Music, Motown and Countdown to New Years...

Hey guys...

I wanted to update real quick because I'm going back to morgantown tomorrow, I'm gonna spend new years there, I figured it would be a lot of fun and not much was going on around here so..yeah lol. But I will be back the 2nd so I can see everyone I haven't seen yet...and then I go back to school the 7th...so I have a few days when I get back which is good. I haven't been up to much lately just chillin and stuff...listening to a lot of music, playing a lot of xbox 360 and watchin a lot of movies lol.

I usually pick a song that I am listening to but I like soo many songs right now that I can't just pick one...and a lot of different artists that have many great songs...so heres a list of some random one that have been on repeat on my ipod--some new some old

Nas- "Hip Hop Is Dead"
Daughtry - The whole album
Akon - but u knew that from the previous entry lol
Relient K - "Apathetic Way to Be" "In Like a Lion (Always Winter) - its on their EP thats been out for awhile...I love their album too
Ashley Tisdale- "He Said She Said" "Headstrong" (shes from high school musical)--her songs are soo catchy...i like her a lot lol
KT Tunstall - "Suddenly I See"--this song is in every Tvshow and i feel like its in every movie...and its always on the radio...its a good feel song i think and I really feel like everyone knew this song before..I don't know---its a song that sticks with you
The Classic Crime- Every song on their album!
Bandcamp
Ronnie Day
The Used
Cartel
Rascal Flatts
Dashboard

The list goes on lol

Well I need to go pack!!

I hope everyone has a Happy New Year!!

I can't wait for 2007 to begin...it's the year of possibilities

Don't be afraid to take the over-rated holiday and start a resolution or new step toward something...it'll be worth it!

Love you all!

Later
- Justin

Good Times

girl I spend money like it don't mean nothin and besides I got a thing for u...

Currently Listening to:
Akon
- I Wanna F*** You

Hey guys...

I'm back in NJ...I'm really bored!! I really want to go back but then again I don't want the next semester to start yet! I did pretty good this year with Hannukah presents! I got a new digital camera, david yurman jewish star necklace, a million dvds, some clothes etc... I was really shocked when I got the hoodie that i was dying to get from hollister and its been sold out forever and they had it at abercrombie but its like twice as expensive...so ofcourse my rents went all out and got me the one from abercrombie! I really love hoodies haha

Anyways...last weekend I went to Jingleball with Beth...it was fun...the killers and the fray were awesome and Timbaland was the surprise guest. The next day the entire family came in for my dad's 50th birthday...we went to the city it was a lot of fun!! Now I'm mad bored cuz there is nothing else to do over break but go to the city and I did that twice haha.

Oh..and i just found out my bro is given me his PS2 cuz hes gettin himself an xbox360...so I really can't complain!!

I'm gonna probably watch a movie or something because I literally almost have a enough dvds to open my own video store haha

later
- justin

good times

This ain't a scene...

Currently Listening to:
Fall Out Boy
- This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race

I am an arms dealer
Fitting you with weapons in the form of words
And don't really care which side wins
As long as the room keeps singing
That's just the business I'm in

THIS AIN'T A SCENE, IT'S A G-D DAMN ARMS RACE
This ain't a scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
I'm not a shoulder to cry on
But, I digress

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh-so intricate oh-so intricate

I wrote the gospel on giving up
(You look pretty sinking)
But the real bombshells have already sunk
(Prima-donnas of the gutter)
At night we're painting your trash gold while you sleep
Crashing not like hips or cars,
No, more like parties

THIS AIN'T A SCENE, IT'S A G-D DAMN ARMS RACE
This ain't a scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
Bandwagon's full
Please, catch another

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh-so intricate oh-so intricate

All the boys who the dance floor didn't love
And the girls who's lips couldn't move fast enough
Sing, until your lungs give out

THIS AIN'T A SCENE, IT'S A G-D DAMN ARMS RACE
This ain't a scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
(Now you)
This ain't a Scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
(Wear out the groove)
This ain't a Scene, it's a g-d damn arms race
(Sing out loud)
THIS AIN'T A SCENE, IT'S A G-D DAMN ARMS RACE
(Oh, oh)
This ain't a Scene, it's a g-d damn arms race

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh-so intricate oh-so intricate



I really love this song

Later
- Justin

gt

Come on now let's go for a ride, I've got three hours it's plenty of time...

Currently Listening to:
Bandcamp
- Cammanns

Did you ever get that feeling when you think you dreamt something but maybe you were like day dreaming or just thinking about something and you feel like it happened? I don't know maybe I'm the only one...but I feel like when this happens, its almost as if you want it to happen or almost as a premonition that its going to happen. Kind of like when you have Deja vu...but the other way around?? haha I don't if that made sense...it definitely didn't! lol...
Anyways, I felt like I had a dream about me changing the way I think about things, the way I act at certain things, or just changing my perspective once again on a whole new light. I think I have a lot of these entries somewhere in these blogs...like turning the page to the next chapter. This time I don't know why...usually something happens that makes me want to change, but this time I feel like it makes sense to. I feel like these times it makes me grow and become a better person, it makes me feel good and I like that. I just think I need to think before I say things, not think too into things, I need to stop analyzing everything, I need to start looking at things in more of a positive light and try not think of all the negative things. I need to be grateful for what I have and where I am in my life, I need to start acting my age...and it that sense I need to both mature in some aspects and I need to become immature in others...I feel like my head is ahead of my age and I'm missing out on things I should be focusing on more. From doing work, having fun, finding more friends, go to the gym, be more productive and not sit on my ass and watch friends all day. I think this is my new years resolution. I usually break those in a heart beat, i think stop biting your nails is a stupid resolution...I think I started that one back in 3rd grade...I still do it today haha. Well this time I think it will be a lot more of a challenge to be able to fix up the negative things and also become better person in my skin. I think I'm ready to step outside the "box" and discover something different.

It may take some time...but hopefully by 11:59pm on December 31st...I'll be able to get my ass out of the house...and actually do something different!

All I want is a little change~!

p.s. bandcamp cd--amazing!

later
- Justin

good times

I hope you're happy and you'll think of me while i'm away...

Currently Listening to:
Ronnie Day
- Coming Home Soon

Hey...so this week is finally over...I'm going back to NJ 2mro!

This week was really long...I was pretty busy and stuff. I did not get the bandcamp cd--but i did order it online, but i probably will have to wait until I come back to WV to listen to it cuz its going to be sent here. I got the ronnie day cd...its seriously amazing...u guys need to listen to it, its awesome!..I'm listening to it right now lol.

I am happy to go home just to get away from work and stuff...its good to be home to see the friends and family.

Well I need to finish packing and get some sleep...I have one class 2mro...geology..yuk! haha...but i get my test back and I studied for 4 1/2 hours in the library and I think I did good! so i actually rele want to go to class haha...well thats about it!

good night and i'll see most of u soon!!

- Justin

good times

And I know I'm comin off just a little bit conceited...

Currently Listening to :
Fergie
-Fergalicious

Hey guys...
So things have been interesting lol...I figured out my schedule and actualy did not stress over it much. I pretty much am done with all my general classes at the end of next semester....then it will be all about my major...but I still get to take stuff for my major next semester which is good. I got jingleball tickets...after like 20 mins of waiting patiently lol. Me and beth have pretty good seats compared to where we usually sit lol...i'm excited for that!

Ok...so today was a good day and I had it all planned out...I was gonna go to Best Buy and get Bandcamp's CD, a few movies,get starbucks,maybe go tanning and get lunch...well I get to Best Buy and they did not have it and they are not getting it anywhere in WV!!..so I was kind of mad but I kind of had a feeling b/c it wasn't on the website on bestbuy.com...however it is in their system but for some reason it was deleted from stock order..which is kinda weird. Apparently, WV is not the only one cuz on there myspace someone wrote a comment and said the same thing happened to them in NY. Soo I do not know whats up with that...hopefully we get some answers soon! lol...I have been waiting for this day for a long time...I planned my day around it! haha. Anyways...I ended up treating myself to Ellen Degeneres's Stand Up Comedy Collection and the movie Clue...I felt better but not quite good yet...so I decided to go tanning cuz i'm pale as a mofo...that def. relaxed me...and to top it off I had to treat myself to Wendy's Biggie Size Combo haha...I felt a lot better! haha

Anyways...so I had a semi-productive day and I had no classes today..so i was stressfree...as well as 2mro I only have one class because my 2 hour Geo lab was cancelled! and I will be done for the day at 11:20am! haha...and on friday alyssa is coming to Morgantown!! Saturday we have a football game and then The All American Rejects Concert!! It is going to be a fun, drunken weekend..I cannot wait!!

I am going to chill out for the night

later
- Justin

GT

Stay here together and we could conquer the world...

Currently Listening to:
Staind
- Everything Changes

Sorry I haven't updated in a long time...not even sure if many even read it anymore lol

Well...not much has been going on..stuff has been going on but nothing worth writing haha...I don't even know, nothing interesting I guess. The only "problem" going on is that I am closed out a couple of my classes for next semester which kind of sucks....ok not kind of..it really sucks lol. I don't register until Monday and I am already closed out of 3 classes...but one of them my brother is holding for me which is good. I emailed the other two teachers if I could be able to get in the class...I hope I can!

So..I watched the 1st episode of The O.C. on myspace before it airs tomorrow. It was really good. Kind of happy I watched it tonight because its up againts Grey's and also the Louisville game is on tomorrow too...so I can tape Grey's lol. My life seriously revolves around TV...its pretty sad but oh well lol.

Anyways...so you know how I have been talking about the band Bandcamp and Ronnie Day...well finally its like 100% offical that there albums are coming for sure. lol Bandcamp's CD "Wanna Dance?" hits Best Buy on November 7th!! and Ronnie Day's "The Album" hits stores exactly one week later on November 14th!...im pretty pumped for that... The All American Rejects Concert is in a week...with The Starting Line...I'm excited for that! They announced Jingleball '06...I am pretty sure I am going...its not too bad this year...The Killers and the Fray are like the 2 main acts I want to see...the rest are pretty good. Tixs go on sale Monday...so i got to figure all that out!

Whoa...I just realized I have a lot on Monday...1st off I have to register for classes (which is always a pain in the ass), I have to sign a 5 minute story for sign language and I have to get jingleball tickets haha. Thankfully the next day we have no class! I know I'm going to be stressing on monday lol.

Ok..well i'm beat

later
- Justin

good times

"I can feel it...can you feel it....come on over"

Currently Listening to:
Rob Thomas
- Streetcorner Symphony

Whoah I didn't realize I haven't updated and a lot has been going on.

So last time I was really confused about the whole major thing. Ok well I decided I'm going to change my major to Multi-Disciplinary Studies which I can minor in 3 different concentrations of anything I want pretty much and make it into a major that consists of 3 different aspects. The whole point is to have all 3 things combine with one another to relate to how you can use it in a life. Well I can't do it until I'm a junior but its all good, I'm starting to take classes that I can take that go toward it. But I think I am going to Advertising/Public Relations, Communication Studies and Entrepreneurship. I think this will be better for me because all of this interests me a lot more than the whole news thing. So then I am going to go to graduate school for TV/Film and if that doesn't suceed I can always fall back on one of these 3 things which is pretty good I think. So thats pretty cool.

Living situation next year...I thought It was all good, I wanted to live at the District but Its kind of far from classes and stuff so I don't know yet...I'm gonna have to see.

So this past weekend I went to Binghamton with Elissa to visit Jillian. It was so much fun, I can't wait to go back. Jillian and her friends are so much fun. It was a really fun weekend. So before all the fun started. I met BANDCAMP!...aha ok not rele but kind of. I saw them and talk to them for like a second haha. If you never heard me talk about bandcamp then you don't know me very well haha j/k! Bandcamp is a band I saw open up for Switchfoot like 2 years ago and they are a great band, and there album finally comes out very very very soon. Anyways...we were getting our stuff out of the car to bring into the dorm and a van pulls up with like a tralior thing behind it. And these guys asked one of the girls where the Underground was. (ok 1st off I knew they were playin there that weekend but we couldn't go see them) and i turned around and looked at the guy in the van and I wasn't sure like I knew that face but I didn't know if it was them or not. So they said they were playing there and we should come and I asked them what there band was called and it was BANDCAMP!! haha I freaked out lol it was funny and i couldn't believe it...it was so cool and such a small world like what are the chances that there van pulled up to us out of everyone to ask for directions and I'm like a huge fan lol. It was so cool lol. Now they better be famous because thats just too crazy for words! I couldn't get over it lol

Anyways the rest of the weekend was a great time! Thanks Jillian :)

Well I got to go we are going to dinner for Matthew's Birthday...

Happy Birthday Matt! lol

btw...The All American Rejects are coming November 11 with The Starting Line...I'm really excited! lol

The Rents are coming in this weekend!

I can't wait for the weekend...this week has been way too long already and its only tuesday!

later guys
- Justin

GT!

what is more important...

Yeah so I am very stressed but I just need to organize my thoughts and I think this is a good way to do so...

So I was in my Social Psychology class today and she was using an example toward something and it was something like..What is more important,your major or what you are doing this weekend?...Of course this had to come across because 3 hours before this I found out might not graduate ontime due to the fact of requirements for my major. So this brought forth my attention and my stress level. But I really needed to get my self together. So here is the problem....

I have to take this test the JQE in order to get into the Journalism School...whoah ok wait...so as most of you know...I want to major in Television and Film but they don't offer that major here at WVU...so I am look toward Broadcast News (news reporting,writing,research, but with TV aspect)...its the closest thing to it but not really what I want to do. Anyways...I want to go to Graduate school for TV/Film (hopefuly somewhere in California) so I can learn about what I want to do....So back to the JQE...i need to take that to get into the school of journalism....Also, I need it to take this class JRL 215...and once I take JRL 215, I can then take classes for my major. OK well the problem is...JQE is not offered again until Jan. 2007...which means I cannot take JRL 215 until either Summer '07 or Fall '07...if I take it summer '07...its gonna suck but I'll be on track. If I take it in Fall...I'll be a semester behind because then I cannot take classes for my major until Spring '08...that is not good! So I have options...

I can take JRL 215 in the summer
I can take JRL 215 in the fall (and not graduate ontime)
I can change my major entirely
I can transfer ( I really do not want to)

Also...I do not know if I have to major in the same thing I want to go to graduate school for. Like if I major in journalism or like communications or psychology...can I go to graduate school for TV/Film?? If the answer is no...which I do not think it is...but if it is...I might have to consider transferring.

If I can take any major and still go to graduate school...I would have to think if I want to take Summer classes...or just change my major all together.

Yeah..so this is my stressful and shitty situation...I hope you enjoy my confusion lol

Any advice...leave a comment

I'm gonna go hopefully finsh watching Lost Season 2 before I go to sleep.

The Weekend Starts Tomorrow at 11:20am...finally

later
- Justin

Make me so perfect in your eyes...

Currently Listening to:
Hawk Nelson
- Take Me

Yeah so it has been awhile since I last updated...

I am actually home right now...I came home for the jewish holiday..I am going back to school tomorrow. So anyways lately the topic of conversation has been going abroad...

So I have always wanted to go to Austrailia (i can never spell it right lol)...And I went to the Study Abroad Fair last week and I am starting to look into it. I am just overwelmed because I have so much to think about. If I do go abroad it is going to mess up with classes for my major and I might not be able to graduate on time. So I was thinking maybe I could take some classes at WVU over one summer or something but I don't know?!?...then the other issue is...MY MAJOR...

So My Major right now is well..Pre-Journalism...I need to take this test called the JQE to get in so I could start taking classes for my concentration which is Broadcast News...and maybe minor in advertising. OK well the issue is this is not my passion and this is not exactly what I want to do with my life. Well they do say majority of what people major in is not what they end up doing. Well this is because they don't know what they want to do....I know exactly what I want to do. I want to work in Television or Film or Both...I want to Direct or Edit or Write Scripts etc... I want make a movie, a TV show or something in that sense. In Broadcast News...you do learn how to make a news show but its all about making news reports and researching and writing the stories and stuff...that really doesnt "get me going" if you know what I mean...I really am turned off by that...its just not what I want to do. The problem is WVU does not have Film or TV as a major and the closest thing is Broadcast News. So I always said I would just go to Graduate School for Film/TV...and I have always wanted to go to UCLA for it and I looked at the program and they only accept 10-15 people a year into the program. It was like my dream flushed down the drain. It just seriously is unbelievable. Thats really tough. I really do not want to transfer schools because I love it at WVU and I am afraid to transfer. I had this problem last year and its still bugging me. And I am getting closer and closer to being accepted in the school of journalism...so I need to make sure this is what I want to do. So...I think I am going to talk to my advisor and see what I can do...maybe I could start up this major who knows??...but broadcast news is very close to it....I don't know?? Well on another note...

Thinking of living situation for next year...I really love living downtown but I do love the district a lot. The District is like a resort lol...It has an outdoor pool/hot tub, gym,cafe, free tanning, basketball court, volleyball court, mile long walking trail, each room has there own bathroom etc.. its just very nice and EVERYTHING is included. The only problem is...its not on campus. I love living downtown because I am walking distance to the bars and classes. If I lived at the district you either have to take your car to class or they do have a shuttle that takes you to the PRT (monarail thing) and that takes you downtown. And then at night for the bars there is a shuttle that takes you to and from until 2am. I mean it is not that bad and the district is very nice and peaceful...I really like it. I am still thinking about that.

Also, I have no idea what I am doing this summer but I really want to see if I can get an internship in L.A. I talked to my mom about it and shes going to def. talk to my cousion who is out there and knows a lot of people. I would seriously freak out if I am able to get one and be out there. Omg...it would be amazing haha. I am so fascinated by california and I have never been there lol. We will have to see...

And lastly...I need to seriously do better in school. I feel like I am doing better but my grades don't prove that. Something is off and I need to get my act together. I really want to do well. I really enjoyed the feeling when I stepped up and actually felt accomplished. I know I can do it. I had mono and had to come back to school and make up so much...I know its in me...I just need to actually motivate myself to do better. I know I can and I wanted to type this out so everytime I look at this it hopefully gets me back into mode. I need this.

Well...I am off to bed...back to morgantown 2mro night...

later
- Justin

good times

"Hey... Are you thinking what I'm thinking? "Are you thinking what it would be like to have Spiderman spray his web on you?" "Okay that's just freaky"

Currently Listening to:
Justin Timberlake
-LoveStoned

Hey guys..

So I have been "sick" for a few days...i think its cuz of the weather (wow the last time I said that i ended up with mono *knock on wood*)...I think I'm gettin better though...Anyways...today was a pretty interesting day...I didn't go to my first class then my 2nd class was cancelled and I helped my bro sell t-shirts in the mountlair majority of the day...the only thing i had today was my social psych test--wasn't that bad. Tomorrow(wednesday) Come to the Mountainlair 9am-4pm..."We Pregame Harder Than Most Colleges Party" T-shirts Only $10!!

Haha Ok...so I finally got the new justin timberlake cd...its really good...he collaborated with so many rappers its pretty cool, TI,three six mafia,snoop,timberland,will iam...its def. a good album

So brandon and his friends are coming 2mro late at night for the maryland game on thrusday...im looking foward to that...looks like its gonna be a good weekend!

I have a geology quiz 2mro...suppose to read this whole novel...I couldn't do it...it was too long...but i think i have a good overview what it was about...so hopefully i do well.

I need to go to bed early...so maybe I will go lay down for the night...knowing me ill be up all night like usual...i love it how i procrastinate sleep ahah

the headline of the blog is from will and grace...it made me laugh lol

good night

- justin

good times

I can conquer anything...

its 2:00 in the morning and i have thought about a lot...

as the crazy town of morgantown fills my ears with drunk people screaming in the street for the past hour and a half...i leave you with this

As much as your mind may tell you to do something else...you can't control how you feel...

so follow your heart.

I can conquer anything...

- justin

gt

bittersweet

How can everything seem so great one day then you lose it all the next...

I had something great but I lost it, I had a best friend but we grew apart,The one person I could trust the most...i lost their trust and now I feel like I can't trust anyone, I thought I got along with some people but we started to fight...now things are just fake between us, I knew what I wanted in life but now I don't even know anymore, One of my best friends had to go home...I really wish they were here, I believe a lot of what people say...but now I think everyone lies to me, Some days I wish I was home...but i feel like I'll be lost forever if I do, Some days I feel like I need to get away...go to a beach or take a walk...but the closest beach is 5 hours away and I don't feel safe taking a walk at night here, I really wish people could change...even though they say they have changed...they haven't, I think I need to find more friends, I feel lonely now because every friend I make is either lying to me,goes home, is fake or an asshole. My life here is bittersweet...and the reason its so bittersweet is because im the sweet part and everyone thats here (except for elissa) is so bitter.

The only friends I have right now are my friends from home...I miss you guys so much.

I want to take a walk to the end of the boardwalk...

- justin

g.t.

"I don't even know what my soul looks like,but I know that music helps me find it." -ronnie day

"I don't even know what my soul looks like,
but I know that music helps me find it." -ronnie day

I live my life by song lyrics that explain exactly what i'm going through...


Do You Remember Time After Time What Hurts the Most When It All Falls Apart? And She Said..Everything Is Alright Here (In Your Arms)Hanging By A Moment. Because Of You,I Melt Everytime We Touch.
I Just Can't Live A Lie...If You Were Mine.
Someone Better Open The Door.. So Long As Lovers Go.
These Days The Fight Always Collide(s) Back To The Middle.
Now It's Done Over My Head...Over Thinking...Out Of My Mind...Words I Can't Say But Its Better If We Do...Everything Else. All Or Nothing,All At Once,All My Life...All in All...All The Memories..(just)Say The Word--Talk To Me--Call On Me.
What I've Been Looking For...A...Dirty Little Secret...Yeah
...Wow I Can Get Sexual Too.

Haha...ok if you didn't catch on thats all names of songs...i tried to make a cool thing out of it...nothing too great but i tried and its getting late lol...thought I could be a little creative..oh well lol

Anyways...
Music does help you find yourself...and I strongly believe that. I really don't know who I would be right now if it wasn't for music and the messages it brings forth to us. It either puts us into a sense of reality or puts thoughts in our mind that makes us think about the future or the past or brings out our imagination. It truly becomes apart of you and your life. It seriously is amazing. I love it.

As time moves on we all start to wonder about where we think we will end up in life, who we will end up with, how we will get there, how long it will take and what it will be like. As my eyes start to get heavy and I feel very sleepy..I want to end this blog with a a few words of my own...

We all make mistakes, we all need to make mistakes inorder to learn from them...sometimes we do things that aren't right and sometimes we need to do something out of the ordinary to make sense of it all. To test yourself and others around you. Sometimes we need to understand who we are and make sure we know what we are doing is right...and the only way to make sure it is right...is to do something wrong. Just like we can't feel happiness if we havent experienced pain...so we need to do something wrong to know that something is right. It may seem a little out of the ordinary to make something wrong inorder to make it right but...it makes sense to me. I really don't want to be the one who makes wrong decisions and I don't want to be the one to hurt anyone in the process of me trying to figure out whats right and wrong but maybe these mistakes I make will help you with your own. I don't know I guess I am just trying to live my life as best as I can while trying to search for something in the whole process...and when I find it...I'll let you know but for now...I'm just living life...and I'm sorry if my stupidity causes you any pain or any confusion...I don't want to be an asshole..I don't have any intentions to be mean...just my learning process may cause me to experience these mistakes and learn from them. Its hard when you think your mature about a lot of things when the littlest thing your so stupid about...I'm trying to realize whats right and wrong...and I'm starting to realize what I should be doing....

and thats just taking it day by day.

Its 2am...time for bed

gnite
- justin

gt

Life is all about the risks you take...

Take Risks
Enjoy Yourself
Be Weird
Have Fun
Smile..alot
Laugh..at everything
Talk out loud
Speak Your Mind
Don't Be Afraid
Be Cool
Chill Out
Relax
Breathe
Go Crazy
Be Calm
Be Happy
Be Whatever

It's your life...remember you control it...don't let anyone tell you otherwise

Do What Ever The Hell You Want To Do...And Don't Be Afraid to Do It...We All Are Allowed To Be Ourselves and Have Some Fun!

Life is all about the risks you take, the experiences you encounter, the people who impact you, the times you spent with them and the growth of happiness that leads you to where your suppose to be.

- justin

good times

baby...can you play with fire??

Currently Listening to:
Hilary Duff
- Play With Fire

So I've been thinking a lot about everything and I feel this year is going to be a great year and I'm not going to let these little issues get in the way of everything. So far morgantown already has been a bumby ride but in all a lot of fun. Classes started this week..some classes are cool some aren't so cool...but i have to just do it and try my best. The night life never dissappoints me...this place is another world!...if you didn't hear we are the #3 party school in the country!! haha but in reality we are #1..no other school does it like dub v lol.

Anyways...it is time for me enjoy myself on my own terms and not deal with people around me who are fake and immature. It is time to move away from the whole high school crap...im rele sick of it. People need to grow up and stop acting like they control everything and start acting...real haha it flowed well..but its true..Some people think that putting on this other act is going to get you far in life...its not. As much as you think "playing" the part or saying things to make people like you...the more you lie to people the more your lying to yourself....its not going to get you far in life. If you are like this now in your life at 19-20 years old, your going to be like that for the rest of your life..its sad. I don't know anymore, I think people are so full of themselves and don't even understand anything that life brings you to. Some people are so selfish and disrespectful. I'm trying really hard to not let these people bring me down because I'm starting to realize that I'm a better person then they are...they are the ones who are going to suffer in life. And Karma is a bitch...and it is true when they say what comes around goes around...because seriously it is the truth. I've experience something very funny the other day that made me realize how great it is for revenge to happen without even doing anything. Karma works in very mysterious and funny ways. I just believe that if you do something bad...something bad will definitley happen to you.

I feel like all the bad stuff I've done in my life has gotten revenge on me through out the years and now I'm starting to realize what its like to do the right things in life and not ever have to deal with the problems that I've caused...its only the problems others cause I might have to deal with but i'm starting to look past that and not let it get to me. I think I'm starting to understand who people really are and who I am.

I just had to get that off my chest

later
- justin

gt

Back in Motown!

Currently Listening to:
Motion City Soundtrack
- Better Open The Door

hey guys

I havent updated in awhile...I'm back in MOTOWN!...its good to be back! Partyed all weekend and class started 2day...already have a problem with the sched. lol...but its all good now. I have a night class at 5...hopefully its over before 6...cuz its Fall Fest!!---Motion City Sountrack, The Roots, The Wreckers and Staind!! I'm pumped up haha. So i got to go to class and come back here and pregame!

Well I just want to say I love and miss everyone...its been a crazy year and i feel bad i didnt get to see everyone this summer and didnt get a chance to say goodbye...i hope i get to see you all soon! Come Visit!! lol

later guys...ill keep you updated on everything once i get back into mode here

- Justin

good times!

True success is so selfless so drown in the lyrics of your life...

Currently Listening to:

The Classic Crime
- Who Needs Air

I'm Justin

I'm One Of a Kind

I'm Lovable

I'm Nice

I'm Sweet I'm Mean I'm Crazy
I'm Fun

I'm a Believer (despite what others think)
I Love My Friends
I Love Music

I Live My Life By Song Lyrics
that explain exactly what I'm going through

I try not to Judge people
because we all should be treated 
the same way we treat others
I'm Going to be Famous One Day...
So remember my name because they will be in lights someday
I Give the Best Advice but Never Listen to My Own
I'm Not Afraid to Speak My Mind
I'm Afraid of Death
I Love Horror Films
I Love Comedies
I Love Television and Movies
I Want To Move to California...even though I have never been there
I Want to Visit Austraila and Europe
I Sing in the Shower
I Dance When I think No One Is Watching
I Love My Life
I Love My Family
I Complain A lot
But people say things can be worse
So why not let me complain about something stupid
If that is the worst thing to compalin about
So give me that!
I think I'm always right
Because I think everyone is stupid
My G.P.A. sucks but My Common Sense is an A+
I think I'm a lot more mature then people my Age
I Have a Good Heart
And I can read people very well
I Know what I want in Life
I Know never to give up
I Know to always listen to your gut
I Learned how to be Myself
I Learned to be there for anyone, even if they aren't always there for you
I don't regret anything because learning from your mistakes will make you stronger
I can be a Strong Person
At the Same time I can Be weak
I try not let things get to me
But I know I always do
I think too much 
But never try too hard
I try when needed
and I say I don't care
When usually I do
I Love to Live each Day Like it is my last
I Love to Live it to the Fullest 
And Know that Even If It is A Bad Day...There is Always a Good Day to Follow

I Promise You My Life Will Be A Movie One Day...
It May Not Win an Oscar But
it Sure Will Catch Your Eye!

gt

gotta love it it's so so dangerous...

Currently Listening to:
The Pink Spiders
- Hollywood Fix

I can't believe that summer is almost over. I ended rec today and I can't believe how fast it went by. I made such a great new group of friends and wish we got closer earlier on! I'm leaving so soon and its kinda sad. But I really cannot wait to go back to school but I wish the summer was a little longer lol. Pacsun ended yesterday (well kinda--im oncall today but i dont think they need me lol...well if they do--fuk them haha)...I hung out with pacsun pple last night, it was so much fun! I'm gonna miss them too. Its seriously crazy how much the summer went by so fast. Its bittersweet too because the summer was shitty in the beginning then it got amazing (around the bday and july 4th) then it got shitty again and now when i'm about to leave home it got even more amazing.

I learned a lot this summer! I learned how to be a lot better in situations where there are drama (if u need help, just go with the expression "fuck it") it works everytime haha. I learned how to be more comfortable around people and be able to speak my mind when needed and be nicer in situations that I usually would blow up on haha. I learned who my true friends are and I learned who people truly are deep down inside. I learned what its like to take chances and be a rebel once in awhile. I learned to just live a little more and have some more fun. I learned what its like to be happy with things and handle things that aren't so happy. I learned how to be a better person and I learned how to be there for anyone, even if they aren't always there for you. I just learned a lot about how to do the right thing and be able to live life with less worries and a lot less drama.

I'm gonna miss this summer, it was fun and it isn't over yet...I have 11 more days left of summer and I will make sure each one counts!!

The NEXT 11 DAYS
- Seeing My Favorites
- The Crew
- JJKA
- Bus 1 & Carly
- And the rest of you guys!
- Mini Golf
- NYC
- Joshua Tree
- Beach
- Dashboard Concert!!
-Kate's Wedding
- AND SO MUCH MORE!

love all of you guys

- Justin

p.s. Listen to The Pink Spiders!

good times

Scene 1

Fade In

Enter a young man, about 5'8 , short brown hair and light brown eyes. Walks slowly toward a bench as the camera zooms out to get the whole picture. The Setting: the boardwalk, the beach in the background.
The young man sits there quietly and looks up into the sun and stares across the deep blue sea. Watches the birds fly over head and squints his eyes in the sun trying to see the boats from a distance. With the sun in his eyes and the breeze brushing along his face, a tear forms out of his right eye. The tear drop falls down onto the wooden bench and the spot twinkles in the sunlight. The young man quickly wipes his eyes inorder for no one to see or assume he is crying. He did this because he was insecure or afraid someone might think differently of him.

Sometimes he wishes he could just wish upon a star...
so people wouldn't assume the littlest things are true. This young man had a lot of dreams and many people put him down. This made him fear more of what others thought.
The young man sat back and soaked up the last drop of sun left in the sky before it starts to set in the ocean's distance. He closed his eyes and took a deep breathe. The young man was satisfied where he was. He had no fear except that tear drop that formed and people assuming something else. This made him realize that why should he be afraid of what others think. He shouldn't care. He should be happy that he is satisfied with himself right now. He's sitting on a bench facing the beach with the sunsetting in the distance and a perfect breeze hitting his face. Why should he fear anything?
He took one more deep breathe and quickly jumped through the railing that divided the beach and the boardwalk and ran toward the ocean. He quickly slid off his sandals as he continued running without falling. He took off his white t-shirt then took everything out of his pockets and wrapped it up in his shirt, he threw it to the ground and ran into the ocean. His feet slid right on the sand where the waves crash in. He dove his whole body into the water and floated ontop. He sat there laying on his back and let the sun sink through his body with the last light of the day. He smiled and layed there until it became cool and the sun's rays were slowly dissapearing into the distance. The young man walked slowly out of the water and walked toward the sand. He then turned around and faced the ocean, he sat down. He just watched the sun dissappear and waited for the moon and the dark sky to be revealed. He laid down on his back.

He was waiting for the stars to come out.

Fade Out

By J.D.
gt

I'm honest as a photobooth...

Currently Listening to:
Ronnie Day
- Outside

So I was looking through my blog and I had a list of precentages of things I would be doing this summer...lets go through them becuz im really disappointed...


The Percentage...

Beach- 110%...HAPPENED!
Boardwalk-108%..HAPPENED! but not enough
Mini-golf-101%...DIDN'T HAPPEN...but needs to
I am offically a Sophomore- 100%..DUH!
NYC- 99.4%...DIDN'T HAPPEN...but needs to!
Bandcamp and Ronnie Day's Album comes out- 95%..RONNIE DAY SEPT 19TH..BANDCAMP??
I'm going back to rec - 94.5%...HAPPENED
Movies - 93.1%..HAPPENED!
Red Bank- 93%..HAPPENED...one more time would be nice
Dunkin Donuts/Wawa/Starbucks - 92.35%...NO SO MUCH WAWA...
Trip to MOtown - 88%..DIDNT HAPPEN...not until i go back to school
Joining the Gym- 75.2%..HAHA DIDNT HAPPEN
Kelly Clarkson Concert - 70%...DIDNT HAPPEN
Catching up on shows-24/Lost - 69%...HAHA NOPE!
Zootopia (if there is one)- 66%...THERE WAS NO ZOOTOPIA!
I Have Visitors - 60%..NOPE :(
Rascal Flatts Concert - 50%...DIDNT HAPPEN!
Random Roadtrp with the crew (as of now) - 49%...DIDNT HAPPEN!
Hurricane Harbor - 43%...SHOULD HAPPEN!
Great Adventure - 25%..HAPPENED!

my summer needs to get better!!...its so sad...i had such high expectations for so many things...and i didnt do as much as i thought i would...i need to get back into summer mode...cuz i only have like 3 weeks left!!....arggg...

help me out here haha

- justin

gt...i want some more lol

that feeling good feeling...

The little things that make me happy, laugh and smile...

- My Friends
- the crew, jjka, wvu and the rest of you guys!
- Summer
- Beach
-F-r-i-e-n-d-s
- Dashboard
- Fat Kids (im sorry they make me laugh) lol
- Campers
- Ronnie Day
- Losers
- Disney Channel
- NEXT
- People who laugh funny
- People who fall off a moving kart
- Beer Pong
- WVU
- Elissa Stories
- The Spill Canvas
- Ben and Jerrys Ice Cream
- Cheesecake Factory
- NYC
- Joshua Tree
- 50 cent shots
- Chilis
- Jerze Freeze
- Mean Girls
- California
- White Chicks
- Australian Accents

haha...ok i ran out of things...but if ur reading this...u make my list too :-) lol


later
- justin

gt

But you've already lost, When you only had barely enough to hang on...

Currently Listening to:
Dashboard Confessional
- Dusk and Summer

I'm going to bed but I wanted to update real quick...

I've been hesitating on buying the new Dashboard CD because I heard such mixed reviews. But after finally saying fuck it I'm gonna buy it...its freakin dashboard. So I bought it and I realized I'm going to there concert in August so I should def. buy it cuz they are gonna play a lot of new songs. So I listened to it once and its alright...but then I listened to it a 2nd time and I absoultly love it! It is a little more mature sound then the old stuff but some songs are just as good and just as amazing. I'm happy I bought it, very very good. And I can't wait to go to the concert!...thanks jill :)

I was suppose to go see Roniie Day 2nite but I ended up not going...hopefully he'll be back in Jersey soon. His album comes out Sept 19th! I'm really excited lol. So camp is pretty good...I'm color war captain--we are winning ( we are the black team)...dont get me started on the colors (black and white..enough said lol)...anyways...i finished writing our color war song...I think it came out pretty good for what its. Pacsun--they have been cutting a lot of hours...which is good, cuz i dont like workin back to back a lot lol. I called out of work 2day but i was oncall and i dont think they needed me anyways. I'm not workin until monday which is good..so i have another free weekend. Hopefully city and beach...would complete some of the things on my list of things to do this summer...

Things to do this summer haha...
- Beach-every chance I get
- NYC (Eat at Joshua Tree and Shop)
- Mini Golf
- Red Bank (night life)
- County Fair
- Concerts (Dashboard)
- Great Adventure (2mro)

There are probably more but I can't think right now lol

I'm off to bed...but I'm gonna leave you with Dashboard's Dusk and Summer

Dashboard Confessional
- Dusk and Summer

She smiled in a big way, the way a girl like that smiles
When the world is hers and she held your eyes
Out in the breezeway down by the shore in the lazy summer
And she pulled you in, and she bit your lip, and she made you hers
She looked deep into you as you lay together quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

And she combed your hair, and she kissed your teeth
And she made you better than you'd been before
She told you bad things you wished you could change in the lazy summer
And she told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap
She said "nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer"

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

She said, "no one is alone the way you are alone"
And you held her looser than you would have if you ever could have known
Some things tie your life together, slender threads and things to treasure
Days like that should last and last and last

But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough of her to hang on

later
- Justin

good times

I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS EVER!!

I just want to thank everyone for coming and making my party so much fun! I seriously couldnt ask for anything more. I had an awesome time...wish it didn't end lol. It was the perfect night. Loved it!! and Love you guys!!

So my birthday was amazing...started at midnight when I saw pirates with david and april then went to camp the next morning...i brought in a box of munchkins, my boss brought in 2 boxes and renae brought in a box too lol. I had 200 munchkins lol...that was funny. Camp was good...i actually ran around hardcore and played so much haha. Then a little pre-party dinner with the crew...and then the party followed....great time!! Thanks everyone for there gifts too!! and the girls for gettin me a cake!

I figured i'd just update a little bit...and i should go clean up more cuz the house is still a mess from friday and the rents will be home 2nite lol

later guys
- Justin

p.s. your a loser :-p haha

THE BEST TIMES

I was sitting on the ground with my best friends looking up at the sky...

My 2 days of summer were probably my two favorite days ever so far! haha I had such a great time these past two days...I was actually happy and couldn't complain! It feels good being home and summer actually feeling like summer. I went to Red Bank fireworks and Juanitos with David, Jillian and April. The fireworks were awesome, i felt like a little kid looking up at the sky with my mouth open..."WOW" haha....it was so much fun. Example of not complaining about anything...right before the fireworks started there was this little kid behind me and spilled his coke on my back lol. I seriously was like its cool...(i mean obviously I wasnt gonna yell at the kid or be mean to the mother lol) and I didnt even complain i was just like wutever...cant do much about it...so I just let it be...and it didnt even put me in a bad mood lol. I laughed it off and felt probably better lol. I couldn't complain...I was sitting on the ground with my best friends looking up at the sky watching fireworks on a perfect summer night...no worries wutsoever...i was so happy lol. Then a fun ride home in traffic and a stop at dunkin donuts to end the night...it was great! Then today....hung out with beth and leanna at beths cuzins and chilled by the pool, saw the freehold fireworks from far and just had a good time. Then me,beth,lee and alan went to see Click...good movie! It was fun. I am very happy with my 2 days off of work (both jobs) lol...it couldnt have been any better...it was fun!

I think I learned something these past few days...sometimes you need to do things that you know are for the best, as much as you may think otherwise....sometimes you need to be the one to start the motion of the beginning of something or the resolution to it. Sometimes we all need to play our parts for things to happen. Sometimes you just know you need to do the right thing and sitck with it....it makes you feel good and realize...you dont have to complain much and you actually grow a lot by doing this...you feel a lot more confident and you teach yourself something new.

I said this to Jillian and she agreed it made a lot of sense...I was so happy that the only thing I could complain about was that I was HOT...and i was like...you know some people would say things could be worse stop complaining...but hey...if the only thing that im complaining about is that Im hot...then its a good thing...give me this and let me be happy that thats the worst thing in my life right now is ....that I'm hot haha. I didn't even complain about being wet from the coke spill on my shirt...I think i'm learning lol

you should do the same

- Justin

p.s. I'm going to see dashboard august 11th!! :)
p.s.s. My 19th Birthday is on FRIDAY!!

GREAT TIMES!!

music keeps me sane...

I'm a little bored, so I decided to dedicate this entry to music. I've been listening to A LOT of new Music and its awesome...so I figured I'd tell you guys about some really good bands and really good songs...

Artist: Bandcamp
Best Song: "Celebrity" and "Someone"
When you Listen to "Someone" you will be hooked for good. You may even just make one cd of just that song, like someone I know ;)
When you Listen to "Celebrity" you won't be able to get it out of your head.
They are Awesome and their album comes out soon!!
Website: Bandcampmusic.com or myspace.com/bandcamp

Artist: Ronnie Day
Best Song: EVERYTHING ( Listen to "Outside")
You'll be hooked for life, this kid is so good!! He's coming to NJ on July 19th (bday present?? haha...its only $8 lol) and if u do get me for that my bday u need to listen to him!!...hes awesome! His Album comes out September!!

Artist: The Spill Canvas
Best Song: All Hail The Heartbreaker, Self-Conclusion and The Tide
Listen to The Tide and You'll have a better understanding about Life, Listen to All Hail The Heartbreaker and be captivated by reality and Listen to Self-Conclusion and be blown away.
Website: myspace.com/tsc and thespillcanvas.com

Artist: Cartel
Best Song: Say Anything Else and Honestly
You Might have heard of them...Honestly is out on the radio and I saw their video playing after the Real World. But Listen to them...I heard Say Anything Else and bought the whole album on itunes that day lol. They are awesome! Before Bandcamp gets big...these guys are the next best thing.
Website: myspace.com/cartel and cartelrocks.com


There are a few more but I got to go...I'm going to see Superman!!

Later Guys
- Justin

Let me Know if you like any of these people...comment the blog...its lonley haha

good times

any where ya meet me guranteed to go down...

Currently Listening to:
Young Jock
- Going Down

OK...I needed to updated because I realized as much as I hated today with a passion...working at rec and then pacsun...the highlight of my day was my very funny moments with jaimee hahaha

Before I explain these funny moments...I'm gonna tell you, that you had to be there because these were priceless moments haha ok...soo

We were at the pool and there was a counselor (name-will not be exposed due to the fact, i dunno who reads this or who stalks me haha)--well she asked a camper--"Do you know where Pool One Is"...but can I try to explain how this went down....It sound more like this " Umm...Like Do YOUo Knowo Where Pooool OoNe Iss?..in this voice that was sooo unbelievably funny, me and jaimee lost it. haha

Next- Still at the pool and there is this little girl in JEANS, A JACKET, NICE EARRINGS, NECKLAcE, ETC....its like extremely humid out and this girl is standing there with all of that and her bag on her just standin there with her arms cross...me and jaimee feel bad so we go over to her and try to talk to her and she wudnt answer us...i kinda creeped her out i guess but...i kept goin back to her and she kept giving me a look...and we later clarified this look as this little hoochy girl is telling me off...she was a little skevy lookin and--she'll be a whore when shes over hahaahaha...we are so mean...but it gets better so that counselor (who will be unnamed)...came over to the girl and we asked her if she knew why she didnt talk and she rambled on about sumthing and all of a sudden she laughed....and i dont mean chuckled and i dont mean giggled...she bursted out into this weird, hyper active, funniest thing in the entire world laugh...and im usually good and holding laughter inside until someone leaves a room or smile but dont let it out just yet...NOOO i didnt...i laughed right back at her and i cudnt control but laughing at her laugh...it was the funniest thing in the entire world...i cudnt breathe...and then jaimee laughed cuz i laughed and i just walked away hysterical...it was soooo funny

Ok so this was the last highlight and probably the most random yet greatest moment of my day....So me and jaimee went to barnes and noble after she almost forgot about a camper (haha jk...) she didnt but she thinks she did anyways!!....we were there late and then we took chris home and then missed the entrance to it so we had to go threw the mall entracne etc...anyways....it was meant to be this way cuz we were by home depot and we were at a stop sign and all of a sudden a girl on one of those big carts was riding ontop of all this stuff while her dad wheeled it....the dad stopped short AND THE GIRL WENT TUMMBLING ACROSS THE KART AND FELL ON THE FLOOR...IT WAS THE GREATEST THING TO EVER EXPERIENCE...I stopped the car and i cudnt help myself...me and jaimee lost it...it was soooo funny...so g-d made sure that all the shit that went down today...was so we cud experience some fucked up funniest shit you never get to see...that shot of the girl falling off that thing...should have been on tape...it was amazing...priceless!

PacSun - $ 7 an hour
One Day At Rec - $50 a Day
Watching a Girl Fall Off A Moving Cart While Her Dad Doesn't Do Anything and Me and Jaimee Stop to Laugh--PRICELESS!!



-JD


great times!!

watch out the yellow ones don't stop...

Hey, Its 2 in the morning and I really want to go to sleep but I can't. And I have just discovered that Elf is on and im sure I'll be up for the rest of it lol. So anyways...I figured I'd update. So pac-sun has taken over my life haha but I really love the job. Everyone is awesome that works there and im getting the hang of it and its cool. I'm working SOO much....im on call 2mro night...then im workin fri,sat,sun,mon and camp orientation is on friday and camp starts monday...its gonna be rough! But i think I can handle it...i hope lol. I'm going to the beach 2mro, I need to write my paper for my last class on thursday (finally)...a lot is going on! Its good being busy...cuz im just lazy most of the time when im not doing anything. So I guess its good but its all gonna catch up to me...i'm gonna be exhausted i know it...it hit me last week when i worked then went to great adventure then work the next morning...that kicked my ass haha. But i think my body wasnt use to being on the go so much. But its good. I miss morgantown and my friends. I even miss the ones that are home that i never get to see...and i know its been crazy cuz ive been so busy but dont be a stranger too. It sucks a lot when you lose touch with people who were a big part of your life. Its strange how things happen but I do think about all of you!

ahhh one of my favorite elf moments....this place reminds me of santas workshop, except it smells like mushrooms and everybody looks like they want to hurt me! hahah

Anyways...i hope im not working 2mro cuz i rele need to finish my paper and i know im gonna be tired after the beach lol and I really want to go to pac sun and get reefs and some clothes and i cant do that while im working lol. So yeah...thats about it. I am looking foward to my birthday...still dont know wut im doing yet...any ideas?? I can't wait for red bank fireworks and juanitos--love that place. And I'm really excited for summer to truly begin...cuz once camp starts (as much as i am dreding it) it feels like summer.

Ok well i'm gonna go finish watching elf and hopefully get some sleep...but worst comes to worst ill sleep on the beach. lol---be jealous haha

good night
- Justin

good times

Baby is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel....

Currently Listening to:
Head Automatica
- Beating Heart Baby

Hey...feels like awhile since I last updated...

real quick...I got the job at pacsun...my 1st day was yesterday---its a cool job. I went to six flags today....went on El toro....one of the best rides at the park--awesome....and thanks to davids sneaky moves we got on kingda ka--intense!....and lifehouse concert at night was fun. Now I have to wake up early for work 2mro...im workin a lot!---its good but im alrede beat haha....brookdale class ends on thursday---finally---but then i start camp the following monday...rough!!


Countdown
Rec Starts- 10 days
Juanitos/Red Bank fireworks- 17 days
My 19th Birthday - 21 days
Morgantown??- 35 days
Elissa's Party- 44 days
Rec Ends/Margaret Cho - 49 days
Kate's Wedding - 58 days
Back in Mo-town??-59 days

later
- jd

gt

I dare you to tell me to walk through fire. Wear my soul and call me a liar...

Currently Listening to:
Shinedown
- I Dare You

Have you ever been so confused about something that the only thing you can do is try to ignore it. The more you ignore it the more you want to figure out this problem. No matter what you do it just won't ever be resolved. Now say that problem disappears because you finally just ignored it for good. Then one day about a year or two after.... something hits you and you realized that thing you were confused about was never resolved. That thing you could have bet your life you would never forget in a million years just hit you a year or two of forgetting it entirely. Now you may be asking yourself, why is Justin saying that and where the hell is he going with this. If you could resolve something your confused about you would do it, right? Well I mean unless you don't want to but thats just crazy. We all have things in our life that we are confused about and all we want to do is understand or resolve it. So nows your chance, instead of forgetting it ever happened or ignoring it for years....do it now, resolve it now, figure it out now, do what ever you can...so when you look back in a year or two from now and you still never resolved it....you could atleast say you tried.

You know what I think is so weird and this so random but I don't know, I feel everyone does this. Like I was driving home from brookdale and you see a dead animal up ahead on the road, so I say to myself...don't look. Of course the split second you pass it, you have to look! Just like if theres an accident on the side of the road and you don't want to look because what if you see something that can scar you for life like a dead body or someone really hurt but of course we all still look! I don't know what it is, I guess its just like when we watch a movie or a television show, we love to see things blow up or people get hurt for various reasons as entertainment but when it comes to real life...real things still entertain us. Like seeing an accident or road kill on the side of the road. Why are we so fascinated by all of this...it boggles my mind. Its so strange and I don't know if its just me but I'm not gonna lie, I do it all the time. Like if someone says don't look...you have to look! lol. I don't know I guess its just human nature and natural instinct. I think its kinda funny that we do this. I don't know I thought it was kinda of interesting.

Anyways, I don't know but most of you know I write random poems/lyrics etc... just when I have a lot on my mind. And I already have like over 25 of them since I was 14 years old. I think some of them are really good and some of them just suck big time. But I didn't realize how good you can feel by just getting your feelings out through something easy as writing it all out or making a poem into it. You may think I write everything I feel into these blogs, but I don't really. Like serious things that go on in my life or feelings I have inside about things...they go toward those poems and stuff. I have had a lot on my mind lately about the future and its really hard to accept that things won't be the same soon. I'm growing up a lot faster then I ever thought I would. I think I'm growing up more in the mind then in my age. I have such a different perspective on things then most people my age. It kind of sucks sometimes, and it sometimes can just kick me in the ass. Sometimes its a good thing but it can hurt the way things run in my life with the people around me because they aren't on the same path as me yet. I just wish things didn't have to randomly come up out of no where and ruin things that I thought were running smoothly. Its really bittersweet. But I guess in the long run...it may benefit me to some degree but it still seems like I am the only one who gets hurt by things that are out of my contorl. Now how is that fair? Who knows but it really sucks sometimes....and somedays are easier then others. I guess we all go through shit in different ways and one day it will all work out. Time is all that it can take....even if it takes the time of your life, sometimes waiting is the only thing can do....and thats what gets you by.

- Justin

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I'm spinning while falling down...

Currently Listening to:
Cartel
- Honestly

Hey...
So I got a call back from pac-sun...they called to make sure I'm still interested in the job...so now they are calling references and then they'll let me know during the week. My brookdale class sucks big time...really boring and I can't wait for it to be over. Two nights ago--I was having a shitty night and my bro comes into my room and asked me if I wanted to go to Summer Jam....my mood obviously changed lol...Ofcourse I said yeah! The concert was good...a lot of special guests...it rained a lot---and some parts of the concert I couldn't enjoy it but overall it was a good time. A LOT of special guests (blows any zootopia/jingleball surprise away)...for starters...Janet Jackson,Da Brat and Mariah Carey came out randomly during Jermaine, LL Cool J came out in the middle of Jaime Foxx, Missy Eilliot and 10 other people came out during Busta Rhymes...there were ALOT of people that came out during him lol. But Young Jeezy,T.I., Mary J, Ne-yo were awesome too. There was more but I can't think right now lol. Well that was that...I have a paper to write and I really don't want to.
Anyways, I'll leave you with lyrics to a great band and a great song...

Cartel
- Honestly

Please don't mind what I'm trying to say cause I'm, I'm being honest
When I tell you that you
You're part of the reason I'm so set on the rest of my life
Being a part of you
You tell me what you think about being open,
About being honest with yourself

Cause things will never be the same.

So I guess I'll see you, see you around
I'm spinning while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you to stay

Well don't waste time getting to the point, cause I'm, I'm patiently waiting
For your next phone call, your next excuse for losing sleep again
Tell me what you think about being open,
About being honest with yourself

Cause things will never be the same

So I guess I'll see you, see you around
I'm spinning while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you to stay

Cause I can't stop it now
It's so amazing how
I know I cant, I could never walk away

How can we resolve this now
We let it go, and wonder how
This can ever be the same
Can never be the same

So I guess I'll see you, see you around
I'm spinning while I'm falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you, I'm begging!

Cause I can't stop it now,
It's so amazing how,
I know I cant, I could never walk away.

Please don't mind what I'm trying to say, cause I'm, I'm being honest.


gt

Self-Assured

Currently Listening to:
-The Thoughts In My Head

All there is to do

Is broadcast my debut

Ladies and Gentleman, I would like to present…

The one and only

Mr. Confident.

g.t.

Give me a reason to end this discussion....

Currently Listening to:
Motion City Soundtrack
- Everything Is Alright


Hey..
I'm extremely bored so I figured I'd update lol. So this week went by pretty fast. Brookdale class tuesdays and thursdays--its pretty boring but its easy. I went for my ultra-sound the other day and I should find out tomorrow how that came out. This will let me know if I can play sports/work out/drink etc...My blood test came back and it said i'm all back to normal--which is awesome lol. But the ultra sound was checkin out my spleen cuz its still a little enlarged and they want to just make sure. OK i know you probably dont want to hear all this lol anyways...Idol was on last night and my girl Katharine did not win...but its all good she could be the next clay aiken(who sold more then ruben the year he won lol)...I like Taylor too but I really wanted her to win...i voted and got through 27 times haha (i rele wanted her to win) lol

So the weather is getting a lot nicer these days! It was in the 80s 2day and on Monday its suppose to be 85...im excited about that...hopefully go to the beach. I got an interview with Pac-Sun on wed. so thats cool..hopefully that goes well. Next weekend--Matthew might be coming in and 2 weeks after that Alyssa and Kaleen might be coming in...so im looking forward to that. I am going to morgantown sometime this summer before I head back so I can move in early and buy a new bed and stuff. Chris and Phillip are already living there...they said the apartment is nice--im excited for next year.

I can't wait for the beach, boardwalk, mini-golf, the city, red bank and the rest of the summer to finally begin...ok well im goin

later
- justin

gt

It is time to...

...change

(be different)

be safe
(be calm)

be good
(be nice)

discover a new meaning
--Grow up--
^^step up^^
<---figure a way out--->
**reach for the impossible**

...Settle down...
"create a new perspective"
!@Be stupid!@
#Be smart#
>>Be weird<<
//Be cool\\
~Be fun~
<>Be Crazy<>

::forget all the anger::
start all over...
!*set your self free*!

Laugh
(OUT LOUD)

be independent

|Cry|
||Smile||

be yourself

[understand]

find yourself.

g.t.

If I lay here...If I just lay here...Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Currently Listening to:
Snow Patrol
- Chasing Cars

*songs from the end of Grey's Anatomy*
- New Fav. Song


Hey Guys...feels like awhile since I updated. Still home and still pretty bored lol. I just want the summer to really start already...the weather needs to get nicer! I started brookdale summer classes on Tuesday...fun but not so fun lol. I am going back to rec.---fun but not so fun lol. Kind of dont want to but I guess it wont be that bad. I applied for a job at Fossil and I'm gonna hand in my application at Express 2mro. I need to keep myself busy and a few extra bucks would be nice. I would rather work at Fossil because the I like the clothes better there but Express pays $8 an hour when Fossil pays $7...but who knows if I'll get either job lol.

Can we just talk about a few television shows...because hardcore things went down this week...
We'll start little...How I Met Your Mother---Marshal and Lily called off their marriage! and Ted and Robin made out in a "Friends" look alike moment--(but we know robin isnt the mother....unless they call their mom aunt robin) haha....American Idol--My girl Katharine Mcphee is in the finals!!....still pretty shocked about Chris gettin kicked off but I think it was the best thing for his career...we are going to see a lot of him so im not worried lol...Elliot got kicked off--finally! Taylor is a lot of fun to watch and I don't think he is that bad compared to what people say...I think he is entertaining but Kat needs to win--despite what people say about her and that she is supposely stuck up or wutever...who cares--the girl can sing!!...Alias--WOW...coming down to the end...getting kind of confusing but the finale is on Monday and everything should be answered...it is gettin very intense--very excited to see what happens!...Will and Grace--series finale aired 2nite--it was good but not as good as I thought it would be...but I def. enjoyed it and I def. will miss this show...I think I laughed my hardest watchin this show through the years...thank g-d for reruns lol....ER season finale 2nite...very intense...I haven't watched it that much this season but they are known for their unbelievable season finales...and I was not dissappointed--except they better not kill off Abby (or her baby)...it was a very good episode...looking foward to next season...Grey's Anatomy!!!!---One of the best season finale episodes of television...it was done very well!...Izzie leaving for good?? Who will grey pick?...I want her to pick derek but I think she isnt going to pick either and just walk away from both---it needs to cause some drama lol.--Obsessed with this show!...OK now the most intense shocking moment of all--THE O.C.!!!---Marissa died!...completly shocked...I mean like...I really didnt believe it...I'm watchin the car flip over and like NO neither can die..then u see ryan move and take her out of the car..shes breathing--kinda out of it and then she just died right there in his arms! I can't believe shes off the show...very very very surprised. It was done very well but still shocked. (I read she wanted to focus on her film career and she felt there was nothing left for marissa to do, shes been through way too much)...Rumors were saying that O.C. wasnt coming back next season (but it is)...last season? I doubt it...I say atleast 2 more..but we'll see. If they kill off Summer...I'll boycott the show..but im just saying lol.

Thats all I really have to talk about...sad I know haha....

good night
- Justin

Good Times :)

our days were numbered by nites on too many rooftops-they said we're wastin our lives-well atleast if we died we lived with passion...

Currently Listening to:
Cartel
- Burn This City

Back in Jerzee...
So I am already bored in this town and I have been here for a day haha. Nah-it'll get better...wait until everyone is home and it should be cool. So I went to the Mets vs. Braves game today with my bros and fam. friend...it was fun Mets won 6-5! Thats pretty much what I did all day today. Just went out to dinner with the family and came back here and chilled. I'm still pretty beat from these past two days...friday woke up early to finish packing,loadin the car and had a 5 hr car ride and then woke up early this morning to get to Shea early to tailgate--haha interesting time--long story that involved burgers,hotdogs and concrete haha...ANYWAYS...

The crew will be back together soo soon...April comes home 2mro at like 1 in the morning and I'm so pumped to see her...I haven't seen her since January 1st when she woke me up at like 8 in the morning to say goodbye...I was halfasleep...all i remember was a blurr and her giving me a hug haha

We were suppose to go see Panic! at the Disco but we waited too long to get tixs...its sold out! boo!So we might go see Kelly Clarkson...and I might go with April to see Rascal Flatts! So i'm pretty excited about that. I really want to know if there is going to be a Zootopia cuz if there isnt I wanna go to Summer Jam. Who knows!? Concert Tixs are so expensive...argg


A new section of my blog...a lil mix of random thoughts and what I am up to and how much of a chance I am going to do it or have done it..wutever it is... haha its called....

The Percentage...

Beach- 110%
Boardwalk-108%
Mini-golf-101%
I am offically a Sophomore- 100%
NYC- 99.4%
Bandcamp and Ronnie Day's Album comes out- 95%
I'm going back to rec - 94.5%
Movies - 93.1%
Red Bank- 93%
Dunkin Donuts/Wawa/Starbucks - 92.35%
Trip to MOtown - 88%
Joining the Gym- 75.2%
Kelly Clarkson Concert - 70%
Catching up on shows-24/Lost - 69%
Zootopia (if there is one)- 66%
I Have Visitors - 60%
Rascal Flatts Concert - 50%
Random Roadtrp with the crew (as of now) - 49%
Hurricane Harbor - 43%
Great Adventure - 25%

later
- Justin

good times

She can't keep a secret for more than an hour...

Currently Listening to:
The Click Five
- Just the Girl

This song is in honor from last summer...I must have heard it every day at the pool lol


One more final and I am done with my first year of college!! It is kind of unreal...doesn't feel like it. I can't believe how fast it went by...kinda crazy! lol Last final is on Thursday and then I'm coming home on Friday!

Well for the summer I am doing brookdale class, taking English 102 Summer I....I think erika is in my class which is cool. Then, I think I am doing rec--we just got the paper today actually and I am not getting the big raise that everyone was talking about--sucks and also they changed all the sites and now I'm at robertsville...not happy about that and I don't think that many people are coming back...atleast I got Jaimee!! haha I think we'll still have a great summer either way. But it is def. my last summer I can't do it anymore. Next summer I am hopefully going out to California and getting an internship! But anyways...thats in a year from now! lol

Well real quick random thoughts cuz I'm going to go lay down cuz its almost 4 in the morning...
- Panic! at the Disco and Kelly Clarkson concert this summer...almost definite!
- Chester the Fish died and came back to life but passed away short time after :(
I HARDCORED cleaned my room and packed almost everything...still actually have a lot to do but I did well lol
- I got a B in my English class and If i calculated my grade correctly (which I did it like 10 times) I should get an A in my psych class!! :) I think I did very well this semester I'm really happy about that...especially with after mono..didn't think i wud make it the rest of the semester. lol
- I know this was like weeks ago but...You wanted a break....hahahaha--wut r we ross and rachel from friends??...i dont think i actually laughed that hard in long time...thanks it was rele funny...p.s. u just made it way more akward for u --but im just sayin lol
- Umm..Summer is in like 2 days for me...hasn't hit me yet
- I'm going to miss morgantown
- I went out over the weekend and had 2 beers did not affect me at all...and I am so ready to get drunk alrede...fuk the mono and the spleen...i'm fine haha (i'm going to the doctor on tuesday just for a final check up...but after that fuk it) lol
- I was bored earlier and I was looking online and...do u remember the Young Americans...that was so much fun---in 7th grade...it was 3 days and we put on this awesome show...i missed that....the thing that was rele weird...me and april were in it together and we didn't even know haha
- I hear Britney spears is pregnant again...but I dunno if its true...weird
- Alias--is on 2mro but I need to have my mom TiVo it cuz House was on 2nite and its a "to be continued..." and its on during alias 2mro...and I have to see what happens on House haha...sorry Jillian...we'll discuss it when I watch alias like fri or sat haha...p.s u were so drunk on the fone dont lie! lol i love u
- April- I havent seen u in a million years...just warning u I WILL jump on u when i see u...and wont let go for a good 20 mins...so be prepared cuz i miss u so f'in much its not even funny!
- I can't wait for...beach,boardwalk,nyc,concerts,ralphs,ritas,mini-golf and reuniting with the crew...summer is SOOO SOON! i'm pumped haha

good night
- Justin

good times for sure haha

screaming catch me if you can with a cigarette in hand...and its love

Currenly Listening to:
The Pink Spiders
- Modern Swinger

Hey guys...
So the semester is coming to an end...weird!! I can't believe my first year of college is pretty much over....its crazy...ah!! haha Well I had my last american lit class 2day--handed in my final paper and left...no more psych classes (but have to take one more quiz and im done)...then Hist and Soc. final next week! I'm excited to come home but then again...I'm gonna miss morgantown. Ever since I have gotten back I have not been going out--which i kind of don't really mind...cuz it feels good to get your work done lol but I do miss going out and enjoying myself...I wish I could stay a little longer to have some fun. Oh well..the summer will be awesome though! P.S. I MIGHT go out this weekend :) haha
So this week was alittle crazy with the whole apartment situation...kind of got messed up but it is all good now...Me,Chris and Phillip got an apartment--its in a great location downtown...perfect distance to classes and the bars...haha I'm really happy about that. I am way closer to everything...its going to be cool. I'm really excited!! lolol
So many concerts this summer...Panic! at the Disco, KellyClarkson, Bon Jovi, Zootopia??,Summer Jam,Rascal Flatts,Cartel,Ronnie Day, The Pink Spiders(they opened up for Yellowcard...they are awesome!) and so much more...I really hope I get to see some of them!!
Anyways...real quick random thoughts...
- ALIAS is back and I am so pumped to see what happens!
- Idol--my girl katharine mcphee is still doing her thing haha
- O.C.- is gettin crazy
- HIMYM (HowIMetYourMother)- was really good on monday
- I just found out they are making a Grudge 2--weird haha
- I had burger king and wendy's in one day (like right after eachother aha)
- I am done with classes 2mro!!
- I got a new cartlidge earring...its blue--looks cool
- My 19th Birthday is in 2 months 1 week and 2 days! haha
- I'm tired...I am going to get some sleep
- 7 days until SUMMER!!!!!!!

good night
- Justin

Good Times!!

the time is so wrong...its like 2am...i just took my time updating lol

We can't always get what we want but, when we do...we aren't ever completley satisfied.

Hey guys...so I am officially all caught up as of today. I am finally back on track...this is my list of all the things I needed to do in order to catch up on all my classes....it was long and hard but I some how did it lol....and that is why I called it..."MONO SUCKS"...because it does haha

MONO SUCKS!

Sociology Review – Monday April 3rd 4-515pm
Psychology Quiz (Chapter 8) – Due By Tuesday April 4th
English Midterm Essay – Tuesday April 4th
Sociology Exam 3(Scantron 30423) (Chapters 4,9,10) – Wednesday April 5^th 4-515pm
Psychology Extra Credit Closes - Friday April 7^th
Sociology Exam 2 (Scantron 30423) (Chapters 2,3,8,21)– Friday April 7^th 10:30am
Sociology Assignments – Hotel Rwanda and the Laramie Project – Friday April 7^th & April 10^th
Academic Probation Workshop and Advisor- 1-3pm - Friday April 7^th
Sociology Quiz – Chapter 4 – Monday April 10^th 3:30pm
Alcohol Education Session – 5:30-630pm - Monday April 10^th
Psychology Quiz (Chapter 10) – Tuesday April 11^th
Alcohol Educational Session and 5 hours due – Friday April 14^th
Psychology Quiz (Chapter 11)- Tuesday April 18^th
Psychology Quizzes (Chapters 3,6,7) –Thursday April 20^th
Psychology Social Psychology Paper – Thursday April 20^th
Psychology Extra Credit Quizzes (Chapters 11,12,13) – Friday April 21^st

Monday April 3^rd
History Class – 1:30-2:20pm Read-Henretta 269-75,352-380; Holt 3-
Sociology Review- 4-515pm

Tuesday April 4^th
Psychology Quiz (Chapter 8) – Due TLC Hours 9am-3pm
English Class – 2:30-3:45pm
English Midterm Essay
Psychology Class - 530-645pm

Wednesday April 5^th

History Class – 1:30-2:20pm
Sociology Exam 3 (Scantron 30423) (Chapters 4,9,10) - 4-515pm
Psychology – Study Extra Credit and think of Topic for paper

Thursday April 6^th
Laramie Project—Watch tonight and write paper
Take Psychology Extra Credit Quizzes
English Class – 2:30-3:45pm
Psychology Class - 530-645pm

Friday April 7^th
Psychology Extra Credit Closes
Sociology Exam 2 (Scantron 30423) (Chapters 2,3,8,21) – 10:30am
Sociology Assignment- the Laramie Project
History Recitation Class – 11:30am-12:20pm
Academic Probation Workshop and Advisor- 1-3pm

Monday April 10^th
History Class – 1:30-2:20pm
Sociology Assignment- Hotel Rwanda
Sociology Quiz – Chapter 4 – 3:30pm
Sociology Class – 4-515pm
Alcohol Education Session – 5:30-630pm

Tuesday April 11^th
Psychology Quiz (Chapter 10)

Friday April 14^th
Alcohol Educational Session and 5 hours due

Thursday April 20^th
Psychology Quizzes (Chapters 3,6,7) Due
Psychology Social Psychology

Friday April 21^st
Psychology Extra Credit Quizzes (Chapters 11,12,13)

So that was that...now i am in for the weekend in my bed and resting. Even though I am all caught up...I still have work to do....2 more english papers and I am done with that class and 2 more psych quizzes and I am done with that. Then finals week...I have History and Soc.---not too bad i guess.


i wish...
- I could drink
- I could go out and have fun
- I had no stress
- Some people would change
- Some people wouldn't change
- I could change
- It was summer
- I was at the beach
- Little things didn't get to me
- We all could be a certain way
- I didn't grow up so fast
- I was able to change things
- I could skip these two weeks left of school
- There was no more drama
- I was happier sometimes
- I could appreciate things more
- I wasn't selfish
- Other people weren't selfish
- I could make people happier
- I could help people
- Some people weren't so stupid
- Some people weren't such a complete asshole
- I didn't complain so much
- Some people didn't complain so much
- I could accept things
- Other people could accept things
- I didn't care so much about stupid things
- I cared more about things that matter
- I didn't get pissed off all the time
- I didn't have so many problems in my life
I really just wish it was summer...the beach = no problems


We can't always get what we want but, when we do...we aren't ever completley satisfied.
I realized...all those things I wish for...the only thing I can't really change is that I grew up too fast. I am trying to move on from things and not caring about the pointless shit that goes on and I am focusing on more important things. Sometimes I regret growing up and seeing things this way because so many people are trapped in a drama filled world and it causes more drama because I always disagree. But sometimes one of us needs to put other people intact. Sometimes people need that push toward a new beginning or a push in the right direction or a pull back from the wrong one. I think it is ok that I see things this way. I mean HEY...I'm not gonna lie, I could have a stupid state of mind sometimes but I am trying to stick with this growing up state of mind. I like it a lot better and I want to change. It is time for me to just live my life my own way and not deal with all the crap that I am sucked into. If I want to get involved--thats my decision. But I am most likely going to try to tell you my point of view or ignore the situation. I am so sick of being part of crap that always ends with a "sorry" or someone in tears. You should figure out the problem...ignoring it just makes it 10 times worse. "Sorry" doesn't cut it and sometimes it takes more then realizing your wrong to fix a situation. Sometimes people don't know how to deal with their problems...you need to think for yourself and if you can't do that...then you shouldn't be a part of all these problems that you are faced with. You need to either step back from this shitty world of problems and grow up or grow up and fix them yourself.

We all want life to be easy but the only way to know what it feels like for life to be easy is to experience how hard it can actually be. It is just like you can't feel pleasure unless you have experienced pain. Sometimes we need be faced with so much negative stuff inorder to get that positive life we have been searching for. It sucks but in the long run...life is worth all those good times.

I know I just went on and on but, I thought it was something we all can relate to.

later
- justin

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