and the nick at nite line up! Most likely I am playing rollercoaster tycoon at the same time and updating my ipod in between! AHHH....this is soooooo much! I am so bored of all of this! I can't wait to just get up and go out somewhere.

Even when I get back, I have to take it easy because I don't want to hurt my spleen. The doctor said I had the 2nd worst case of mono he has ever seen in his years of practice...and the 1st case he had to admit to the hospital!...I was lucky enough not to be admitted lol. But I am getting better and the doc. said I am moving in the right direction. It is also because I waited a long time to see the doctor, and it got worst because I wasn't aware I had it. But I guess it is better that I got it during spring break and I only missed one week so far of school..going to make it 2 weeks now but I hope my professors are easy on me....because I have no idea what the hell I am going to do when I get back. It is going to be rough to get back into mode and make up a shit load of work.

So I am feeling better but I am still weak and stuff.... I am not contagious anymore...I can walk downstairs and stuff but I have to just be careful with my spleen...I want to go out...but I think maybe in a few days I can.... I have to talk to the doctor. Hopefully, I can go out for elissa's birthday dinner on wed. But we'll see...

I am gonna go take a shower and shave my little jewish beard ...haha j/k!!

later
- Justin

p.s. yes that is the paris hilton...the song is rele good! haha

g to the t....we are getting there

Cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it around

Currently Listening to:
Daniel Powter
- Bad Day

I just have to say I am in love with this song...and even though its called Bad Day...its actually a happy song...I love it...you have to check it out if you never heard of it.

I haven't been getting the greatest amount of sleep...I'm usually up every hour because I am hot or dehydrated or can't breathe lol...I woke up this morning---pretty cranky and just in a bad mood for some reason...I was actually feeling better and you would think my mood would be too. I don't know I guess a few days ago I was so sick that I just didn't care or have any emotion because I felt so shitty. Now that my throat is actually feeling better, my cold is on and off and I am eating normal food....those are all good but I am still weak and tired. I've been in bed forever! The only time I ever get up is to go to the bathroom/shower/brush teeth/ and get my laptop thats literally a foot a away from my bed or when I go to the doctor. My parents have been great to me and I feel so bad because they were suppose to go to Puerto Rico and they cancelled there trip because of me. Now my aunts,uncles and grandparents aren't going anymore because my parents aren't going. I felt so bad. Not only are my parents waiting on me back and forth coming upstairs every 20 mins, they went out to best buy and got me a new ipod!! I knew they were going to best buy to get a new tv for my bros room (btw i infected my bros room cuz his bed is 10 times more comfortable then mine haha so his room is now mine lol)...so they hooked up the tv in "my room" and my mom went to get the remote for the tv and in the bag was an IPOD!!...I freaked out I was like ...u guys are crazy!! I was so shocked....its the 60gb black video ipod! ahhh! I was so Happy!! Then my dad leaves and comes back with a gift from my aunts/uncles/grandparents (all them that were suppose to go to Puerto Rico with my rents) ....they got me new ipod speakers!! They are all CRAZY! I dont get it haha. I'm sick with mono, they don't go away to puerto rico and I get an new ipod and new speakers!?? Please tell me how that makes sense!?...All I have to say is my family rocks! haha

So that got me in a better mood for sure. I talked to elissa yesterday from Mexico and april called me today so I can wish her a happy birthday (HAPPY BDAY APES!)...they are having fun....and they are getting along as best as possible which is good...of course they had some drama haha...i would have bet money on that lol.

So I am definitley not coming back on sunday to school...I have a doc. appointment on tuesday, and hopefully he'll let me know when I can go back. It sucks because tomorrow morning I have a doc. appointment at 8am! to get a blood work up...not looking foward to that.

Real Quick Random Thoughts

- I wish I was in Denver right now
- I wish I was able to see my friends since I have been home for 2 weeks now
- I wish I was able to go out and do stuff
- I wish I wasn't in bed my entire spring break
- I wish I could go back to WV on Sunday
- I hope I am back for the weekend rory comes (not looking like I am going to be there the weekend elissa comes...sorry elis) and david if u were planning on coming that weekend 2 (i'm sorry)
- I wish my disease didn't have fuck so many people over
- Let's see who have I fucked over....Number One--for starters...Matt--I am so sorry..wish I could be out there in denver with you, your dad and everyone right now
Number 2- My parents/relatives...not going to Puerto Rico because of me--I feel so bad!
Number 3- Chester/Martin--the fish...are def. Resting In Peace right now :-/ So sorry!!
Number 4- Elissa--I'm sorry I don't think I am going to be there the weekend you come..and I really feel bad because I haven't seen you in forever...and david--sorry too because u would probably would have came.
Number 5- I am SOOO sorry if I gave mono to anyone...that is def. a big one...I am hoping no one really got it but, if you do start to feel shitty...go to the doc. I didn't even know I had it haha.

OK well...thats that and I have to wake up early tomorrow and I probably won't even get enough sleep anyway...lovely!!

gonna go watch family guy movie and then get some sleep.

good night
- Justin

some good times lol

Sitting here counting the hours...

Currently Listening to:
Avion
- Seven Days Without You

Ok so this sucks...

I am feeling a little better...but doesn't even matter because even if something doesn't bother me anymore...something else is---argg

So I've been in bed for over a week and all I want is....

- GOOD FOOD
- Jerze Freeze...Vanila Milkshake with rainbow sprinkles
- Ritas...Gelati
- Chilis...chips and salsa(heat up the salsa)..my usual cajun chicken sandwich lol
- Ralphs...Palm Tree Ralphie--u know those froze fruit bars--well it taste actually like a melted coconut froze fruit...ahh so good
-FRENCH FRIES---my mom brought home wendys fries for me but it hurt my stomach :(
- Starbucks and Dunkin....i had DD iced coffee a few days ago..and my mom brought me starbucks iced coffee today but i didnt drink it
- I miss Ben and Jerrys Ice Cream
- PIZZA
- Bagels
- OMG---u kno wut i miss sooooo much Symphony---that was my favorite place EVER...too bad it closed...i ate there for free everytime i worked there...omg i miss it so much---i wud do anything to get that bak...best food EVER!!


I need to go to sleep...but I'll try to update more about me complaining haha

later
- Justin

good times soon...hopefully

Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all...

Currently Listening to:
Teddy Geiger
- For You I Will (Confidence)

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
(if only i could actually scream that out loud)

I've been in a lot of pain today, my throat is killing me. I can hardly talk...it sucks!

I have nothing else to do so I figured I might as well update some random thoughts...

- If I wasn't sick with mono, I would be leaving for Denver in 24 hrs!! :(
- My parents are going to puerto rico---without me!!
- Ryan is on his way to Barcelona and Amsterdam!!
- Elissa and April are going to Mexico!!
- David went to L.A. last week!!
- I am pretty much just jealous of all of this haha
- I am home and can't even enjoy myself...no jerze freeze, cheesecake, nyc etc...
- Everyone is going to be home for spring break this weekend--I can't even see them!
- I'm all stuffed up---I can't even breathe and it sounds funny when I talk lol--and it hurts cuz of my throat....once again---it sucks!
- I must have changed my Myspace background--a million times!
- Beauty and the Geek season finale is on 2nite!
- Brandon is coming home 2mro....he probably won't even be around the house cuz of me lol
- I'm in pain
- All I do is complain (yes that rhymes)
- Did I mentioned this sucks...cuz it does
- i'll be lonely for awhile...so send me some love---ill need it

ok well...until 2mro--probably...

- Justin

noway this is a good time :-/

Home for awhile...

So I came home over the weekend because I wasn't going to be home over spring break which means I wouldn't be home until May. Well I've been sick for awhile and I didn't know what was wrong with me?? I went to the doctor, got a blood work up--they thought it was the flu--they were wrong....it was mono!
:( this sucks so much. 1st off, I am not even going back to WVU until I'm better, I can't go to Denver over spring break, I am stuck in bed-- feeling the worst you can possible feel. It blows.

I am so mad...all I want to do is feel better...I already missed so much work this week...I hope I am better by the time break is over---so I don't lose this semester...this semester is really important! Arrgg---this is so not cool. Let's hope for a miracle.

So let's say I am not better by the time break is over...
1. I will be missing A LOT of school (not good)
2. I won't see Elissa when she comes to visit the school (which probably means David isn't going to come)
3. The following weekend...Rory is suppose to visit (he might not be able if I am not better)

So this seriously SUCKS!

I miss everyone back at school :(

The doctor put me on a low dose of steorids--to help get the huge golf ball thats in my throat to shrink and for me to get some energy back. I can feel the difference but i am still not the same. I just feel so BLAHH.... literally. It's going to take awhile for me to be back to myself again..

I'll update more now that I have nothing to do...but I probably have nothing to talk about...I'll think of random things haha

Well good burger is on...and I haven't watched this in soooo long...so I am going to relax and not complain for 2 hrs lol

Love and Miss Everyone...cuz even though I'm home...I'm probably not gonna see you guys :(

later
- Justin


P.S. IM and let me know about the new layout...and leave some love haha

not so good times :-/